I need to be cared for
Cared about
Desired
Wanted
Accepted
Noticed
Held
Loved
Seen
:
.
.
.

.
­


.
Instead I am
Heartbroken
Hopeless
Lonely
Tired
Broken
Ignored
Forgotten.. . .    .       .          .

Everything is empty
My being is void
A singularity has drained my soul
I feel nothing at all



ha... it’s getting darker...

tw self harm, suicide



no one's coming to save you


you're going to mark red on your wrist

no one will know


you're going to beg to give up your life

no one will care


you're going to wither until all you are is a shell

no one will notice


they're not coming to save you

they don't care

they won't ask about the scars

they won't know you no longer cry

they don't want to see your pain


no one's coming

they won't save you if you try

tw suicide



it wouldn't be much of a loss
i'm not pretty
i'm not smart anymore
i'm not kind anymore
i'm not loved
i'm not known
my parents would cry...
my sister would cry...
but would their lives change?
would a loved one truly be lost?
if only i could just disappear...
i don't want to ******* be here
this ******* place...
these people...
you'd all be glad if i was gone

I’m not here
Not present
Dissociating
Distant
Because
I can’t bear to be here

tw self harm, suicidal thoughts




There’s nothing for me here

There will be no love for me

It’s just... it’s not possible
I’ve suspected it for so long
But tonight I know it’s true
There’s no one to care

There’s nothing

Just me and my suffering

No words to comfort me
No arms to hold me
No lips to kiss me

I can feel the end in me tonight
It reaches out to offer its hand
A sweet relief
A few pills and you could be done...

But in my agony I know I must not stop now
And in my frustration I crave comfort
I require distraction
I want to drink it away.... but I cannot tonight
Instead my hand reaches again for the blade
Now shrouded in a new guilt
Because I know I’ve lied to you....
But I couldn’t give you the truth...

So tonight
I’ll silence the agony
With a shallow, swift slash

You were my medication
Boosting serotonin
Dopamine
Of course I felt myself with you
I know I need more meds
But I don’t ******* want them
I want you