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Apr 2020 · 273
I wish we never met
Danielle Bluejay Apr 2020
Sometimes I wish we never met
You were better from a distance
But there was something about you
I couldn’t resist,

I was a mess then.

But I’m a mess forever more
Might as well just embrace the mayhem
I just try to tell myself,
stay golden.

Dark mornings turn into bright days
Sometimes feelings change
We all live in different ways

Would you even take the time
To hear my side?
I’m so **** sick and tired
of these one sided stories

You don’t know a thing about me
But go ahead and believe,
Because
In the end it doesn’t mean a thing.
Recently inspired.
Jul 2019 · 333
Wish you were here
Danielle Bluejay Jul 2019
Searching for shooting stars on the hood of my car
Music blaring in the background
Feeling content in the moment
Yet I wish you were back now

Life gets easier the longer you’re gone
But I’ll never forget about the things that went wrong
Sometimes I wish I could fix it
Life isn’t the same without you
In it

I guess I need to have faith that everything happens for a reason
And life changes like the seasons
Fall, spring, summer, winter...
No matter what I just wish you were still here
Part 4 of a drunk series
Jul 2019 · 319
Black and white
Danielle Bluejay Jul 2019
Chain smoking in the car
Life’s hard
But I’m livin large
Just tryna make a means
I don’t know what all this means
So all I can do is try to live my life
In the best way, sometimes I know it ain’t right
Bad habits and good times
Just may be the death of me
But all I’m lookin for is the light
Because this world just doesn’t seem right

I know there has to be more
Than simply black and white
Part 3 of a drunk series
Jul 2019 · 298
Lookin for the bright side
Danielle Bluejay Jul 2019
Chillin down by the river
A good life ain’t hard to find
When you’re in that state of mind
To leave your old life behind

Same old soul but different life
Never imagined I’d find this path
But the road less traveled
Was something to have

I found my own way
Looking for the bright side
And in the long run
I just wanna be happy when I die
Part 2 of a drunken series
Jul 2019 · 153
Keep breathing
Danielle Bluejay Jul 2019
Lying on the hood of my car
Down by the river
Scared of bears maybe
But baby I’d rather go back in time
Back to the good old days when things were fine
The moments when I lived so care free
Just soaking up the good life
Should’ve let it be
Could’ve appreciated the little things
A little more
If I could go back I actually wouldn’t change a minute of it
Except for the fact that you’re far above us
Somewhere in another dimension but I’m too drunk to recollect
What I’m even doing

What is life
What is death
And why are we stuck in between?
I don’t know what it means to me
I just know I’ve gotta keep breathing
Part 1 of a drunken series
Jul 2019 · 314
Summer’s gone
Danielle Bluejay Jul 2019
Summer’s gone
But was it ever really here?
All the months of white and snow
While the sun was never near.

And who were you?
This shadow in disguise —
Tried to let it happen
But it was just another lie.

There’s nothing left to do
But do what I can
I’ve given my all and lost some more
and in the end
It just leaves off where it began
Nov 2018 · 336
Sticks and stones
Danielle Bluejay Nov 2018
Almost two years have gone by
Yet I still think about you all the time
Even after you broke that door down
My mind seems to keep wandering
Back around
Sticks and stones
They didn’t break my bones
But the bruises left a permanent scar
On my heart
Now I have to learn how to trust again
Tell me why I’m still wondering
Where you’ve been
Could we begin again?
Hell no
I would never let you back in
Even when you break the door down
On me
I’m still fighting to believe
That there’s better people
But oh, you and your ego
You sure left a mark on me

You sure left your mark on me
Oct 2018 · 348
Birthday blues
Danielle Bluejay Oct 2018
26 and still kicking
I can’t thank anyone
But the universe
That decided
That I’m worth keeping
At least for another day

It’s hard for me to say
How I feel day by day
But it in the long run
We will all be gone
When the time comes

So you work your 9 to 5
But I’ll be alright
I’m not living the best life
But I’ll get by

At least I have the mountains
That are so old
But they get me
And they bring me peace
Among tragedy
Politics, hatred and greed
In the long run it truly doesn’t affect me
But for my nieces and nephews
I hope for release

Dark days will come
But if you look at the moon
You will see
That It’s all just energy
You can not destroy it
Nor will you receive
Energy that
Ceases to be
The best poems are the ones you write in 2 minutes because it’s from the heart
Sep 2018 · 149
Unfinished
Danielle Bluejay Sep 2018
26 times around the sun
Maybe this year will be different than the others
But the more we turn
The less I see
How things seem to change around me
Maybe it’s a part of getting older
That everything stays the same
May 2018 · 605
Outside and within
Danielle Bluejay May 2018
I sat in silence yet nature was singing
With different hues of the sky so blue illuminating
the evergreens and aspen trees
I don't know exactly what it means to me
But I know it's something special
and deep
Life's about seeing beauty in the little things


These mountains, they're wise
They're lonely but they listen
Take a walk outside with them
And you'll find
that they'll take you
far deeper within
Not quite finished but getting somewhere with this. Late night poetry.
Danielle Bluejay Nov 2017
I never forgave you
Because you lied from the beginning
And then I tried to forgive
-- but instead I resisted
And made all of my decisions out of spite

And now I still can't forgive you
For all the things you've done
You're the reason for these scars
And the woman I've become
I never needed you
But wanted you so bad
Until I realized:
Life's worth more than what you have...
Life's worth more than what we had.
Nov 2017 · 706
I no longer fear the winter
Danielle Bluejay Nov 2017
I took a walk outside
by the river
And looked up at the sky to find
Little flakes of snow falling
as I shivered
The air was cold
and bitter
But the lack of wind made it
simpler --
I no longer fear the winter.
Danielle Bluejay Sep 2015
Frolicking in fields of sun
flowers they say they are,
But all I see is you
Apr 2015 · 375
Second Thoughts
Danielle Bluejay Apr 2015
Have I made the right decision?
Or have I fallen down the rabbit hole?
Did I recklessly put the keys in the ignition,
When I clearly shouldn't be driving?
[The road will swallow you whole]

Did we jump the gun too quickly?
Did we sign up for this too soon?
Unknowingly signing our lives away,
when the flower's not ready to bloom?

I'm starting to question the decisions I've made,
But now I'm afraid it's just a moment too late.

We can't turn back now,
I guess it's time to put the car in drive,
And hope that we make it out alive
[I hope we make it out alive]
The drinking and driving this is a metaphor, fyi. Don't drink and drive friends :)
Apr 2015 · 392
The Cave
Danielle Bluejay Apr 2015
I won't cave
this time around
I've done it enough
and simply
refuse
to live and deal with this abuse
that is dragging
me
down
to the depths of madness
into the abyss alongside Alice
down the rabbit hole
except
there's no way
out
this time around.
Jan 2015 · 2.9k
zombie
Danielle Bluejay Jan 2015
I smoke my cigarette in the dark
as music sofly caresses my soul
and I prepare for the days ahead
This seems to be a ritual, almost
while thoughts spill from their darkest corners
and smoke dances around my bed
I have come to the conclusion
that I am not unhappy, just unfulfilled
The nicotine seems to sooth my brain
As it kisses goodbye the cells it kills
The orange of the ash will eventually fade
And I drift to sleep to then awaken to day
Danielle Bluejay Dec 2014
Oh, how I wish you knew
That you're my favorite,
Then comes the moon.

"I love you more than the moon"
*"I love you more than anything"
Danielle Bluejay Sep 2014
Nine months ago yesterday,
you kissed me for the first time
and you playfully asked,
“Aww you like me?”
I tried to hide my blushing cheeks
and sheepish smile
underneath your bed sheets
as I whispered the word “maybe"
“Well, I like you too”
And that was the start
of something wonderful

Six months ago yesterday
we were lying in your bed
and you said,
“I think I might love you”
Little did you know that I
was already head over heels
for you, too
And that was the start
of something magnificent

A year from yesterday
I don’t know
exactly where we’ll be,
But I can only hope
that I’ll still be with you,
and you with me
love notes for my boyfriend xoxo
Sep 2014 · 1.1k
Luna
Danielle Bluejay Sep 2014
Sometimes I’ll look up
and thank the moon
just for showing her face
But just like anyone,
We all have
our dark days
Sep 2014 · 1.2k
Love
Danielle Bluejay Sep 2014
It's not all rainbows and butterflies, babe
But I'm willing to tread the water
Sep 2014 · 1.2k
Even in the tiny things
Danielle Bluejay Sep 2014
I looked out the window and saw
wet leaves
stuck to the concrete

It was a beautiful compilation
of orange, yellow, some brown,
a few green

And the more I looked around
the more I came to see
the utterly pure magnificence
of the world
around me

Even in the tiny things
Aug 2014 · 525
Always, Always, Always
Danielle Bluejay Aug 2014
I want to live like a tree
Very grounded; rooted
Yet my head still in the clouds
So calm in a storm, with just the occasional
snap
Always there,
Always listening,
Always beautiful throughout the seasons
wrote this in my notebook during class one day instead of taking notes. here's to the daydreamers
May 2014 · 369
Where is your mind?
Danielle Bluejay May 2014
My mind can wander
across the tallest mountains
and through the densest forests
but it always seems to find it's way
right back to you.
The problem is
that I wonder where your mind runs
and if it seems to find me, too.
But maybe your mind climbs the mountains
and travels the forests
and lingers through fields of daisies,
And maybe your mind
just doesn't ever come across
someone like me.
Wrote this on my phone one night and decided to post it for you friends
May 2014 · 509
Nature's song
Danielle Bluejay May 2014
I sat in silence yet nature was
screaming,
but,
so gently, so subtly
The wind whispered
into my ear
and the crickets sang their sweet lullaby
All was in harmony
underneath the moonlit clouds
And I sat in peace
just basking in nature's sounds

It's funny,
even on our most lonesome nights
we are never truly
alone
Apr 2014 · 426
It's true, my dear
Danielle Bluejay Apr 2014
Drops of dew on the window sill in the morning
seep down into my heart
like they know that it's yearning
Next to me you sleep, so precious in the dawn
As the demon inside of me
brings out feelings withdrawn

It's true, my dear
You are so much more beautiful to me
than you think you are
Apr 2014 · 429
Heads
Danielle Bluejay Apr 2014
Sometimes I’ll just sit and wonder
How
It all came down
To the flip
Of a
Coin
Mar 2014 · 10.8k
Doctors
Danielle Bluejay Mar 2014
You scribble down the name of a drug I can't pronounce
Is that an A or an O?
And send me on my way
It seems like that's how you send all of us off these days
Do you really know my life?
Would you even take the time to listen?
I have my doubts
and I'm sticking with them
Because frankly,
all you're concerned about
is the paycheck you'll be getting.
Freewrite from a few years ago that I modified a little bit. Re-inspired by recent events
Mar 2014 · 425
In a funk
Danielle Bluejay Mar 2014
Outside it’s snowing but my insides are warm
Thanks to the whisky I shouldn’t be drinking
It sits on the counter and whispers my name
Seductively disturbing my pattern of thinking

I puff on my cigarette and stare at the ceiling
And reflect on the ways my life has gone wrong
As I carelessly poison my body with vices
Dosing myself until it’s all gone

Sometimes I wonder why I don’t care
About much at all, really, it’s almost a shame
That after all the time that has come and gone
Not a single thing has changed
Feb 2014 · 2.7k
Temptation
Danielle Bluejay Feb 2014
My parents always gave me enough rope
To hang myself
And that alone kept me
From crafting a noose
But you
Gave me enough rope to hang
The both of us
And that, my dear
Is all the more enticing
Jan 2014 · 652
Spinning
Danielle Bluejay Jan 2014
In my dreams I'm angry
Only to awaken
To another situation
That I don't want to be in
It's complicated
I tell them
When they ask me the questions
That I don't want to answer
Maybe
This is good for me
Maybe it's all going to be
Okay in the long run
I do have faith
But for now
I choose to run
From my problems,
too troubled to solve them
At the moment
It's more than one component
In the potion
That is poisoning my soul
I am out of control
But I like it
Because while I am spinning recklessly
I have control of the velocity
And that is what exhilarates me
So why fight it?
Tangled thoughts weaved into a poem
Jan 2014 · 538
Emotions, or lack thereof
Danielle Bluejay Jan 2014
It’s a ****** kind of thing,* she said
“What is?” he asked
Not feeling.
He took her hand and placed it on his chest
“Do you feel that?”
Well, yes.
She could feel him and he felt for her,
And in that moment
it was all she needed.
I wouldn't exactly consider this poetry but maybe if I ever write a book this will be in it
Jan 2014 · 637
A friendly reminder
Danielle Bluejay Jan 2014
A man once came up to me
He grabbed me by the arms
And he shook me,
shouting,

"LIFE IS BEAUTIFUL! CAN'T YOU SEE IT?
You are part of something so wonderful!
You are a gift and you were given a gift.
And don't you ever, ever forget it."

As I looked at him in astonishment,
He simply smiled and off he went.
Jan 2014 · 555
cruel, beautiful timing
Danielle Bluejay Jan 2014
Time does not exist,
Yet timing can mean
                         everything.

What does this mean?
I insist, please explain,
How a tic of a seemingly insubstantial second
Decides the fate of everyone in question?

It’s a breathtakingly beautiful mystery
Whether time is
     for
             or against
me
In this unfathomable paradox we blindly believe
Jan 2014 · 663
Coincidental encounters
Danielle Bluejay Jan 2014
Hello, kind stranger
Could you spare me a few words?
You know nothing about me
But you know that I hurt
It’s comforting, knowing you care
It’s seemed to restore my sense of hope
Knowing that there is someone out there
With no precedent, no hint of my story
No opinions and not a flake of judgment
Just a genuine passerby that affects you immensely
Oct 2013 · 389
I want to be like a leaf
Danielle Bluejay Oct 2013
Leaves so effortlessly float
to the ground when they fall
dancing their way to the end of their days
like nothing is wrong at all

I want to be like a leaf
so graceful in the wind
For they live in peace and learn to accept
that all things come to an end
(but then they begin again)
Oct 2013 · 584
Eat. Sleep. Repeat.
Danielle Bluejay Oct 2013
Eat.
Sleep.
Repeat.
The cycle of our defeat.

Eat.
Sleep.
Repeat.

Nothing more and nothing less
The life we live is all a guess
Do we really know anything
Or is life but a dream?

The sky might suggest that something more is there
What I'm searching for is a reason to care

Eat.
Sleep.
Repeat.

Please tell me that this isn't it
Let me know there is more than this
Oct 2013 · 647
Drink
Danielle Bluejay Oct 2013
Drink until you feel better,
Then have another
Just to be clear that your problems are gone,
Your headache is no longer,
The nausea has surrendered.

You will forget about whatever demons are drowning you
and float up to a place where nothing's bad around you

But be careful with this vice,
Because while intoxication might feel nice,
It will never last
Soon you will be back
at the bottom
With your forgotten problems
Weighing more than ever

So remember,
Down the drinks
and forget to think
about the madness in your head
Then drink some more, and then repeat,
Repeat until you're dead
Oct 2013 · 744
I used to be a full moon
Danielle Bluejay Oct 2013
I used to be a full moon
Exposed,
Completely illuminated by the sun
I showed you my all
And asked for nothing in return
But hoped for your admiration
Or at least some acknowledgment
I wanted you to stare at me
Like I was the light in your darkness
But now I am new

I am a new moon
Hidden by the Earth,
Away from reach of the sun
I know now that darkness
Keeps you safe from the unknown
Because although it is still there
At least you won’t see it coming
And although I will soon open up again
Next time I’ll know better
Walking along the street the other day I came across some graffiti that read "I used to be a full moon". I really liked it so I decided to write about it
Danielle Bluejay Oct 2013
You shine like the moon in my eyes
Your subtle illumination is modest yet lovely
Graceful is your presence
And so effortlessly beautiful

Your mystical ways, they draw me in
Light a moth to the light, blindly trapped in your rays
So blissfully unaware of your influence
Yet I am content

New or full, complete darkness or light
I know you are there
But the question I ask, is if you feel me as I feel you
Or if some things are better left unknown
Sep 2013 · 540
SLEEP
Danielle Bluejay Sep 2013
Ignore us, your problems, and we’ll lurk your corners
Dads and Moms with too many bills
They lost the thrills of being alive
All they want to do is sleep.
wrote this in 2011
Danielle Bluejay Aug 2013
I don’t understand you
But I guess that’s half the fun
You keep my on my toes
Always guessing when you’ll run
And then you run

I don’t like the way you treat me
But I guess that’s half the fun
You’re the perfect blend of kind and cruel
And then you’ll leave me when you’re done
But you aren't the only one (I've been left before)

I don’t know what’s going on
But I guess that’s half the fun
You’re good at this tricky game you play
And I’ve been trying not to jump the gun

But I think you’ve already won
You've already won

(I can do it again)
Wrote this in April 2013 about a boy I was infatuated with. As you can probably imply, things didn't end well. But that's half the fun, right? ;) In search of better fish
Danielle Bluejay Jul 2013
When the party is said and done
I’m alone
Watching rain drops fall outside my window
Pondering all the ways things went wrong
Can you tell me where my mind has gone?
I can’t seem to put my finger on
Just exactly where I left it
It might be a goner along with my heart
And my liver
Or maybe it’s just hiding from the madness that infects it
Either way I’m alone regardless
Watching the rain fall, hopeless, heartless
Patiently awaiting the next party
To distract me
Only until it’s over
Jul 2013 · 1.3k
Puppet
Danielle Bluejay Jul 2013
I am your puppet with pretty round buttons
You’ve got your hands on the strings and you’re tugging
My seams are tearing yet you persist
With your pushing and pulling and little mind tricks

I know the way to cut the strings
Yet somehow they’re oddly comforting
Like the way a bird still sings while missing wings
I’m used to it
not sure if I like the rhyme scheme but I like the concept behind the words
Jun 2013 · 439
Wasted time
Danielle Bluejay Jun 2013
20 weeks and I've fallen
So hard that I have shattered
The butterflies ate me alive
As I realized I never mattered
Mar 2013 · 376
Or at least I hope so
Danielle Bluejay Mar 2013
Nine weeks and I’m falling
For the way you sigh
When your gaze is locked with mine
Like I’m something worth keeping
Or at least I hope so
Mar 2013 · 1.4k
Contentment
Danielle Bluejay Mar 2013
Our bodies together,
Perfect patterns in the dark of the night
The beauty of our tessellation
Was solely known by us
The only sound:
Two heartbeats underneath
Heavy breathing
Drowning out
The voices screaming
In my head
Mar 2013 · 759
Tragic lust story
Danielle Bluejay Mar 2013
Sitting in my bedroom
Tryna write this English paper
When my sister calls and tells me
That the boy who wouldn’t date her
Has gotten her pregnant
The boy who up and left her
After getting in her pants
Wasn’t down for the romance
Just a plethora of one night stands
And now he’s got a kid on the way
Whether he goes or he stays
‘Cause my sister would never have the will to say
“**** it.”
And I feel it,
This real ****, the intense hit
Of news in my face
Things are gonna change
And although I’m both sad and happy
For my single sister and her baby
All that this has taught me
Is that **** happens to the best of us
And the sun shines on the rest of us
But I don’t know why
Just heard some big news and was immediately inspired to write a rap about it. This is a rough, unfinished draft. I just had to get some thoughts off of my mind.
Danielle Bluejay Feb 2013
This house is full of ears but I can't talk to anyone
They've heard this one a thousand times
Most exciting thing I do
hang half way out a third floor window
maybe throw lit cigarettes down
and maybe I'll catch fire
Something warm to hold me
Something pure to burn away the darkness
that hides inside my mind
All that evil ****'s not hard to find
I guess I only claim to be nice.
This is a song written by the Alkaline Trio called Maybe I'll Catch Fire. I personally don't like the music but I absolutely love the lyrics.
Feb 2013 · 662
It was pretty
Danielle Bluejay Feb 2013
We smoked a cigarette in the snow
As little flakes swept in with the wind flow
And clung to your hair
It was pretty, the way your eyes
Contrasted with the white sky
I could get lost in them

I looked at you and let out a sigh
As I embraced my faded high
And anticipated your departure
It was uncanny, the way your smile
Made me feel so comfortable
I am strangely into you

Maybe the stars will align
Into perfect patterns with time
And things will fall into place
Feb 2013 · 528
I smiled because I knew
Danielle Bluejay Feb 2013
Ignite the flame and light my cigarette
Sometimes I wish we’d never met
You were better from a distance

But who am I kidding?
It’s impossible to fight this feeling
I hope you’re ready for these sparks to fly

Our eyes were locked for that split second
With the strangest thought that we were destined
I smiled because I knew
I've been into the whole Shakespeare star-crossed lovers idea lately so I decided to partially incorporate it in this poem.
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