My chest aches
Could it have been my heart actually breaking?
Or was it just angst?

i refuse to envisage
your hands interwined
as you gaze into one another amorously
mislaying yourself
in such alluring eyes.
she is your ensemble
your material of gaiety
while i merely scrutinize
her prosperity in envy
and persistently
waste more black ink
over
you.

If you've ever fallen in love,
don't ever regret it.
It's nothing to be ashamed of.
It's okay that you were open hearted.
He made you happy,
even if it was for a slight moment.

I anger you dont i?
The requests for hugs get under your skin.
Is it really so bad
To get so close
To me...?

I saw you
And look at you so preciously
Your my gem
My treasure
My infinity
But look at you now
You're in the middle of nowhere
Almost to nothingness
Lifeless
Emotionless
Have that man hurt you so much
That he turned your heart into ash..