dear Alice,*

roses, your lips flushed red
violets, I am blue
without you here
you're too far off the garden patch,
I've been looking by the bushes nearby
hoping I'll catch a black ribbon at sight
one last glance

I've been here underneath the trees,
but you're just fading,
the colors of the skies are melting
to blue, to orange...
with vibrant scarlet
then velvet of darkness of purple
I do hope the wonders of the land are doing you well

though as morning came,
I saw a pixie painting me in blue
a bob cat greeting me with its pearls
I'm glad to say
I'm moving ahead the meadow,
getting attached with her metal clutches
as she's getting near my flower bed
but I do admit
your dimples and flowy locks
could not compare
I still miss you

from Little Red

chasing you I tried to hide
hesitating all I can
everything about you was beautiful
I admit
saying a word about it terrifies me though
keeping these thoughts,
oh I did
a word was kept, these feelings hid
denial I was to you, I was confused
even to myself I refused
resenting these feelings for you
yet you mesmerized me
luring me onto you
loving you, I did too
admitting it would be a crime though
giving signals was not possible too
confessing will make this haywire blow
oh I hid these feelings all too well
pretending that this was nothing at all
rue within me grew cause everything seems so wrong
all these I did to hide everything to everyone; **including you

she found herself staring too long
a glimpse of those eyes
every features and movement
laid intact in her mind

everything about that blonde
gives her something welcoming
though she tries to get away
risking herself into falling

it was nice seeing you after a long while
I’m right here, standing from across the fields
no flower in this meadow
can compare to your blooming smile

seeing your dimpled cheeks reddening
and the gleam of your eyes, melts me
even if it was not for me

I know
that you will never
look at me
with the same glint
in my eyes
as I look at you

I knew it from the beginning
this love is at fault
to look at you – it’s not allowed
and loving you will be a bigger crime

seeing these wounds bleed
please be there to heal
in your arms of pink fluff
with your clouds so thick
please let me be lost
in your eyes

let us travel the borders outside
I'll stay by your side
though, you're better off without me
I'll let you wonder on your own
So let me be here to watch
how you set off to the wilderness
let me be entranced by you from afar

I'll be ignorant for the bliss
hoping to seal this with a kiss
though I cannot
I'm chained to do so
coped by these thorn hedges
with this fear of touching you

loving you will do harm
piercing both of our souls
but I'm willing to pass
these walls, I'll do it all
even if the chances of you
saving me is so small

it seems like a long, long time ago
the girl in red was searching for the down to earth girl in blue
did you manage to go down the rabbit hole again?
or am I actually the one who lost track of time?

why am I so drawn to your mystery?
you keep many secrets my dear
I should be giving up searching for you
yet the thought of you is intriguing

it's been a long time, Alice
I just hope you don't wander too far off the path