Last night was the worst I've ever felt
Honestly the first time my heart has ever melt
Like I told you the little things you do make you amazing
I would do anything for you, even risk my life try saving
We spent the whole day on the beach, us three
Then you went home, me and her not knowing that you were trying to end your misery;
We smiled back, hugged and said our goodbyes
Still unaware that this might be our final time.

Then I got a text saying 'This is it. I'm sorry' as I walked through my door
As I thought about what you meant my heart hit the floor
I texted back in a hurry, giving you all the reasons you should stay; one of them Being me
Hoping you would listen and just pray: we're made a promise for eternity.

You told me that I didn't need you, but we both know you're the reason that I'm still strong
I didn't want to let go cause where you were headed was not where you belonged
My mind overflowed with thoughts on why is this happening and if you're okay...
I just couldn't think of me living 'happily" day by day
Without you here to say "Keep your head up, I love you. Things will be okay."

We're we inspiration to each other
We were always together.. There wasn't one without the other
This was written in pink because it's her favorite color
I had no clue what I would do without her...

The night gets colder
I'm thinking it's over
Crying to myself cause I no longer have a shoulder.... To cry on.
No one left I can rely on.

The morning after
All I could hear is your laughter
Which was disturbed by a call from a number I couldn't recognize
I remember saying "hello" as tears came to my eyes
It was you telling me that you're okay
I was speechless.. In my mind thanking God that he heard what I had to say..

Looking back on that text like it was a nightmare
Not knowing what to do and who to call because I was scared
All of this that happened, I wish it was pretend
But this is unforgettable...


The night I almost lost my best friend.

When you're alone in your bedroom.
Twiddling the razor in your fingers.
I'll be there, roaming the halls.
And when your sad and your crying.
I'll be there watching.
I'll be there, in your home.
And when your gone I'll be there at your grave.
With the flowers, the red roses.
Was gonna bring white but your blood stained them.
Wish you would've known what you were missing.
Wish you would've known who you were hurting.
Cause now you're gone.
And I can't carry on your legacy.
Cause now you're gone.
And I can't change the gruesome fact.
And now you're gone and you took me down with you.
Bye bye pretty soul.
Forever gone, into the soil.

These cuts, these bruises in time shall heal,
Nothing overrides the pain one can feel.
The scars on our hearts are harder to hide,
Nor the guilty pleasure knowing we tried.

Scars arent meant to be pretty,
They represent a life nothing but ******.
They represent our suffering and pain,
When the blade runs so shall it rain.

Dont take my words to heart,
My words arent the painful part.
Put down the blade and think this through,
There are those out there who care for you.

This isnt the way, this isnt an option,
You act as though the world put you up for adoption.
Hear me now, know even I a stranger care,
Find the one thing you alone hold dear.

Repeat what it is that brings you joy,
Your life is meaningful and not some old toy.
I perhaps am not your savior this time round,
But I wish not see more blood spilt upon the ground.

We are human, we withstand an extent,
Look at yourself and see your potent'.
Let the blade go, your fists subside,
Its enough to have let it out and cried.

You are perfect
You are unique
You mean something
You deserve better
You are strong enough to go on
You are *you

I promise to come quickly
While watching you one night
You seemed to suffer deeply
They couldn't have been more right
Your bleeding heart
Your ragged breath
You've started to fall apart

My neutral being can't stop
I'm only to transport your soul
Taking you up top
Meeting on the grassy knoll
You'll feel whole once more
So don't be afraid, when I come knocking
Walking on through your door

While on your journey, you will see
Your life in its completion
The only thing, that I can't be
Is a regret deletion
So onward, upward we will go
Before you leave this place
For everyone you used to know
Will have a comforting smile upon their face