Into the void I go
Nothing but darkness from head to toe
I'm cold...
I hear a whisper in the distance
It tells me to just let it go
So I do...
I see a light
So I smile thinking it's my way out
But I was wrong...
It was just another void colder than the one before
So into the void I go
With no hope and no soul*

I tried to find myself
in places that didn't exist...
My soul and heart are filled with void
I tried to find the missing piece
But I only ended up losing more
I just wanna find happiness
Within myself...
Always wondering
If there's a way out of this
....Getting high
Trying to fill this void
Realizing there's no way out
...living in hell on earth

By AB , FA & SP


AB :
Living life on Roses to make a trip on the way to
Salvation,
I'm losing my head and my consciousness is
Shifting in and out of existence,
My mind is now gone,
I'm on my own,
On my lonesome,
It's the time of the month when my emotions
start to elevate,
What is there to love when it makes you put a
Gun to your head,
What is there to love when it rather abandons
You instead,
Making daily rounds for heartbreak,
I'm on round 16 and I'm still not turning over
In a grave,

FA:
Standiing tall...
Nothing is dragging me down
anymore.
No more insecurities  Learned how
to love myself Forgave my father and mother  
Apologized to everyone else.
Staying positive all the time And realizing
everything happens for a reason.
No longer blind,
I see the world differently.
........ I guess its true,
Demons have good in them too,

SP:
They put a gun to my head and said this was
the end But I laughed in their face and just
rose again  Because at that moment I realized
this where my life was meant to begin And all
the pain that coursed through my veins were
just meaningless distraction So allow me to just
detach these evil contraptions That were
created by the men who attempted to trap this
And by this I mean me  The beast that remains unseen  
Because he is living free in the land that
Was thought to be dream,
But no,
Positive energy is a real thing and it flows through
Me like something you wouldn't believe and with
That I end my meaningful rambling but before I
Go, allow me to reattach your sanity.

I don't wanna be here
But since i gotta be here
I'm seeking instructions of life to help me see clear
I hear angels singing
And fighting off my demons
If 'life' is what i have then tell me whats the meaning...
No books define me
Just my father to remind me...
That life is not a dream
Or the past thats behind me

*Too many saviors to choose and refuse to put my broken youth behind me,
passing through walls
and watching people see through you just to see what they could find,
I'll be, ****** and appalled by everyone's display of who I am ,
in this life I am nothing but a pawn
from a sheep or a lamb.

Poets only become nourished
writing out poems
a poets life depends on it
starvation and hand to mouth
is never a lifestyle choice
you are born for it
like a Hobo riding trains.

I can feel your love
You are awaking too
It's such a good feeling
It's the dream that makes us fly
It's the dream my love
When I close my eyes and think of us
Let the image wake your soul
Let it put a big smile on your face 
And fill your heart with the sweetest dream
Love is simple if you let it in
Love is simple so let us dream

Hope someone has the generosity to dance on my grave

They say missing someone is
a lot like pins and needles into your heart
but I don't remember missing you
when you were gone,
I missed you when we were together
I feel nothing but emptiness I filled in the spot where you once were in my heart

and that's comfort to put my pale skin to the mattress from now until the rest of time

Memories of another time still come

To me and fill my mind, with thoughts.  
Of you when you were young.
I lie awake
'Till the morning sun comes creeping
Through my window shade,
as I dwell upon
 Mistakes I've made.
What I would give to

Go back in time and feel your little

Hand in mine.
To cherish each fast and

Fleeting day. To hold you close and kiss

Away, each pain that life will have in

Store and try to give you so much more.

You are part and will always be, imbedded in the soul of me.
While I'm
Here, I want to say, that I've loved you

Each and every day and when my time on

Earth is gone.

The privilege was mine to have been your Mom.

Cocoa. My mom's whole world. Her pride and joy. She's in real trouble folks. Last night she consumed over an ounce of dark chocolate. She also got into chicken bones. She needs divine intervention. We can't afford to take her to the veterinarian again. All prayers and good thoughts are appreciated. I am weeping. She's an important member of our family. She may only be a dog. The she is as important to God has anyone else. And my mother would be devastated by her loss.

I may not be able to read this morning. I'm going to be in My Sanctuary on the front porch praying. I'm not going to church because my job now is to watch after the dog. She is a beautiful little animal. A deer head chihuahua. The original breed of that dog. She was the companion animal to the Toltec. Very rare because she is also a brindle brown. I saved her from an abusive puppy mill ******* and raised her all on my own. I love her. I have no children. She's my baby. Please help. Thank you.

PLEASE REPOST THIS SO OTHERS SEE IT! I don't care about stats. But Cocoa needs all the good thoughts and prayers she can get! ♡♡♡♡♡♡♡♡♡♡

Catherine :')