How do you say goodbye
To all the things you love
How do you leave
All of it behind
Do you whisper
The words
As quiet as you can
As soft as a breeze
How do you say goodbye
To everything you have
How do you turn away
And never look back
Do you walk
As slow as possible
Or do you run
So quick you're invisible
*how do you say goodbye

For a minute
I actually thought I was okay
And then
I heard that song
The one we danced to
In the moonlight
Under the stars
At midnight

How do I tell you all those difficult things?
How am I to let you know?
The words don't come
And the phrases are hard
They get stuck in my throat
How do I say we can't be together?
How do I get the words out?
My thoughts are lost
And hard to find
They evade my every grasp
How do I not break your heart?
How am I to know?
I always seem
To let you down
And cause you so much pain

Sometimes
It's just easier to pretend
I'm okay
Than to explain why I'm not...

Stupid girl
He doesn't care
Stop wishing
And dreaming
Foolish girl
No one loves you
Stop fantasizing
And believing
Because nothing
Absolutely nothing
Will ever happen

I will try
For you
To overcome my fears
I will try
Because it was you
Who asked me to

I know it's not real
But it still cuts deep
I still cry for you
And feel everything
I can't help myself
I get pulled into your story
Every single time
And I can't stop myself
So late at night
When I'm crying for you
I tell myself over and over
*it's not real

Erratic breathing
in and out
Tears welling
in and out
Emotions spilling
in and out
Storm brewing
in and out
Stop breathing
in and out
Storm slowing
in and out
Emotions receding
in and out
Tears stopping
in and out
Calm breathing

I'm happy* says my smile
Couldn't be better says my eyes
I'm great says my voice
So content says my sigh

I'm tired says my heart
Can't sleep says my mind
I'm broken says my soul
I'm breaking apart and ready to resign

Sure
Go ahead
Trample all over me
Do whatever the hell you want
Its fine
Really
Its not like I matter
Or have feelings anyway

Raindrops splatter
Tears that don't matter
Painting the pain on my skin
Words slice
And create a vice
That breaks the girl within
Thoughts swirl
Emotions whirl
Where can I begin?
Bones break
A heart that aches
Disguises that wear thin
Feeling wrong
Can't sing my song
Will never make up for my sin..

It's too late to stop me now
I'm already falling
Further than I've ever fallen before
I've lost myself to you
I can't control it
No matter how hard I try
My heart belongs to you
And I love it
I never thought this could happen
To me of all people
But it did and it's crazy
I'm just so happy
Although I don't know
If you feel the same
Because you've never really
Said anything at all
I've been dropping hints
And clues everywhere
That you haven't seemed to pick up
And it kills me
No one told me
How hard this would be
So maybe I should stop
Before I get hurt
But I've already fallen
It's too late now
No one can stop me
And it hurts so bad

I don't mean to not reply
It's just that when I see your name
I freeze and stop
My heart pounding fast
I wonder if you truly want to talk
Or if your just another person to use me
Do you like me
Or just tolerate my presence
Like everyone else
I don't mean to leave you hanging
It's just that I read too deep
That hey to you means hi
But to me so much more
I can't tell if it's a hey i just want to talk
or hey can you do this, this and this for me?
I don't mean to hurt you
I'm just scared of being hurt
I really don't mean to not reply

Each word she writes
Is a cry of despair
A plea, a tear
She's being held together
By the words
She writes

Each word he sings
Is a chorus of pain
An appeal, a claim
He's being bound together
By the words
He sings

They do not realise
The hidden meanings
Behind their words
All they see is lines
Scrawled on paper
All they hear is sounds
Floating in the air
They are missing
The messages
That are hidden
Deep inside
Each word

Turns out
I'm not as fine
As I let you believe
I hide behind
The walls of stone
I've built high
I run from everything
My emotions
My fears
My pain
I can't seem
To handle the things
I pretend to
Turns out
I'm falling
Into despair
And I'm hiding
The truth
Behind lies..

I'm living in an alternate reality
So really I don't exist
It explains a lot about me
Like why I've never been kissed

The stars float below my feet
The sea drifts above
I’m invisible to all around me
So I will never be loved

I’m on the other side of a mirror
Never to be set free
Only to gaze through daily
Into a world I will only ever see

Although it means I see things
That nobody else does
I see beauty in everything
Even in the tiniest piece of dust

But still I am destined to be
Alone for all of time and eternity
For I don’t truly exist, you see
But live inside a fantasy

I keep fantasizing
That maybe it could be me
The girl you long for
Or daydream about
I can see it in your eyes
The distant look
Of a man wishing, wanting
Someone or something
I am clinging tightly
To a small thread of hope
That your feelings for me
Haven't changed
Just as mine haven't
For you
Although I know
I need to stop pretending
I can't help myself
I can't stop myself from dreaming

How do I stop the voices swirling around in my head?

You are slowly pulling me apart
There's no way to mend my broken heart
You are slowly drowning me
I think it's time for me
To fly away and be **free

I can't seem to breathe right now
Or feel any part of my soul
The tears cut like razors across my cheeks
I no longer feel like I am whole
I just don't know what to do or say
I am consumed by darkness
Waiting for the Devil to arrive
And grant me one last kiss...

I don't need to make
The same mistakes
As I've already done
I don't need to go back there again
And I don't want to
Hurt you one more time
Cause I've already been there
And it killed me, it killed me

*Don't want to make the same mistakes

I'm in love with the
                                  thought of being in love
It consumes my soul

When he kisses you in the rain
Or slow dances with you in the kitchen
When he holds your hand any chance he can get
And takes the time to listen
When he gives you all his time
No matter what he has on
When he leaves you flowers on every counter
And plays all your favourite songs
When he dedicates his writings to you
Or stays home when you are sick
When he makes you a picnic
And lets you watch the movies you pick
When he can't sleep without seeing your eyes
Or hearing the way you laugh
When he calls you after he says goodbye
And waves at the end of the path
When he whispers 'I love you' before he leaves
And once more when he sees you again
You'll know he's the one you will love forever
And never leave his side for the rest of your days

I want my words to matter
For people to hear and be moved
I want my actions to inspire
For people to see and approve
I want my thoughts to have meaning
For hardships and sorrows to soothe
But what I want doesn't matter
And most certainly never comes true

I am broken
Just as you are
And I want to fix you
But how can I?
When I am just as shattered as you?
You are broken
Just as I am
And you want to fix me
But how can you?
When you are just as fractured as me?
*We are broken

The tears are there
Threatening to fall
I’m choking back sobs
And reinforcing my walls

These late nights
Won’t stop bringing me down
The darkness and quiet
Seep into my mind

I can’t control my thoughts
Most of you
Others of what has been
Things we've gone through

I can’t fight the monsters
Stuck inside my soul
They slowly break me down
And turn me cold

These late nights
Will carry on happening
Because I can't find the words
To express the things I think

*these late nights are slowly killing me...

The sky is making me sad
The way it’s crying
All grey and bleak
And I’m listening to the same song
Over and over
It’s stuck on repeat
They seem to be reflecting
The state of my soul
Tired and gaunt

I can't stop myself from loving you
I can't stop myself from feeling this way
I can't stop myself from needing you
Oh baby
I can't stop myself in anyway

I'm angry and upset
I can't understand this
What is wrong with people?
Can't we all just get along?
Can't we look past colour
and exist in harmony?
Why does it always end
In gunshots and death?
Where is all the love?
Where is all the hope?
People scared to go out
Children scared to live
This should not be happening
And yet *it is

I've learnt to distract myself
Because I have found
That when I'm not doing anything
I begin to drown
In all my sorrows and fears
I suffocate, I choke
I feel like I can't breathe
And I begin to lose hope

When I feel like this
I can't help but sigh
And sit by myself
Wishing one day I could fly

When I feel like this
I eat until I'm round
Mainly chocolate and sweets
And never make a sound

When I feel like this
I just want to sleep
Curl up under my blankets
And let the tears seep

When I feel like this
I can't help but sigh
And sit by myself
Wishing one day I could fly....

Why is it that you always come to me
When your issues are strong
And your needs are pressing
But when I need someone and go to you
You ******* off for something else
And don't try to help at all

Oh Sun, thy warmth hast been cooled by the clouds...

I've been running until I can't breathe
Until my lungs are on fire
I've been moving until I can't feel my feet
Until my heart screams in surrender

I've been trying to escape
All the ghosts and ghouls that haunt me
I've been wishing to erase
All my fears and all my memories

I've been hoping to leave behind
The people I once thought I knew
I've been convincing my mind
That it's time I withdrew

*i've been running

I caught myself today
Picking daisies
And making bouquets
Playing silly little games
Like ' He loves me
He loves me not'
I strolled through meadows
And lay in the long grass
Dreamed and hoped

That one day it could be me
In the arms of one I love
Living a life of dreams
and happily ever afters
I hope one day it could be me

I caught myself today
Staring at the sky
For imaginary stars
That seem to float by
Wishing on the ones
The shoot past
Sparks in the night
Prayers gone so fast

*i caught myself today

I look out at the moon
And wonder if you're looking at it too
Do you see the stars
The way I do?
Do you just see ***** of fire
Burning billions of miles away?
Or do you see wishes and dreams
Hopes for each new day?
I look out at the moon
And wonder if you're looking at it too......