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 Feb 2015 rj
Passion fire hope
HOPE
 Feb 2015 rj
Passion fire hope
In my deepest moments
i can feel the fear rushing in
i can feel my pain is rising up
i can feel my doubt
coming in faster than ever
and i can feel the weight
of all the words holding me up
by my throat
Giving me no room to breath
and i can feel the hope
leaving me!
these things that used to make me happy
are the only reason for these tears....
yes, i know how it feels
when youve dug yourself so deep
in regret that you cant see....
.... the joy thats been stripped from your life.....
and see
its only harder when
you dont even listen to .....
a word i say
it doesent make it easier
when you dont EVEN KNOW WHO I AM...
ANYMORE....
but when i finally hit my limits
i realize,
that theres a hope beyond
this... crazy pain.
that even in the mist
of your devastation
even in the depths
of your pain,
EVEN in the middle
of your fear,
even in the loneliness of your past,
EVEN
in the loudest
shouting of your crys
in the times
when your pain......
brings your only comfort
...there is yet a hope left uncoverd
 Feb 2015 rj
Nina
When you tell me that your mom's at work,
And invite me over,
I'm not a ******* idiot.
And I may slip into my nice lace *******, maybe even a matching bra.
But I also bring my favorite movie, and a sci-fi story I wrote for AP English that actually got a decent grade, and a package of Thin Mints, because I know they're your favorite.
Just in case this time is different.
Because I fell for you the moment you laughed at my joke about "That's So Raven" and I never stopped loving you even after everything.
I loved you when you asked for my number and when you took me out on that one date,
And I loved you even when the dates turned into "a quick meet-up because I have to be at work in twenty,"
And I loved you when you'd scratch scribbles on my back with your nails, painting your soul into my body,
And your body and mine would intertwine in sweaty messes and whispered "*****,"
And there'd be marks all on my hips and ***
That I'd awkwardly pass off as "I tripped and fell"
When I showed up to swim practice.
I loved you when your fingers were inside of me, creating murmured "ohs,"
And I loved you when you'd tell me "I can't take you home, I'm sorry."
Or the ever-so-present "I just can't commit to a relationship right now," that is branded in my mind white hot.
I love you, even though I know that to you all I am is a girl whose tights you can get on your bedroom floor in under five minutes.
But you told me today that you had a new girlfriend,
Who you like because she's a keeper, a real good girl, who you want to meet your family, and not another girl like me "who's just looking for a ****."
I. I just.
I love you.
 Jan 2015 rj
Brianna
36 pills
 Jan 2015 rj
Brianna
I swallowed 36 pills today and just laid down ready to die.
You told me my sadness was beautiful... Like a flower drowning in the rain.

I laughed... Because all 36 pills were evenly counted out for the things that made me feel this way.

1. For the headaches, the nightmares and the lack of sleep.
2 for the memories of you kissing me.
3 for the heartache, the way I watched you walk off with her under your arm.
4 for the screaming, the fighting over my weight each day.
5 for the way my family just never understood the way I didn't wanna talk about my feelings.
6. For the long nights I cried myself to sleep for being so ugly no one would want me.
7. For the days I didn't think I would survive at work with a mental breakdown.
8. And last but not least, for the way I could never make myself stop worrying about everything. The way I couldn't figure out my future. The way i couldn't stop hating my entire existence.

36 pills hand counted and evenly distributed down the back of my throat.

Do you still think sadness is beautiful?
 Jan 2015 rj
WickedHope
I wish I knew what part of I love you was the lie
The part where you whispered it
The part where you called it a lie
The part where you ran away
The part where you promised stay
Old piece.
 Dec 2014 rj
Roberta Day
Take me for granted--
You'll be sorry that you did;
No more excuses.
 Dec 2014 rj
GailForceWinds
The knife is my friend
It gives pleasure and pain
When I cut, I feel alive once again
The scars are my war wounds
There are too many to count
I can’t keep track
They continue to surmount
I’m told I should stop
This behavior is “Bad”
All this does is make me mad
They don’t understand
I have to fill this hole
This thing has taken over my soul
I cut and I cut
Until I pass out
The pleasure, the pain
To this I’m devout
 Dec 2014 rj
JustChloe
Flickering
 Dec 2014 rj
JustChloe
She was pretty
and by pretty i don't mean like the anorexic models on magazines
or the copy cat girls we see in the New York city streets
just waiting to find a guy to sell there body
no
she was beautiful
and her inside light grew brighter than the outside one
her personality brighter than the sun
so just by instinct
i tried to put it out
make her like everyone else
I'm the villain in this story
yet all she did was try and get me help
so I lied
so she wouldn't help the real me
now the real me
i don't know who that is
no one has ever met her
I've seen it a few times
I cant tell whats actually me
and which personality trait I made up for people to see
lies are all that is left of me
and I want to explain this to the girl with the shining light
but all she would do is scream
because i tried to torch her light
but just like a candle
it wont stop flickering
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