I would not rather say,
what I felt today.
It was something scary and intense,
that made my nerves go insane.

It is something I asked for,
To continue the learnings I adore,
But, Chaos came into my core.
Now I'm breaking down, oh no.

I recall talking to a stranger.
I told him what I've done before
He was alarmed & disturbed
And kept asking about it all day long.

Today, I asked for a favor
And kept my pride lower than before
My psychological disorder shifted too strong
Now, my body's shaking, oh no.

I rather not tell,
How badly I felt.
How I tried to **** myself
On the 24th day of December.
How suicide thought possess
How PTSD caress.
How down I was, regressed.

Because the only thing people see,
Is the damaged part of me

Now I know, that feelings change their form same as the dreams change their course.
But dreams are the ones that makes you Alive and beliefs are the ones that makes you succeed.
Now I know, that every day counts and every action i make gets me closer to what I wanna and what I'm destined to become.
Now I know, that life is like a river, it has it's own flow, it goes all the way around and starts again.
It feeds the plants and plants feeds the animals,
and animals feeds the Humans, and humans feeds the Earth the moment they die,
and the Earth makes Universe grow, and Universe sets the rain that makes this space to  blossom. This space between You and Me.
And river starts to flow and makes us closer.
We chrush into each other, like atoms that makes molecules, and molecules creates notion that sounds like the birds and feels like the Sun shred its rays on your chest.
It all comes to you and it all comes to me.
'cause all of this is just for You as much as it is for me, We just have to believe.
I believe and I'm asking You to believe too.