Cassidy Jackson

Cassidy Jackson Mar 2017

he didn't listen to me
i said no
i said no

i'm *****
clean me
inside

i plead
i said no
i promise i said no

i can't breathe

the memories come at odd moments

#ptsd #blame #trauma

Cassidy Jackson Feb 2017

Starve

the meaning of beauty are
bones without skin

it repeats in my mind for hours

#depressing #sad #dark #beauty #anorexia

Cassidy Jackson Feb 2017

do not want

he laid me down
and ****** my breath away
with his ***** lips

take this how you want it to be taken...it may have multiple meanings

#sad #dark #personal #meaningful

Cassidy Jackson Feb 2017

*****

your warm breath against
my skin
your fingers tracing my ******* roughly

one of your hands move
lower
intruding my space

this is not right
i do not want you here
i do not want you in my body

i say nothing
hoping you would read my mind
take a hint from my pleading eyes

my insides curl
as you take away my innocence

i am no longer myself
who i am...
is you

this is a very personal poem with words i just needed to get off my chest. i was ***** a little over a month ago and it changed me. i am no longer who i used to be. i am broken and used up. i wish i could go back in time and take back my moving steps towards his car

#depressing #sad #abuse #tw #****** #**** #assault

Cassidy Jackson May 2016

It's Killing Me

you're gone
and it's getting harder to breathe

i don't know how much longer this will last
but i don't think i'm strong enough to find out

Cassidy Jackson May 2016

Puzzle

A puzzle is easy to take apart but hard to put together
The bigger the puzzle the more frustrating it gets
And sometimes we give up on the challenge

I am a puzzle
A one thousand piece puzzle

I gave up on putting myself back together
Too many missing pieces
Too hard of a challenge

#depressing #puzzle #challenge

Cassidy Jackson Feb 2016

THINNING

I've never really thought of Anorexia as a person
I think of it as black paint that slowly paints your body
starting from your head
all the way to your toes
Once it's reached the bottom you're already gone.

The black paint is at my ankles.
and corrupting my muscles

#eating #disorder #anorexia