Don't tell me to breathe
Don't tell me its okay
Don't stay but dont leave
Don't say there's a way

Don't act like I'm fine
But don't hover and brood
Don't tell me I'm the star shine
But don't tell me I'm ugly or rude

Don't tell me anything at all

There's nothing you can do
Nothing you can say
To slow or brighten or stop
This ******* day

Unless you can fix me
Don't say I'll be okay

I died that day
And have been dead since
Dead and alive
Rotting inside
Crying every second
With dry eyes

And no one cares
It's ok no one can fix it anyway
And even if they could I wouldn't let them
But I wish they wanted to
I wish

I want the sweet kiss that ends it all
I want cold fingers to take a tight grasp
And snap my life
In two

So that I can crumple to the ground
With a smile and resting eyes
Happy
Because I'm finally at peace
Finally I am at peace

Finally
If only I'd die
Finally I'd be
Finally

A thin white sheet
Flimsy and irrelevant
To everyone but me

Because behind its elegance
I sit trapped
And every joy beyond the flowing curtain
I am never to meet

It's silly to think
Such fragility could be
What conquers and captures
The every feeling and fiber of me

But so it does and so I try
Every brooding day and ghastly night
To thrash and stop and fight
Though I do believe it'd be fairly easy
To just quit

And die

The sentences never flow the way I want them to
Much like my life never goes as planned
Just as my feelings never yeild to mind
Just as I never bow to pain

Don't stop fighting

The moment the conscious mind wakes
but the haze is still thick
clouding your morning thoughts
where all the tumbling feelings tremble and shake

just before reality takes its hold
and the whole body rises
right before all your fiber realizes
fibs are what youve been told

That is the moment
That is the blissful second
Where I can see your face
adnd hear your voice

And feel your skin under my fingers
and faintly taste you on my lips
that is the second where your smell still exists
That is the time where together we are alive

And then it slips through my fingers
like loose sand
like running water
like old memories

and away you fade
back into my head
back into my soul
back into a place where

you exist

and though I go on about the day
although i still eat and work and play
and talk and laugh and smile
You are still there

Under my searching fingers
on the horizon of my sight
oh so faintly in the air
oh so subtly on my tongue

You are everywhere