sometimes
i find it hard to believe
that at one point in my life
i was unaware of your existence.
i didn't know that you could see darkness
only not during the day
i didn't know that you could see kindness
only not from those who love you
and sadly,
i didn't know that you could see beauty
only not in yourself

s.

how silly of me to believe you'd change your atrocious ways
how awful it is to know you only 'loved' me
when you wanted something
how stupid i was to think you'd miss me at all

i continue to float on this nauseating cloud of despair
waiting, waiting, waiting
for who knows what anymore

the clock still continues on, and waits for no one

teach me to fall in love again, with someone new
or tell me you ******* love me again
because i really am nothing without you

i wish i could look at myself in the mirror again
without seeing guilt
regret
sorrow

all of the things you could take away,
at least for a little while.

i miss you