Things on my mind,
Can’t seem to find the right words
To write a verse
So they’re delivered in fragments

“Just preying on the little lamb”,
You’re so pragmatic you can’t
Even give a ****.

So I just feel everything you can’t.

You lack any capacity for empathy,
And in return it makes me scream
Internally -
Only longing,
For you to feel something,
Anything.

But it’s what I wouldn’t wish on my own
Worst enemy.

In the end,
It’s a blessing.
And maybe,
I’d still take feeling it all
Over nothing.

Sometimes I wish we never met
You were better from a distance
But there was something about you
I couldn’t resist,

I was a mess then.

But I’m a mess forever more
Might as well just embrace the mayhem
I just try to tell myself,
stay golden.

Dark mornings turn into bright days
Sometimes feelings change
We all live in different ways

Would you even take the time
To hear my side?
I’m so **** sick and tired
of these one sided stories

You don’t know a thing about me
But go ahead and believe,
Because
In the end it doesn’t mean a thing.

Searching for shooting stars on the hood of my car
Music blaring in the background
Feeling content in the moment
Yet I wish you were back now

Life gets easier the longer you’re gone
But I’ll never forget about the things that went wrong
Sometimes I wish I could fix it
Life isn’t the same without you
In it

I guess I need to have faith that everything happens for a reason
And life changes like the seasons
Fall, spring, summer, winter...
No matter what I just wish you were still here

Chain smoking in the car
Life’s hard
But I’m livin large
Just tryna make a means
I don’t know what all this means
So all I can do is try to live my life
In the best way, sometimes I know it ain’t right
Bad habits and good times
Just may be the death of me
But all I’m lookin for is the light
Because this world just doesn’t seem right

I know there has to be more
Than simply black and white

Chillin down by the river
A good life ain’t hard to find
When you’re in that state of mind
To leave your old life behind

Same old soul but different life
Never imagined I’d find this path
But the road less traveled
Was something to have

I found my own way
Looking for the bright side
And in the long run
I just wanna be happy when I die

Lying on the hood of my car
Down by the river
Scared of bears maybe
But baby I’d rather go back in time
Back to the good old days when things were fine
The moments when I lived so care free
Just soaking up the good life
Should’ve let it be
Could’ve appreciated the little things
A little more
If I could go back I actually wouldn’t change a minute of it
Except for the fact that you’re far above us
Somewhere in another dimension but I’m too drunk to recollect
What I’m even doing

What is life
What is death
And why are we stuck in between?
I don’t know what it means to me
I just know I’ve gotta keep breathing

Summer’s gone
But was it ever really here?
All the months of white and snow
While the sun was never near.

And who were you?
This shadow in disguise —
Tried to let it happen
But it was just another lie.

There’s nothing left to do
But do what I can
I’ve given my all and lost some more
and in the end
It just leaves off where it began