God, I need your direction.
I have never in my life
been as confused as I am
right now this current second.

Lord, You know my heart.
You know my intentions are pure.
Why can't I hear you?
Why aren't you showing me?

Jesus, I want to do what's right.
Show me where to go.
Lead me in the way
your plan says I should.

Holy Spirit, be my guide.
This what I pray.
Take my very hand in yours
and lead me along the way.

I can't imagine all the
pain you must've felt
as they beat you with the whip.

I can't imagine all the
torture you went through
as they nailed your hands and feet.

I can't imagine what an
eternity spent with you in
Heaven is like but I know
that because of the pain and torture
you willingly endured
I get to spend forever with you.

he only told her he loved her
when he wanted her body

i thought these blankets would wrap me in tranquility
i thought these four walls would shield me from the whispers

instead, i lie awake at war with the demons in my mind that tell me i'm not enough

she saw his face in everything she looked at
she smelt him in her bed
she heard his voice in her head
she could still feel his lips against hers
but worst of all, she could still hear him say, "I love you"
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the anger tore through her body and rushed through her blood

shock took over and she could no longer feel

her body was protecting her from the stabbing pains going through her chest

even her unconscious mind knew that the heartbreak she was feeling was too much to bear in an unaltered state.
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the numbing pain flowed through her body like a beautiful wave
the words of betrayal felt sharp like the rocks under the water
and the tears burned her eyes like the salty air from the shore

maybe that's why she doesn't like going to the ocean anymore.
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