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avenjoe Aug 2020
another day, another play

another game, another fame

another hate, another fate

another step you take, another trace i'll stake
avenjoe Aug 2020
Way is getting blackened
Darkness is all it's rise
Stopped, jammed, tucked you into something
Memories stay, smirks as it's summoned from hell

Wandering time, where have you been all these times
Reminiscent, is all what it means
Wage war against yourself
It's crystal clear

Chains on you getting tighten up
Break away, you'll grow to loathe memory
Exit awaits, show me the sign of victory
Mark my words, believe your soul lives on
avenjoe Aug 2020
Cut out the lights, you don't need any
Lights are fading away, it shines elsewhere
Grace, you've been put out from grace
Dishonesty, you're granted from it

Got yourself stood in the edge about to slips away
Cliff, opening it's way, channel you to seventh level of contrition
Awaiting the hour of reprisal
Left you in your own misery

Reverend, reverend
Is this a conspiracy?
Your whole life is a conspiracy
Crucified for no sins

No mercy on you
No revenge beneath you
Nothing new for you to see
Blood stream down from the lacerated sky

As its marches you to the purgatory
Boisterous sounds going on
Reminiscing the sworn you've had
It's where you're ascended from now on
avenjoe Aug 2020
You came when I limped and lost direction
Stuttered as if all of this was fake
When the lantern of life no longer illuminates
Under the moon that only reminds me of a warm memory

Then the touch came as if finding a speck of light in the darkness
Guided me through all the memory gates that have ever been engraved in my mind
That's where I fell asleep to the beauty
Lulled leaving the earth until I reached a point of belief

For a moment I was lulled, that's where this self was dropped
You are not a light, but only an illusion that comes to refract this pain
Instantly all of that disappeared, only leaving an impression on the heart
Which may not be easily erased

You're not the one who guides me through the memory gates
Thank you for taking me further wandering in memory
Just go, in the deepest recesses of my heart I forgive
There was never love, but stories
i been through hard times lately
avenjoe Nov 2021
Happiness is temporary
Pain is eternal

Nothing is real, all it do just to fade away at some point
But none of those good things stay, except the one:

Pain
avenjoe Nov 2021
Everything has it's own limit
Except the one:

Mind
avenjoe Nov 2021
How long am i gonna play hide and seek with my own feelings towards what she says?
How long am i gonna be a slave to love when nothing comes to me for real?
How long am i supposed to pretend its nothing to be thought off when clearly theres a lot of things are not meant to be and not on its track?

Gates of hopes are closing, gates of memories are opening as things are just going to be another piles of false hopes.
The fact that im still the old me, im the old scarred me, the old scratched me, the old torn down me is still there.
Even if theres an exit, its just a refraction of another pain behind the mirrors of life.

I'm not tired of feeling, and living up to these false, fake, temporary type of love.
I'm getting used to it, until the point i am legitimately numb thats where i become the walking dead.
avenjoe Nov 2021
My dream was so close to be a reality
When i found you, i found a speck of light in the dark
The light that guides me and drags me out of the abyss

I used to put this love in the deepest recess of my heart
Together we lived our own story
You created my dream
But to be honest, i only regret of my self

You crushed it all
You left me
My dream is now just pieces of our love puzzle
That cant be resolved

I had to let you go
Forgetting your smile
Everything about you, about me, about us, just a wish
Far, so far away, to what i wanted to be
avenjoe Nov 2021
I'm the one who's in pain
Don't you see it?
I'm the one who's covered by fear
Don't you feel it?
I'm afraid what will happen to you out there

                              I'm still here in silence
                              Actually I'm stuck in time
                              I screamed "please, are you still there?"
                              But you're far away from me
                            
                                                         I'm sinking in this silence
                                                         Which is increasingly weakening
                                                         this self
                                                         I don't know where and when this
                                                         feeling will end
                                                         As if all of this has no end

The sweet curve of your smile is increasingly reluctant to meet my eyes
No longer does your cheerfulness echo a guerrilla roar in my eardrums?
Let this ending become a memory for you
Just go, I'm not in vain because in truth time has not erased memories yet
Or:
I'm stuck

                             I know I can never reach you
                             Even though your image is still stuck in my mind
                             However, let this self hug you once again
                             Even if it's only through a poem
avenjoe Nov 2020
It was one of those nights we had
Right when you turned out the lights
You got me struck down
Tickling me as if there's no tomorrow

It wasn't the first, it wasn't the last
You really got me satisfied
You were stroking all over my body
Sent me to another level of enjoyment

Seems like a touch
Touch too much
You know it's much too much
Girl, you know you're giving me much too much!

Girl, you know that you got face of an angel
You smiled with sin
She wanted it real hard, wanted it fast
A lil ***** touch might ease me

Touch me like you had a velvet glove
Lay me down and touch
This kind of woman's gonna drive me insane
Too much for my body, too much for my brain
avenjoe Nov 2021
At one night it was 2 am
On bed of nails she makes me wait

          Shrewdness of your mouth keeps lingering on my mind
          Like an echo guerilla knockin me down back and forth

                         I value you too much, you value me nothing but a
                         welcome carpet
                         That keeps getting stomped, unvalued, but still there
                         to stay

                                     To cleanse your step
avenjoe Aug 2022
In a one cold night
my breath was held
got me left with nothin
but questions lingering around my mind

far away have my steps been
looking for you, smiles
or probably you were just a shadow of a conscience of a wasted person
tied lips speak souls language

sing, night birds
blow, night wind
keep singing, night birds
until, the wind blows and conveys my greetings
avenjoe Aug 2020
I said "I don't know whether i've been good enough for you or not
Cause i'm a little bit unsure, i feel like i've kneel and bent to you
And i don't know that touch you gave me was a real love or not
Cause i feel it wasn't like you did to other
And i'm a little bit saddened"

Honey please stay, this ain't over
Please not now, i still need your presence around
We might change baby, together
And we just might feel everything's alright

I wanna get rid of you
I'm surely will
I wanna break this kind of love
I'm surely will

I said "i don't know why you wouldn't put feelings on me
Like it's harm to do and a little bit gone too far
And i don't know why you couldn't stay with me
You couldn't ease me when life gets darker and messy
And i'm a little bit devastated"

Hands on me tightly
Well, soothe my mind baby
I know i ain't your lover
At least, say nice things to me

I wanna get rid of you
I'm surely will
I wanna break this kind of love
I'm surely will

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