I want to love you so bad.
but between all these entangled fear and insecurities lurks these grief and anxiety..
and there I was — sitting in the middle. Cradled by this fortress I made.

Believe me I’m dying to love you so bad..
But forgive me love..
that I hate myself
so much
more than I could ever love.

I could just as easily
see you with your hands around my waist
as you kept me company
while i made drinks for our friends
and i triple checked my math
and you took the one
I wasn’t sure about
and said it was lovely
because
you love me
as i laugh
and we both play pretend
and i’m making
what i will come to call, the—-

I see the sky blue as sea,
Sprinkled with clouds, there they be.
I lay on this soft plain.

Feeling no such important thing
Other than ultimate peace
I see the sky blue as sea,

Many struggle with a wrinkle in their suit
When they should go with the heavenly flow
I lay on this soft plain.

Come lay on this soft plain
And contemplate where we belong
I see the sky blue as sea,

Watch the clouds keep flying by
As they keep watch over, us bundles of nerves
I lay on this soft plain.

Close your eyes and breathe deep, close your brain
Try to go to sleep, dream
and see the sky blue as sea,
lay on this soft plain with me

i saw a girl who was hurting
he saw a girl who was crazy