We meet
We greeted
We talk like no one else around
With just one hello
Everything changed
I fall
I got hurt
And now broken
I learned to keep feelings inside
Never showing
But never stop believing

Pain is like a drug

Once you feel it in your body and mind,
You can't get enough.

It's not good, but to you it's enough.

Enough to feel pleasure and validation
Enough to feel some sort of love
Enough to accept over time.

And over time it begins to morph into
what you call your life.

I go to the washroom to freshen up
The bar is loud
I smell something familiar
Smells like you
It smells like you
Comfort
I don't want to lose you
I'm sorry
I'm ******, I know
We're fcked
We know

Have you ever fought sleep
As if it were your enemy?
Have you ever clung to dreams
Because reality was hard to see?

the leaves are the same color
as the paper in my pocket
the paper in my pocket
is ready to scatter all over
the big round things that
are bouncing on the pole

To those of you who loved me
Know that I love you
To those of you who hate me
Know that I never hated you!
To those of you who will miss me
Know that I will miss you
To those that are broken hearted
Pleease know that I was too
To those of you who wonder why
Please know that I faught true
To those I was never good enough for
Know I faught until the fight was through
To those who reached out to help me
I'm sorry I couldn't help you
To those of you that I hurt
Please know that I never meant to
My heart just can't hold any more pain
Please know these words are true!