Pop a pill a day just to crack a smile
Stare at a mirror, frown reflected back
Wipe the sleep from haggard eyes for a while
Now waiting for the phantom’s smile to crack
The daily progression of this sorrow
Bringing a lonesome and mind numbing pain
Healing slowly, today, tomorrow
A chuckle, a grin, happiness to feign
It should not take chemistry to make me
Feel something, anything but desolate
From chemistry, my mind contorted be
While senseless enough to self-isolate
The struggle for happiness, all my life
Not innocuous, fear lend to strife

Just like a maelstrom heading to the sea
Living my life both quiet and alone
My life, my times, in her head should not be
Still she comforts as if for years she’s known
How can she understand my bittersweet
Laments, residing deep within my soul
Comfort and hope I see when our eyes meet
She pulls me out of my deeply dug hole
Refuting my love in rejection kind
Instead insisting that she loves us all
The kind hearted heart to whom my mind pined
The foreknown knowledge caused my hope to pall
Despite whatever it is that she rends
The damage is never what she intends

Oh, sunshine, an eclipse has shown you true
In your warmth roses grew, but in cold they freeze
Send me searching, grow my garden anew
Love blown away, thin, leaves in the autumn breeze
Away with thee, foul torturer, begone
Malefic specter of my hope filled dream
Foul Raven causing my visions to wan
My life, my love, from my heart do you ream
Once, you a dove, a symbol of my love
But since, your pristine feathers have turned black
A gift, from the dark pit to which you shove
Not enough on my barren field you track
Even though you hurt, destroy, and you maim
Impossible, I find, to give you blame

The invisible man watching as you
Produce, consume, intake all of this vice
The lies, mind boggling stories untrue
But boring, these things are life's spice
Why, the man must ask, unseen and ignored
Why does life need stimulations as these
To them, to thee, transmuted water poured
Allowing the moment and time to freeze
Bitter, angst and oppression of rights wrong
Sweet, the tantalizing succor of thee
By the time the evil shown in the throng
It's too late, of your freedom you be free
A joy, a friend that's all but it seems
Is a silent ****** of all your dreams

To be alone, mind-numbingly so
To be quiet, to be invisible
One pursues the other, as they both row
By and by, forever in this fable
Throughout, hollow pain they perpetuate
A shell, empty, alone is meaningless
Never comes the drive to retaliate
For the truth speaks only under duress
Timeless oppression seeks only its host
*******, ethereal chains binding all
Soulless, are enterprises pursued most
Building up an image merely to fall
To be the only one, to walk alone
To live as that life, ideally shown

Oh, sunshine, to you my eyes be affixed
As Aphrodite, elegance sublime
For it's beauty divinity afflicts
Beauty that withstands the scourges of time                              
Time will pass by and people will grow old    
But in your soul, your beauty eternal
While leaves of long dead spring blow in wind cold
And long gone stars we watch, nocturnal                                            
Oh, sunshine, to you I am drawn akin
To those pests, drawn to a fire in the night
A light in the darkness my life has been
You be my dame, my wise shining knight
My sweet, to you my heart enamored be
Enraptured, loveliness is all I see