come alive and decipher the wiser
burn higher, with a fire in every fiber
try to find the mind of a survivor
guide your time like the stride of a tiger
leave behind the life of a fighter
you're defined by the ride and the rider
out of line to slide with the viper
let light shine through eyes of a spider
try to be advised by your desire
take no sides besides the side that is lighter

The comedy that I emit,
The wit that I have honed,
By life's unforeseen disasters;
Made to bring everyone to happiness,
Blessing them with smiles and laughter,
Taking their troubles away from their minds
Even for a moment. That, I tell you:

"Don't you ever look this way!
Live, laugh and smile away!"

Whilst the merry band sings
Aloud, daydreaming and in orchestral fashion,
Admiring their backs from afar I trace
The footsteps to stand by their side;
A place that I can only dream of.

For every attempt at a smile I bless,
For every sliver of effort I take,
Every little moment counts
To pull me away from
Where I dwell:
Where the Cities crumble and fall,
Ghouls picking at the cracks
Of my wandering mind,
Sanguine thoughts,
Devoid of love,
Lacking life,
Loneliness,
Madness,
Anxiety,
Rage,
Sad,
Me,
1.

For a smile on your face,
Will put a smile on mine, and will
Pull me away from these apparitions
Clawing into my skin
For a brief moment.

**However.
Your happiness can't save me.

day 1

i wish i could think
of anything
that isnt aimed at myself