**** it.
poetry isn't for you,
it isn't for anyone.
why show the world
your wounds?
keep it all wrapped up
under a knit blanket, i suppose.
fight your demons alone;
a war in your own mind.
don't let anyone see
the scars, not on your wrist,
but in your thoughts.
stay silent, stay quiet.
maybe you'll get through it.
hide it inside, hidden
by fake smiles and fake friends.
move on with your music
and a whole new reality.
the world is a dangerous place;
people don't understand
and people don't know.
don't show your marks,
pull down your sleeves.

no,
poetry isn't for anyone.

I'm sorry I'm needy
and anxious all the time

I'm sorry I get mad and I'm sorry that makes you feel like you don't make me happy
But the truth is
You're all I want
I'm sorry i'm a selfish brat
I'm sorry that I test how far away I can push you until you crack
I just I want you all to myself and when someone you see everyday occupies your time better than I can
I start to feel a little hopeless
Like I'm just some girl you **** on the weekends
I know that's not the case with you
I'm trying to change
I know we have something much more
But when someone else can make you smile more than I can
I sink
And that's when I start to push
Until you're just as sad as I am
I push
And push because suddenly I feel unworthy
I start to wonder what I'm doing here in the first place
I push until I can't stand to see you hurt anymore
And then just like that you forgive me
As soon as I put my arms around you and beg for you to come back
You forgive, tho I can never tell you why I got so upset
You assume the worse and blame yourself

I'm sorry for that
I'm sorry for everything I put us through
I'm sorry for letting you love someone like me

I drank coffee
from that shabby fast food
Thinking it would void my reaction
to the damp weather due to the gloomy rain

When i took a bath that evening
My tears started to fall, i'm weeping
and Not only my skin starts to feel cold
My chest was gripping, and my heart cracks

It felt like it was about to get frozen
Or maybe it already did
I was just hurting because I found out now
that i am next to worthless

A meaningless stone
without life walking a miserable path

We always fought, every now and then
And every argument is emotional
Those instances send me to thoughts  
of Quitting my life by slitting my pulse

My soul is wounded
My thoughts are bleeding
My spirit distraught
But I am strong, I'm just confused

It was not like those fairy tales
where the princess is in distress
though her mind was set on pure hearted goals
We're not the same, I'm just a poor and confused girl

and i don't even know where this story goes
sometimes i think that im not meant to run my life
reinforced by some people's words
i am just meant to live it

I whisper your name to myself,
and it puts this smile on my lips that's hard to wash away.
This feeling that's come over me,
Is so very warm.
It spreads with delight from the top of my head,
to the very tips of my toes.

I'm tangled in words and emotions, thoughts spin out of control. Hypnotising me in endless day dreams. Possibilities as countless as heart beats.

You must be my new fascination.
I'm beginning to settle in,
becoming to comfortable in your thoughts.
I wonder how good your lips might taste touching mine,
How your body might feel under my touch.


Lay me down,
Let me belong to you.
Just don't let me fade away...
I crave to be more then an indent on your bed sheets.
This time,
I want more then a once whispered name.

I crave you like a cigarette and I just as equally want to burn you.
Smoking is an addiction of poison that will waste you away and acid drenched flowers will grow from your ribcage. But I assure you, I'd rather turn my lungs to ash than ever be kissed by the putrid lips of love.

Dear darling dare I love you so?
Most rethorically
Shall I keep you near
To me
You are my favorite place
To be
How lovely the stars become in your company

flesh meets metal fired with deadly intent
children splash in the shallows of an ocean
a woman kneels hugging the gravestone of a loved one
kites are flown high in skies shared with tank shells
the sun shines brightly obscured by the smoke of explosions
there is no normality only the normality of premature death
this is the warring of Man hatred galvanised set loose
all respect all understanding all mercy forgot this is Gaza