Quiero escribir cartas a tu cuerpo que vive debajo de la tierra
Pero tengo palabras en mi mente que no puedo permitir afuera.

Tengo millones de cosas decir que estan enterrados contigo
No puedo hablarlos a una tumba porque no sería lo mismo

Asi escribo cartas a nadie porque nadie quiere escuchar.
Quizás alguien querra oirme cuando no estoy aquí contar

3 in a hundred
0.3 in ten
Less than a human
Hurts like thousands of men

I understand and so do the rest
Those 3 in one hundred don't deserve your best

If you give them your all
They can take 30 percent
But if you give them nothing
Then what do they get?

*what they deserve

Beautifully real
Spoiled by mankind
Technology advances
Leaves nature behind
The roar of the falls
Covered by coins and machines
Buries mother nature
In the dirt of the mean
Spoiled and diminished
Ruined and wrecked
Swallowed by evil
And left as a mess
*Nature

It takes him 14 minutes to reply
And though I really shouldn’t count,
I’m caught in his captivity
Somebody get me out
14 minutes to even care
About what I have to say
I’m a dolphin in his fishing net
And I can’t swim away
Takes him 14 minutes to reply
But never say anything good
I’m captive in this jail cell,
If I could get out, I would.

Some things for which I'm grateful always seem to go unmentioned
And I'd like to tell these things to you that clearly deserve attention
I'd like to thank you for the times that I needed your help
The calls you answered every time in sickness and in health
I know it might seem strange to give my thanks for all the struggles
For all the little things for which I managed to get in trouble.
For some reason you accept me and I find that quite absurd
But I'd like to reciprocate and give you my sincere word
That regardless of what you do, regardless of what you say
I'll be there for you no matter what at the end of every day
I'm grateful for you always and I'm grateful this thanksgiving
I'm grateful for my friends that always make my life worth living.
I'm grateful that God blessed the path that I chose to take
The path that led me to meeting you, just a culmination of my mistakes
The mistakes I made, the struggles I faced, and the stupid things I've done
I've lost so many times but finding you means that I won.
I've lost so many people but I've won so many more
And I'm thankful for every open window and every deadlocked door.

I swear one day I'll die
Drowning in tears
And I'll look up from hell
On all of those years
Those years that I hated
I hated my self
Those years that I waited
With my *** on a shelf
I waited for you
I waited for me
I waited to die
And I waited to see
What lurks in the shadows
What dances six feet under
What causes the rain
And the lightning and thunder
Maybe I'll die
Drowning in laughter
And I'll look back from heaven
On a happy ever after

I may just be confused,
but hell, I’ve always been
maybe I’ve been lost,
in the state of mind I’m in
It’s seems to be the same,
but still the difference is clear
that it’s not just a coincidence,
that we are ever so near
Maybe it is fate,
That this book has opened here
To a page that’s clean and empty,
but the words, are plain & clear
Laughing at the darkness,
for it’s all just one sick joke
The sun is only hiding
behind it’s starry cloak.
Standing here together
but feeling so alone.
Because no matter what I do,
My flaws are always shown.

Take me back to Tennessee in the Garten of Kinder
The border of the south where there's barely a winter
And when there was, the snow was stolen
From the boy next door who wanted some snowmen
Take me back to the eggs on the floor where she slipped
But she was okay after Mommy's forehead kiss
Take me back to the little things that made it all okay
Take me back to that fight we had every other day
Because we loved too much to keep up a fight
So we took some breaks for one day or a night
Take me back to the "friends forever"
Forever eternalized:
*Misremembered

Love is nothing but a disorder of the hypothalamus
But there's no easy cure
I've fallen in love with the broken trust
And I just can't take anymore

Your hands feel like a vice
On my fragile skin
I want to break down all my walls
To let you come flooding in

But my soul is locked up tight
And your hands are the key
I can't open up myself
Until you unlock me

I'm depending on you
To be my eyes, ears, and heart
So baby break down all my walls
And tear my soul apart

What is life without perspective?
How do you set your mind free?
It takes no detective
to use your eyes to see

Open those eyes
Experience today
Take your time to realize
And free yourself to make your way

Make your way into happiness
Living and learning
Find the answers for which
You have been forever yearning

I had a dream about loving you
And in that dream you loved me too
I knew it was a dream and that's how I knew
'Cause you loving me would be a dream come true

Pain scurries like a rabid squirrel
Lost love screams like a little girl
An angry cry shouts from above
The silent tears of lost love

To those who value looks more than they value mind:
I hereby propose a toast to your most precious waste of time.

To those who'd rather cherish sovereignty and praise
I wish you a blissful epiphany in your finer days.

Somebody outta close this window
Before I fall to my doom
I can’t stand being in your presence
I have to get out of this room
Somebody outta close this window
Before you push me out
Because you’ve built me up so high
But you’ll drop me again, no doubt.
Somebody outta open up a window
I need to escape

There's words on the tip of my tongue
I'm trying to spit them out
The taste of stale chewing gum
Wandering about.

Flossing through my teeth
The whisper of frustration
The loudest of heartbeats
A head ache from nauseation.

What was I saying?

She had red lips like cherries and blood and wine
Pink cheeks like berries picked fresh from the vine
Skin like porcelain, white as milk
But smooth like velvet or cashmere or silk
Her hair was soft and blew in the breeze
She moved like a dancer with grace and with ease
With the allure of a siren and the body of a model
But the unadulterated mystery of a genie in a bottle
Her eyes were a color the rainbow can't define
She was perfect and amazing but she'd never be mine

This monotonous life
A ringing in my ears
As consciousness drags me through all of these years
This monotonous life
This never-changing frown
A life that refuses to turn upside down
Light me on fire
Set me aflame
For this monotonous life
Is driving me insane

So now the rain commences
While we sit and stare
In past and present tenses
We regret

The rain begins to fall
Cleansing us all
Of the mistakes we'll never forget

But still the water tries
It pleads, it begs, it pries
To remove our place to hide

The rain tries to rinse
But it only removes the glimpse
It gets from the outside.


Rain, rain, try a little harder
Burn me with your acid water.

First of all I pray
That everyone could say
That they remembered a name
I pray that every one
Can remember those daughters and sons
That aren't all the same

Secondly I beg
That every broken leg
Heals with grace and ease
Every broken heart
Feeling torn apart
Can heal.
I beg, please

Most of all I want
A world that doesn't haunt
My mind with disrespect
Most of all I need
A world that's free of greed
Is that too much to expect?

for all my life i've lived as the ground beneath your feet
i was the dry, cracked dirt you kicked around
as you shuffled your sneakers in the summer
i was the puddle you jumped in when it rained like hell in the spring
i was the slush that soaked through the holes in your boots
during the worst part of the winter
the crunchy leaves you stepped on once autumn came around

for all my life you’ve been the wind beneath my wings
you were the cool breeze on a summer day
that sent shivers down my spine and gave me release from the sweltering heat
you were the umbrella that protected me when it rained like hell in the spring
you were the soft winter snow that fell on christmas morning,
blanketing the town and dusting the evergreen trees
the aroma of cinnamon in autumn that wafted through the house
and felt like home

for all my life i’ve been the floor, and you the one who floored me
today i swear that i will be the sky

It hurts how people stare.
And I know I shouldn't care.
But it's the way they make me feel...
Like I'm not even real

All these days of deprivation
From sleep, from dreams, from you
All these days of wishing on stars
Wishes that don’t come true
Waiting for something that will never arrive
Waiting for something unreal
Waiting for my heart to stop crying
Waiting for my wounded mind to heal
All these days of deprivation
From sleep, from dreams, from you
All these days of wishing on stars
Wishes that won’t come true

Why do I force myself to think 'bout you?
When things between us ended long ago?
Why do I sit and sweat and stare and stew
and mourn for someone that I used to know?
You led me to do things I couldn't take
Still I cannot condemn you as to blame
Still I believe our love was my mistake
Still I will never ever be the same.
Yet I've matured and learned and I have found
That I've spent too much time on reminiscing
I let you leave me lying on the ground
And all along it's me I have been missing

Now I've grown up and now I fin'ly see
I speak not of love for you, but love for me.

You kept your coat in the cold
You never let me win
Not my knight in shining armor
But the carrier of sin.
If I was stuck up in a castle
A helpless lady in distress
Would you fight a mighty dragon
To save your broken princess?

You treat me like I'm weak
But still you're not there when I fall.
If I really was to break
Would you even mourn at all?

Lucky I am strong
Though you slowly make me weak
But I was built to withstand
Your crap and not to weep.
I'd be there to catch you
If you were in my place
You are not my knight
You're a beautiful mistake

I am not that object that you can throw away
I am not that princess who needs you to save the day

I am not that fragile girl who always lets you win
Because I'm the queen of your castle
And you're the carrier of sin

Your eyes flicker open
That ******* alarm
You cover your face
With the inside of your arm
5 more minutes
Is all that you need
But it's time to get up and it's time to succeed
You're scared
You're lost
You're stressed
And you're dizzy
It's time to get up
It's time to get busy
5 more hours
Is all that you need
But it's time to get up
It's time to succeed

I wish you were here
I want you with me
But you’d rather be there
You would rather not see
The reasons I cry
The reason for my tears
The reason I die
Because you’re not here
I wish you could see
The reason I’m sad
It’s all because of you
But I guess that’s just too bad

You’re rude, you’re awful
You’re liked, you’re loved
You always get your way
You’re mean, pathetic
Offensive but praised
And no one will stand up to say
That you don’t deserve
The laughter and praise
You don’t deserve the applause
I don’t deserve to be punished
For trying to help the cause
I may have been wrong
but you were worse
Who would’ve known courage
Could’ve been such a curse.

Happiness feels brief
Pain feels long lasting
Eating your heart out is easier than fasting

Brevity is refreshing
Longevity is boring
The worst things in life
Are just so alluring.

It's like we ask to taste the pain
We want it; we beg for it
Again
And
Again

I’m racking my brain,
I don’t understand,
he’ll look in my eyes
and he’ll hold my hand
I’m searching my mind,
but it’s so far away,
words cannot explain
the things I want to say.
Moments get awkward,
and times they get tough.
and sometimes texting just isn’t enough.
he’s like a tattoo
forever like a scar
He’s hours away.
But that’s never felt so *near.

Jealousy, jealousy, jealousy, greed
The allure of lust confused with need

Fear, fear of floating or falling
Crying to feel the sting of your bawling

Anger, anger, joyful or sad
It hurts so much
*But it's not so bad.

I had a dream about loving you.
And in that dream you loved me too.
And that's how I knew, that's how I knew
It was only just a dream.

I had a dream about touching your skin
Breathing you in, breathing you in
I had a dream about love and sin
But it was only just a dream

I dreamt of you just holding me tight
Holding me close in your arms for the night
And everything in this **** world felt right
But it was only just a dream

I had a dream and you were there
But that dream quickly faded into a nightmare
I woke up screaming that the world wasn't fair
It was only just a dream

Electricity
Rushes through her bones as she
Lays her head to sleep.

Energy flowing,
Like straight whiskey down her throat,
Keeps her up at night.

Her pillow is soft
Soft like a summer sky’s clouds
Still, no comfort comes.

She plugs in her phone.
The light still shines in the dark.
She can’t block it out.

No energy flows
As she wakes up the next day
She is still unplugged.

for the first time in a long time i opened up my curtains
and for the first time in a long time I let the light into my room
i spent so long hiding away in the darkness, pretending nothing was wrong
and it's time i let the sunshine illuminate my skin

for far too long I've felt nothing.
my limbs were numb and my heart was empty
tears fell, salty on my flesh
and in their wake there was nothingness

all my life I've lived in the shadows
never allowing the sun to tan my skin,
for fear that it would burn
so I opened up the windows on a freezing winter morning
I let the cold pierce my skin
as the light reflected of the white snow
the winter is blinding, but the sun is still shining
and as the goosebumps form on my pastel skin
I feel warm

Empty compliments
But sincere goodbyes
Shallow pools
Of abysmal lies
Stupid apologies
And awkward conversations
Supposed truth
And repudiation
Always ignoring
What's really true
Always ignoring what's there
*Me and You

The literal descent into actual madness
The inability to tell the happy from sadness
Thoughts bouncing around: silly and inane
Actually mad and actually insane

Remember the first time we kissed?
The beginning of a relationship that was always hit and miss
But now the misses are consistent
And if we're being honest?
*I really don't miss it

What did I expect?
Fireworks or doves?
I know that all I wanted
Was your undivided love.

If I had a voice,
I’d scream at the top of my lungs
I’d yell to the world,
“Watch Out! here I come!”
I’d make a change, I’d make the world fun
If I had a voice,
I would shine like the sun

i’ve forgotten how to smile
as my lips curve upward there is nothing but cynicism behind them
the air that flosses through my teeth is stale and bitter
for i have turned stale and bitter
i used to be optimistic
but i’ve forgotten how to hope
my tears fall but i feel nothing but emptiness
my fingers and toes grew numb
for i have grown numb
i used to imagine a world where you and i could be together
but i’ve forgotten how to dream
in my world we were queen and king
but our empire has fallen
for i have fallen
i was so young when i fell for you
i didn’t understand i was falling
until i hit the ground
but now i’m buried in the shallow dirt
and you dance and drum on my spine
i let you break my bones
for my heart broke long ago

"I'm sorry for being a *****" said I,
A merciful hope and a terrible cry.

A terrible cry, a horrible plead
Wishing that you would concede

It's blatantly not my fault
That you're the one with words of salt

Salt that burns and sizzles and scalds
With the burden that I've hauled

I just wanted you to say
Anything else but "it's okay"

I'm a time bomb.

They'll talk and talk and talk
Until it becomes a soft roar
There are too many voices
Can't take it anymore.

You don't yell.
You don't comment.
You sit still and hold back
Because nobody notices
An anxiety attack

But they notice when you explode
Because the implosion's too large
Your battery's out
And you'll never recharge

You hear the voices
You can't make them stop
So you join them, yell louder
'Cause your cover has dropped

You have two choices:
Cry or scream
So you yell, you explode
You blow out your steam

'Cause you're a time bomb.

Don’t cry, Darling
You have so many reasons to smile
But it’s okay to feel sad
Just once in a while.
But stick your head up
So we can see your pretty face
And be proud of yourself,
Don’t hide in disgrace
Because everyone loves you
And if they don’t, they’re not worth it
So smile and be happy,
Because Darling, you’re perfect.

Walking barefoot in the rain,
nothing to lose, yet nothing to gain.
You’re the spitting image
of a heart that’s sprained
many things that I’ve lost,
still nothing gained

I used the think you were the strongest
But you're polluting my brain.
A kiss that lasts a moment, at longest
A kiss driving me insane.

Time flies, but there's no fun
No acceptance and no recoil.
The regret and somber thoughts have begun.
A kiss buried in the soil.

A wish that suddenly stirs me
Wishing for the end
The thought of it disturbs me
He has a girlfriend.

He holds me in a cage
Seals it with a lock
Leaves me there to wait
Staring at a clock.
He displays his endless love
The love he has for another
But still leaves me to wait
Believing we love each other
But this is one ended love
His feelings aren't real
Holding me in solitary confinement
Feeding off what I feel

When I believed in magic things were good.
I wanted to be a princess the way any little girl would.
But I grew up and now my heart's not on my sleeve
'Cause I'm not that little girl and I'm no longer naive.

When I believed in magic things were nice
Prince Charming was only a ride away in a chariot with mice
But I'm not the way I was before, I believe
That I'm not that little girl and I'm no longer naive.

When I believed in magic, when you lied
I believed in Prince Ali and in his magic carpet ride.
But I'm older now and I'm starting to see
That I'm not that little girl and I'm no longer naive.

You're the only one who can make me smile
Without that smile immediately fading away
You're the only one who can make me laugh and cry
A million times each and every day.

You're the only one I've ever loved
Before, I hardly believed that love was real
You're the only one who can take my breath away
The only one who can truly make me feel

You're the only one I can't get over
I don't know why it's so **** hard
You're not the only one who's ever hurt me
But you're the only one who left me scarred.

one. bury your feelings so deep that they infiltrate your lungs and make it impossible to breath. let them asphyxiate you, suffocate you, but don't let them overcome you.

two. act like you're fine. lie through your teeth until you believe your own stories. let your lies become you; become your lies.

three. hate yourself. blame yourself. after all, it's your **** fault for falling in love. *******.

four. hate him. blame him. after all, it's his **** fault for making you fall in love with him. **** that.

five. deny it. you never had feelings. you're a ******* rock.

six. give up. you're in love.

I think it has been clear
To everyone in this town
That I don't give a ******* ****
About was goes around
Because what ever you do
It comes around as pain
So what goes around come around
But never to your gain