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696 · Apr 2012
Rotten
Cameron Godfrey Apr 2012
I'm just afraid that your vision is blurred
From the idea that I am exactly like her
You tell me I'm pretty
But are you talking about me?
When you imagine my face
Who do you see?
Your intentions are good
But you come across rotten
Do you know who I am?
Or have you forgotten?
696 · Jun 2012
Fake
Cameron Godfrey Jun 2012
I am not perfect
But I am not fake
I'm really crying
I'm not acting like I ache
I am not pretending
I don't need your views
I'm crying 'cause you hurt me
I don't want to be the news
It's not for attention
That's not why I cry
I cry because I'm hurting
And you're the reason why
693 · Feb 2013
Don't Judge Me.
Cameron Godfrey Feb 2013
I'm not my mistakes
I am not my name
I'm not just another "Cameron"
I'm not the same.

I'm my own person
If you wanted to know,
Why don't you ask me
I'll let it show

I'm not just there
For you to be brutal
Because right here, right now
Your absence is crucial
I need you to go away.
690 · Oct 2013
Not Your Turn
Cameron Godfrey Oct 2013
It's hard dealing with not being accepted
But it's worse when your thoughts are always intercepted
By a screen, by a door, sound-proofing your brain
By that "censorship" **** that drives you insane

And it's hard, concealing all those stray thoughts
Being force to think something you do not
It's worse being locked in a cage
That immediately closes when you have something to say

Something to say that is said to be wrong
So you suppress that **** thought until it seems fully gone
It's hard when it comes back, it's hard when it returns
When you're raising your hand but it's never your turn
690 · Jun 2012
Heartache Pills
Cameron Godfrey Jun 2012
**** me now
Please do, please do
I'd rather face hell
Than face the likes of you
I don't want to see your face
Kiss your lips, feel you close
Because the heartache pills I'm taking
Are more than my dose
It feels good for a moment
Then the guilt fades in
For a minute it's bright
Then eternity is dim
I know what you want
You want that moment of lust
But I want you to love me
But instead I must
Let go of all of the things that we had
What once could be happy
Just always ends sad
688 · Sep 2013
Come Out, Come Out!
Cameron Godfrey Sep 2013
There's a certain sort of stillness
In the air
The oxygen is stale
The livelihood's not there
Where did it all go?
What happened to the spirit?
There is terror in the air
But the whole world's too afraid to hear it.
Too busy with their lives
With their work and with their play
Too busy with sweet dreams
To hear the nightmares say:
"Come out, come out, where ever you are
Come out, come out to dance!
Come out, come out, whoever you are
Come out and take a chance"
Crazy, crazy, crazy, crazy there was no school today.
Day 6 is tomorrow!
682 · Sep 2012
Wildcard
Cameron Godfrey Sep 2012
It burns when you look in my eyes,
It burns when you hold my hand.
It burns when you say my name,
But it burns even more when you don't.

It burns when you talk about her,
It burns when you say anything.
It even burns when you make me smile
But it burns even more when I cry.

It burns, it stings, it pains, it hurts
But I would burn 1,000,000 shoes walking on sunshine with you.
I got a wildcard for a writing prompt and didn't know what to write. I asked my teacher and she, knowing that I struggle with poetry that doesn't rhyme, challenged me to write one. I feel really blessed to have a teacher to push me to be a better writer.
678 · Jul 2013
Clouds
Cameron Godfrey Jul 2013
"It's a cloud," they tell me, "that's all that it is"
The way a stone is a stone, and a brick is a brick.
"But, see? It's a flower, it's a rose without thorns"
"It's a duck with no bill, it's a dancing unicorn!"
Stratus and Cirrus? They cannot define
These beautiful creatures that dance in the sky
You hide behind reality, what you know to exist
Living through life but only catching a glimpse
Of what life has to offer
Just look at the clouds!
Stories untold that beg to be screamed aloud.
Refusing to tell them is what makes a brick a brick
But sometimes that isn't all that there is!
Look in the sky
Listen to it's tales
For reality is boring
But dreams prevail.
It's a metaphor or something.
The happy ones are never as good.
677 · Aug 2013
It Never Ends - Day 1
Cameron Godfrey Aug 2013
Hundreds of faces
Familiar and not
Hundreds of voices
and millions of thoughts

Busy and loud
And loud and busy
Lost and confused
And nauseous and dizzy

Laughter and tears
Sunset and sunrise
Tears from laughter
And tears from cries

It never ends
Or so they say
*******, I hope
It'll end someday.
It's a crazy, crazy, crazy, crazy first day of high school
675 · Feb 2013
Day Dream
Cameron Godfrey Feb 2013
There's this place called earth I could visit someday,
but I'm stuck in a daydream and I like it that way.

Maybe I'm afraid of a harsh, fatal fall
But when I get off this cloud, I'll visit you all

There's a place on a cloud where I live every day
Please, oh please, don't take it away.
671 · Jan 2014
Forgive Me
Cameron Godfrey Jan 2014
Forgive me, Father, but I'm no sinner
Crossed the finish line first but I'll never be the winner
And it burns like fire and stings like dry ice
To be a god ****** virtue disguised as a vice
To be an ant in a farm full of cows and sheep and pigs
To be kindling in a fire, burning like a twig
Forgive me, Father, if I'm not who I should be
But I'm not a sinner for just being me
668 · Feb 2014
Push Me
Cameron Godfrey Feb 2014
Push me to the limit; watch me fall
Call me Humpty Dumpty and push me off the wall
Build me up and drop me on the floor
Push me 'til I can't take it anymore.

Push me to the limit; watch me fall
Blown off of the branches with my cradle and all
Build me up and bury me six feet down
Push me to the limit, to the ground.

Push me to the limit; watch me fall
Ignore me when I beg and don't listen when I call
Build me up and watch me as I break
Push me 'til you slaughter every breath I take.
666 · Sep 2012
Killed the Commoner
Cameron Godfrey Sep 2012
You killed the commoner who didn’t do a thing
You let the ******* win and let the devils sing.
You killed the commoner and buried her beneath
Your screams, your lies, her filthy cries and the smell of defeat.
You killed the commoner and laughed as she died
Blamed it on the ******* who thought you were on their side.
You killed the commoner all you wanted was to win.
You blamed it on the ******* who supported all your sin.
You killed the commoner, and escaped from your cell.
You killed the commoner and you’re going to hell.
Don't look at this as a story of ******. Look at it as a metaphor for being stabbed in the back, hurt, blamed, or lied to. And a representation for the innocence that help or haunt you. It's kinda dark, so...
Cameron Godfrey Mar 2013
Who cares how many muscles spent?
Frowning is easier than being content
Being upset is a work out, I suppose
But it's harder to run than it is to stay posed.
It's easier to say "*******" than it is to smile.
661 · Apr 2013
She Was a Dreamer.
Cameron Godfrey Apr 2013
She was afraid
But aren't we all
Afraid that we'll drown
afraid that we'll fall

She was alone
Her, her, and her
In a room that was silent
Where nothing would stir

She was a fool
Dumb and naive
A silly little girl
With her heart on her sleeve

She was a dreamer
You're ****** if you're not
Hope keeps you fighting
...or that's what she thought
659 · Aug 2013
Can You Hear That Bell?
Cameron Godfrey Aug 2013
Can you hear that bell?
Or is it my mind?
That bell that tells
I'm out of time

Can you hear that bell?
Can you hear that ding?
Can you hear the screams
And the monsters that sing?

Can you hear that bell?
One you can't escape
As a labyrinth appears
Right in front of your face

Can you hear that bell?
Or is it just my mind?
Can I escape
This labyrinth in time?
'twas a crazy, crazy, crazy, crazy first week of high school.
Maybe I'll document my entire year like this.
Don't hold me to that.
658 · Mar 2012
Nightmare
Cameron Godfrey Mar 2012
I’m waiting for the bell to ring
For the doves to fly
For the angels to sing
I’m waiting for a dream
That just isn’t there
This beautiful daydream
Turned to a nightmare
658 · Mar 2013
Before
Cameron Godfrey Mar 2013
You dip your toes into the water
Before you're off the diving board
You play the scale before the melody
You learn to shoot before you score

You say hello before you kiss me
You say goodbye before you leave
How do I know that you'll come back?
You've got to show me before I'll believe.
657 · Apr 2014
5.
Cameron Godfrey Apr 2014
5.
5 years old with eyes wide open
Wishes made and granted
Dreaming, living, reaching, hoping
Magical and enchanted

10 years old with dreams still intact
A light at the end of the tunnel
Your goals will be achieved; you know that for a fact
And that's worth all the struggle.

15 years old, your eyes are sunken
Because you've barely slept
Your tolerance has severely shrunken
And every night you've wept

20 years old you're lost and afraid
The game has just begun
So why does it feel like you've lost already
And everyone else has won?

25 and you've got it figured out
Maybe there is a light in this tunnel
Of course, of course you've still got your doubts
But maybe the end will be worth the struggle.
655 · Mar 2012
Risky Romance
Cameron Godfrey Mar 2012
Going back the way we came
Nothing changes, all's the same
Never making any change
Staying within a tiny range
Can't step out of our comfort zone
Always sitting all alone
Maybe it's time to take a chance
And jump into a risky romance
653 · Mar 2012
Missing Him
Cameron Godfrey Mar 2012
I miss him,
I can’t let go
He’s always on my mind
but he’ll never know
I miss him
I can’t move on
But I’ll never stop loving him
I’ll never move along.
I miss him
and I need him here
but he'll never return
he'll never be near.
*But I miss him
651 · Mar 2013
LEAVE
Cameron Godfrey Mar 2013
Please just leave me alone
Leave me here to rot
You think that I am fine?
Believe me I am not.

Please just leave me alone
As my sanity demolishes at last
Please don't make me cry
I've cried enough in days passed.

Please just leave me alone
I'm begging you, begging you please
My mouth says it again and again
But my mind keeps screaming
*don't leave
651 · Aug 2014
Perfect Circles
Cameron Godfrey Aug 2014
Our arms around each other we sway to a song
We belt out all the lyrics and get half of them wrong
It’s time to part ways but we don’t want to let go
We’re dragging our feet to make the moments pass slow

As we stand in this circle I know this house has been blessed
Every moment I spent with you was better than the best
My wish is that we’d be together for 100 years
It would be fine by me if we would never leave here

Chorus:
I’ll remember every one of you fondly forever
‘Cause you changed my life and you changed it for the better.
We’re listening to music and we’re dancing like lunatics
Who said perfect circles do not exist


The same 3 games of cards somehow never got old
Though we played them in the heat and in the rain and the cold
This really feels like something that was meant to be
You’ll never fully understand what you meant to me

That place was our castle, forever mine and yours
Signed with memories of song sessions, parties, and rap wars
But the one thing that will stick with me until the end of time
Is my arms around your shoulders and your arms around mine

CHORUS

You hugged me and you smiled at me
You told me that you’d write to me

You said we’d be friends forever and I know you never lied to me
Didn’t want to go but we knew that we must
God I’d give anything to get back on that **Precious Cargo bus
The bolded words are inside jokes/memories. I wasn't gonna share it because a lot of it won't make sense to people who weren't a part of it, but I tried to make it at least a little vaguer so it would make sense. Idk, man. Find it on soundcloud: https://soundcloud.com/breadstickbeyotch
650 · Oct 2013
Not My Friends
Cameron Godfrey Oct 2013
I used to think that I was a terrible student
I was terrible at learning
Then I grew to think I was good
I knew the answers for which I was yearning
I devolved, I suppose, and soon I was sure I was a failure once again
F's and C's and D minuses felt like my only friends
I tried to convince my stupid self that it didn't really matter
But I had to choose between learning and grade-earning and I guess I chose the latter.
It scared me to death what I had become a zombie fueled by grades
Focused more on that god ****** score than the progress that I made
I used to think I was good at learning but it was all pretend
I could play school but in the end A's and B's were not my friends.
647 · Mar 2012
To Bullies:
Cameron Godfrey Mar 2012
I hope you feel better about yourself, because I don't.

I hope your problems were resolved, because mine weren't. 

I hope you're satisfied, because I'm not.

I hope I didn't do something to hurt you, and I'm sorry.

I hope you've learned your lesson; I have.
I wrote this during a rough time after finding some insulting posts on my Facebook wall.
646 · Jan 2013
Moving On (Song Adaptation)
Cameron Godfrey Jan 2013
I’m moving on,

It doesn’t matter where I’m going

as long as I’m not coming back to you.

It’s wrong and I wish we could make it right

But for now I have to say that this is through.


I’m moving on
Moving on
Moving on
I’m moving on
Moving on
moving on

I’m moving on

It doesn’t matter if I’m happy.

Just know that I don’t want to say goodbye.

It’s bad and I wish I could make it good

But we know it and we just cannot deny.


I’m moving on
Moving on
Moving on
Moving on not coming back to you.
I’m moving on
Moving on
Moving on
I’m moving on
Moving on
moving on

ff
And when the time is right
You’ll still be in my sight
I’ll look into your eyes…
But until that night….

I’m moving on
Moving on
Moving on
I’m moving on
Moving on
moving on

I’m moving on

Because I know that it’s wrong

and I know you know it too.

It’s stupid I wish I could make it smart

but I just can’t come back to you.

pp
I’m moving on
Moving on
Moving on
Moving on not coming back to you.

Moving on not coming home to you.
I turned one of my old poems (March 6, 2012) into a song on the ukulele.
643 · Mar 2013
Burnt.
Cameron Godfrey Mar 2013
You can burn me a thousand times
And I'll keep running back
I suppose I prefer heart burn
Over a heart attack
643 · Jan 2014
Bridges Burnt.
Cameron Godfrey Jan 2014
You made a mistake and I'll forgive it
It's your own life and I'll let you live it
But remember you're a sum of all things you do
You make your mistakes but sometimes they make you
You built a bridge and it's your job to burn it
Or to allow everyone who follows to take your lesson and learn it
You made a mistake and another and another
The good and the bad don't always cancel each other
You're not a good person 'til you do a good thing
What's on the table depends on what you bring
You made mistakes, too many to count
Still people believe that the good cancels out
The bad things you've done and the bad things you said
But when does it stop? When someone ends up dead?
You can't always escape those bridges you constructed
With your words and your thoughts that only prove destructive
Where is the good that's supposed to disguise
The bad things you've done and the crimes and the lies
It's not 'just a mistake' when you refuse to learn.
You built this bridge, and it's time for it to burn.
I wrote this poem with no intention of it being about Justin Bieber but things got out of hand.
642 · Jan 2014
Forgive Me
Cameron Godfrey Jan 2014
Forgive me, Father, but I'm no sinner
Crossed the finish line first but I'll never be the winner
And it burns like fire and stings like dry ice
To be a god ****** virtue disguised as a vice
To be an ant in a farm full of cows and sheep and pigs
To be kindling in a fire, burning like a twig
Forgive me, Father, if I'm not who I should be
But I'm not a sinner for just being me
635 · Apr 2012
That Melancholy Song
Cameron Godfrey Apr 2012
I don't understand
What's going on
Everything fades
Melancholy song
Everything grows
But reality shrinks
And suddenly I care
what everyone thinks
I don't need your opinion
But still I feed off your thought
And slowly go against
Everything I was taught
Now nothing matters
Everything's wrong
When everything fades
To a melancholy song
633 · Sep 2012
Roses
Cameron Godfrey Sep 2012
Roses are black,
Violets are black,
Because love is blind
And I want you back.
632 · Sep 2013
She Was Happy.
Cameron Godfrey Sep 2013
She was happy.
Not happy in the way that makes you smile every day
No one smiles every day.
That's what she told herself.

She was happy.
She was happy, or at least, she didn't cry herself to sleep
Not every day, anyway.

She was happy.
She wasn't full of laughter and there was no happy ever after
But she was happy. That's what she told herself.

She was happy
She wasn't completely wrecked, at least not the last time she checked
Maybe she was now, but still.

She was happy.

She was really happy.

She told herself she was happy.

She wasn't happy.
I'm happy.
629 · Feb 2012
No Place Like Home
Cameron Godfrey Feb 2012
Putting things into perspective, everything is becoming more clear.
It might be a sudden change of heart or maybe it’s because you are here.
Putting the puzzle together, everything is in its place,
pointing me in the right direction, wiping the tears off my face.
Maybe it’s the way that you held her, that made me strive for the same.
Everything comes back to you, for the good things I have you to blame.
You led me to this freedom, you’ve cleared me a yellow-brick-road.
Helping me find myself, my place in life, my home.
And there’s no place like home.
629 · Feb 2014
If I Were A Boy...
Cameron Godfrey Feb 2014
If I were a boy for a day I'd feel what it's like to be respected
I could say whatever I wanted and I'd never be corrected
I could be the boss and no one would call me a *****
Because I could be assertive and they'd call it leadership
Maybe I'd run for office and I'd probably win
'Cause they'd judge me on my skills and not the body I'm in
Maybe I'd get a job and roll around in the benefit
Of workplace inequality and other patriarchal ****
If I were a boy for a day I could run around and 'score'
And no one would call me a ***** **** or a *****
People would finally listen when I took a stand
But they don't and they won't because I'm not a man.
628 · Nov 2012
Falling Apart
Cameron Godfrey Nov 2012
I'm often delusional
I always assume
That in a world of tight spaces
they'll always make room
For the one undeserving
Who makes most mistakes
I always assume
That all that it takes
Is one more shot
One more day off
Because tomorrow I'll go back
And it will all pay off
But then there's all of the make ups
There is no restart
I'm not just delusional
I'm falling apart
627 · May 2013
Speeding Hands (Haiku)
Cameron Godfrey May 2013
The clock will tick on
Turning back its speeding hands
Only speeds it up
626 · May 2012
Halfway out
Cameron Godfrey May 2012
Can't you give me a break
After all I do is ache
From all the things.

You ignore the tears I cry
Pressure me to fly
Without wings.

You treat me like an adult, when my mind's in a cradle
The stress that I face is a disease that is fatal
But you want me to do well.

You say I can do it when you know it's too hard
You've made me feel stupid, you've left me scarred
Still you can't tell.

The inferiority, the pressure, the stress
You lie and say I can do it if I try to confess
I can't take it anymore.

You've made it harder, harder to believe
You've made me want to storm out, to leave
And I'm halfway out the door.
626 · Jan 2013
AHHHHHHHHHJKL:
Cameron Godfrey Jan 2013
Should I be relieved?
Should I feel your pain?
I'm climbing aboard the anxiety train
625 · Apr 2012
The Card Game of Life
Cameron Godfrey Apr 2012
It's all just too hard
Always dealt a bad hand
Never get the right card
But you won't understand
No matter how I try
I still get it wrong
A I don't know why
I don't know what's going on
But I know that it's real
This is my now
I need to change how I feel
I just don't know how
620 · Jul 2015
Everything I'll Never Be
Cameron Godfrey Jul 2015
We've always been on the same wavelength
Darling, we're one and the same
I thought that would give me an upper hand
In this stupid love triangle game

We've got the same sense of humor
We're so ******* close that it hurts
I thought that it would be a blessing
But it turns out it has always been a curse

I know you like the back of my hand
I can recite you by memory like a prayer
I cannot avoid these feelings
Somehow they're always there

But you like her. Hell, I like her too
And maybe she is perfect for you
But I cannot believe it true
For I'm stuck to your side like superglue

She's not you and she's not me
She's something else entirely
And maybe that's just what you need
Everything I'll never be
616 · May 2015
She Was The River
Cameron Godfrey May 2015
Our river ran dry,
Refusing to flow.
Then the winter approached,
And filled the river with snow.
Then the snow melted,
And the valley eroded,
From the sky came fire,
And our river exploded.
And out of the fire,
Came a tiny little flame,
That dried out the river,
And it started again.

She was the river
And the snow and the fire
She was the passion
And the heat and desire
The water that gives life
Was the water that drowned me
Floating in the river
No dust, no dirt, to ground me
She took my breath away
In the most literal sense
My heart skipped a beat
And then five, and then ten.

I finally escaped from her white-water rapids
But I cannot forget, won’t regret all that happened

Now I’m out of the water, looking back on those days
And I whisper goodbye to the river
and *wave.
Written for an assignment where we had to use conceit (and extended metaphor)
616 · Jan 2013
Standards
Cameron Godfrey Jan 2013
Your standards don't define me
Every cloud has a lining
Just sometimes that lining's obscure

I'm not defined
As that blurry grey line
And I will not be ignored.
The topic of this poem is all over the place

I'm just really upset with my life right now
And putting it into words without disrespecting or using names is the hardest thing to do.
I won't belittle him like he belittles me
My mistakes don't make me stupid
My mistakes are cries for help
So help me. I'm too scared to be wrong so I don't try to be right.
I don't want to go to school anymore.
Can someone else teach me.
Can I go back to 7th grade.
615 · Feb 2012
Rewind
Cameron Godfrey Feb 2012
I’m so confused
Can’t tell myself why
my head’s in the clouds
my heart’s in the sky
I’ve been so lost
I don’t know how
I don’t understand
where I’m going now
Losing myself,
losing my mind
wishing so hard
that I could rewind.
614 · Mar 2013
The Girl Who Hid
Cameron Godfrey Mar 2013
Sometimes she hid behind her laptop screen
Or maybe she'd hide in her sleep, in her dreams
Wouldn't face the world outside that hall
Wouldn't go downstairs for fear she'd fall
She slept in late and went to bed soon
And only found comfort under the glow of the moon
But the moon doesn't glow
It's just a reflection
Just like the soul
Of the girl aforementioned
A girl hidden in a place where the demons couldn't see
That girl was afraid and that girl was me.
Can we just pretend that we didn't see that last line coming?
607 · Apr 2012
Up All Night
Cameron Godfrey Apr 2012
Up all night
Every other day
Just to collapse on the next.
Up until the wee hours
Just waiting for you
Anticipating just another text.
Waiting for something
Expecting the best
But always being let down.
Because your short sentences
That I wait for, so long
Only ever bring me a frown.
So I try to tell you
the way that I feel
But you don’t seem to comprehend.
So I get aggressive
Regret what I say,
and hope that you’ll still be my friend.
You tell me the truth
The whole truth, nothing but
And I cry in the dead of the night
I don’t know if I’ll ever forgive myself
For picking this stupid fight.
I thought of you as perfect
I thought you never made mistakes
Never thought you had problems like I do.
But although you saw right through me
I never tried to see into you.
Maybe you aren’t perfect
But you still light up my world
You make me smile
all of the time
You make my heart twirl.
I could go on for hours
About what I should
And shouldn’t have said
But deep in the dead of the night,
It’s about time I’d go to bed.
606 · Aug 2013
Living My Life
Cameron Godfrey Aug 2013
If i tried a little harder
I could be a little smarter
But what's the point in trying
Just inching close to dying

Yes, I've got minutes plenty
but I'm living like there's twenty
Maybe I have got a century
Who knows? I'm just fourteen

But years, they are years, and years go by
But time is arbitrary and time is mine
Time is my ***** and times by my side
So I'm living like I'm living and I'm livin' my life.

I'm living like I'm living and I'm livin' my life.
I wrote a rap because I thought it'd be funny
It's not funny it's just kinda awkward
Sorry

I don't want to delete it because I think it's hilarious but don't judge my poetry based on this
601 · Feb 2012
He Looks
Cameron Godfrey Feb 2012
He looks at me
I fake a smile,
I run and hide and cry a while.
He looks at me
fear trickles down my spine
but again and again I tell him I’m fine.
He looks at me
like mind control
Staring me down and eating my soul.
He looks at her
like she’s a work of art
He’ll love her, and he’ll break my heart.
Cameron Godfrey May 2012
You try to entertain us
But all you do is strain us
We're supposed to believe you
When your words just aren't true

I am not a fighter
My words are my igniters
I will start a fire
Without flame
But I'm not here for lies
So look me in the eyes
and say I'm not a player in your game

I'll deflect your misinformation
And show it to our nation
That I am not a pawn
I'll make it perfectly clear
That that isn't why I'm here
And that we're waking up now
It's our dawn.
593 · Apr 2012
Friend Zoned
Cameron Godfrey Apr 2012
Is this the friend zone?
Or is it just hell?
Do you even notice?
I could never tell.
Is this the friend zone?
Or am I lost?
If this is what love is
It comes at too high a cost.
593 · Feb 2014
Perfect
Cameron Godfrey Feb 2014
She's perfect in a world where there's no such thing
With the beauty of autumn and the promise of spring
The romance of winter, the intensity of June
Bright as the sun, mysterious as the moon
She's sweet as honey and fresh flowers in the summer
Words like a singer and a heart like a drummer
A voice like an angel and the grace of a bird
She's amazing and she's perfect in every sense of the word.
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