it seems like a long, long time ago
the girl in red was searching for the down to earth girl in blue
did you manage to go down the rabbit hole again?
or am I actually the one who lost track of time?

why am I so drawn to your mystery?
you keep many secrets my dear
I should be giving up searching for you
yet the thought of you is intriguing

it's been a long time, Alice
I just hope you don't wander too far off the path

I woke up with a sinking feeling,
one I couldn't place.
You quickly told me you were drowning,
and it didn't take long for me to realize that
we were sinking fast.
It was then that I realized it'd be
weeks before I saw your face.
As you abandoned ship,
it hit me that there was only one life jacket between us.
You apologized as you left.
You made it to shore as
I was lost in the undertow.

i thought i’d let you know

i still love you

even after all these years

i still love you

because i never stopped


i still care about you

if you’re doing okay,

if you’ve healed from

the mistakes and wounds

that i’ve caused you


i still think about you

even if i was the one

who left all those years ago

i’m sorry that i was such

a failure, a mess, a traitor

i’m sorry that i gave up

despite the fact that you

were trying to make it work


i’m sorry that i’m such a

disappointment.

i know you will push away

my words and letters but

please…

please listen just this last

time.

i’m sorry…

and i love you.

i never stopped.