My leg is a canvas
As I've said before
A canvas to showcase my pain
To show the scars that exist in my mind
Brought to life and close to death
By my brush that is a blade
My pulsing red life
My blood becomes my ink
I write my story in these sharp strokes
My heart is my muse
The pain my motivation
And death is my only buyer

You never think it is going to happen to you
Until you hear of a letter from the sheriff’s department,
And the quiet guy in your econ class no longer shows up to school.

You never think it would happen to them
Until you’re laughing over coffee
And someone mentions the events of last friday
And how the police were called in

You never think it would happen to her
Until she’s making jokes about it
But could have been gone forever
May the circumstances had changed

And you laugh along,

But the moment the talking stops,
The smiles fade,
You’ll come to the halting realization

You never think

get out of the way
i've got no idea where these
white heels are taking me
and i don't care
i'm ready to stain them,
break them, ruin them
i'm going to take some
questionable paths but
it doesn't matter to me
as long as i'm not walking
the same circle every day

I will love you with all my heart
To have forever never to part
This is a promise engrained in me
Take my hand and let it be

I will go to the ends of the earth if its needed
Just say yes and let your soul the the lead
This is a promise at the core of me
Kiss my lips and let this be

I will wipe your tears with no questions asked
No more will your feelings be masked
This is a promise I make to you
Look into my eyes abd follow through

I will know how to hold you by the look in your eyes
I will never forget not even on the day that , I die
This is a promise of my passion for you
Smile at me and make it true

I will support you when I cannot support myself anymore
I will dig deeper and find my strength at my inner core
This promise means I sacrifice all of me for you
Understand this and make our lives anew

I will love you with everything so deep inside
And to only you this gift I shall confide
This is a  promise so incredibly real
Kiss me my baby and you shall feel

Thinking of you
Commanding bliss
Making blood, gold spews of tears
Touching spans with my eyes, touching ways with my heart
Have me, have thee
If ever mongst this constancy
See me love if you value me
Come close but stay far like the ether we may gaze but never meet with feeble palms
Thinking of you,
Let me