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G Oct 2015
something I crave
from nobody other than you.

something I hate
but I want all of yours.

something I have
for every one of your actions.

something I need
because you will never be mine.
longing for love.
G Oct 2015
You are my backbone.
Helping me get through all the rough patches.
Always there for me.
You never fail to put a smile on my face.
Some days, you're my only source of happiness.

Just like that.
One day you're here,
The next day you're not.
You left me alone to fend for myself.
Suddenly I'm no longer strong,
No longer able to smile.
I can't stand up straight.
I haven't been the same.
G Oct 2015
I need a break.

From school
From love
From depression
From anxiety
From the thoughts in my mind
From friends

But I never got one.

Instead, I **broke
I wish you recognized the warning signs.
G Jan 2016
Please don't leave me alone
with all of my thoughts.
I'm scared of myself
G Nov 2015
I had a dream about you last night
I woke up crying because I knew it wasn't true.

I was with you and you laid down next to me,
And I felt an overwhelming calmness

I knew it couldn't be true
You will never love me as much as I love you.

I had a dream about you last night
I woke up even more in love with you than before.
I want you so bad.
G Oct 2015
Makeup was smeared across her face
She couldn't stay strong.
G Nov 2015
Hold on to me
Don't let go
I can't hold myself anymore
Depression *****
G Nov 2015
Everytime you're near me
I can't stop smiling
I can't stop laughing
I can't believe how happy I am.

But everytime you leave,
I cry myself to sleep
I miss you more than any words could ever describe
I go back into my state of depression.

I break a little more.
please don't leave me again
G Mar 2016
If only I told you before it was too late.
i regret it so much.
G Nov 2015
I lied when I said I was going to be okay.
I lied when I told you I was fine.
I lied when I told you it didn't bother me.
I lied when I told you I wasn't crying.

I lied when I told you I didn't love you anymore.
it hurts so bad
G Aug 2017
"I miss you"
Then why didn't you call?

"You're the most beautiful girl I've ever met"
Then why did you cheat?

"We have something special"
Then why don't you act like it?

"I love you"
Then why'd you leave me?
G Oct 2015
The biggest lies I've ever told

"I'm fine."
"I'm tired."
"I just want to be alone."
"No, I'm not sad."

"I love you."

but the worst one,
**"I can do this."
I hate myself for them
G Nov 2015
It never gets any easier does it?
help I'm drowning
G Oct 2015
I miss you

The tears stream down my face
It's 2 AM
If I can't be with you,
I'd rather die

please come back..
I can't get over you
G Oct 2015
Don't tell me to man up

When I didn't want to wake.
When it took every ounce of strength not to break.
When the thoughts in my head were slowly killing me.
When I was in so much pain I couldn't see.

So next time before you tell me to "man up",
put yourself in my shoes
so I can tell you to man up, too.
G Oct 2015
I feel like each one of us is a little messed up.
We all have pain and sadness,
anxiety and maybe depression.
Some of us don't want to admit it to ourselves,
because we're afraid of the truth.
I wish I could say I'm an exception,
but I am not.
I'm just as messed up as the next guy,
I just try to hide it from myself.
help needed
G Oct 2017
Too many times,
Too many tears,
Too many people,
Too many memories.
When will it end?
When will we be able to leave our houses without the fear of our clothing being sexualized?
When will they realize this isn’t ok?

What does it take?
How many tears,
How much pain,
How many people,
How much fear?

This is for all of those who have gone through ****** abuse of any form.
Us girls need to stand together and speak up.
We need to support each other and never **** shame.
At the end of the day, each one of us knows someone who has experienced ****** abuse or ****.
Me too.
G Oct 2015
Our love was like the moon
Gradually coming and going,
Dying and coming back to life
Every day and every night.

Nothing happened between us,
We just gradually fell out of love.
Sometimes our love was strong,
Like the moon in the pitch black sky.
Sometimes it was weak,
Like the moon in the bright of day

Not there.
G Oct 2015
Everytime I hear your name,
my heart skips a beat.
I love you
G Oct 2015
I regret not letting you go.
I regret overlooking what we used to have.
I regret allowing you to take advantage of me in the end
I regret giving you my all, with nothing in return.
I regret spending night after night crying over you.
I regret all the time and effort I spent on you.
I regret letting you break my heart.

but I don't regret loving you.
I miss you.
G Oct 2015
1:20 A.M.*
hey, I just wanted to tell you I miss you.
read 1:21

no response.
all I wanted was for you to miss me as much as I missed you.
G Mar 2016
She stared at the six little pills in her hand

one to be skinny
one to be pretty
one to be smart
one to be funny
one to be happy
one to be perfect.

She took them one by one,
feeling them slip down her throat.

at last, she finally felt

little did she know,
none of these things mattered anymore
for these things she once wanted
now were the things that killed her.
G Oct 2015
I'm sorry I'm not pretty.
I'm sorry I'm not everything you ever wanted.
I'm sorry I'm not lovable.
I'm sorry you can't see me with anyone.
I'm sorry I'm depressed.
I'm sorry I'm anxious.
I'm sorry I'm completely ****** up.
I'm sorry I'm not okay.

but I'm not sorry I gave you every ounce of me.
everything I ever wanted to be.
G Oct 2015
When I was little
I thought being teenagers had the best life.
Staying up late, no rules, being able to drive,
having a boyfriend, having a phone
Little did I know
those late nights would be spent with tears streaming down my face,
the rules were still there, just about how I have to cover my shoulders to avoid ****,
I had to resist driving into something to end my life,
I would have my heart broken by a stupid guy,
having a phone was what caused me to want to die.
G Nov 2015
I talked to you.

I poured out my feelings to you.

I told you how I've been

I texted you over and over.

you never answered.

I died.
more in love with you than I want to admit
G Oct 2015
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lonely nights

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aching wrists

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feeling so numb you crave any feeling

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tears streaming down your face

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friends coming for support

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how do you help someone else
when you can't even help yourself?

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help me

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Please help me.
G Nov 2015
Don't tell me that someone has it worse than me
Don't tell me my situation isn't a big deal
Don't tell me I'm just overreacting
Don't tell me my fear is irrational

Especially when I'm having a panic attack.
Especially when I can't handle my situation.
Especially when every time I hear a word I start crying.
Especially when I would rather die than go through that.
the reality is that I'm absolutely terrified and you don't understand.
G Oct 2015
the sound of your voice
happiness, tears, smiles, love
painfully broke me
and I don't regret a thing
G Dec 2015
The first day you came to visit,
you started with a simple "hello."
Those 5 letters made my heart race,
they made my hands tremble.
I knew you had arrived.

The second day you came to visit,
you said "I've come back."
Again, my heart raced,
my hands trembled.
But this time, my lungs gasped for air.
I knew you would come back.

The third day you came to visit,
you said "you can't rid of me."
My heart raced and my hands trembled,
my lungs were still gasping for air
but now I was screaming for help.
I knew you made yourself a home.

You were no longer a visitor.
I don't want you.
G Oct 2015
When your arms wrapped around me,
I felt at home.
I felt invincible.
I felt love.
I felt warm.
I felt something nobody else ever gave me.

I haven't felt that way since you left.
and it's slowly killing me

— The End —