I’d like to write a love poem.
For tea has ceased to give me joy.
And in the past, one of the only things that has,
Has been feelings for a boy.
I know that sounds pathetic,
Like Disney commercials have seized my mind,
But sometimes focussing on something lovely as opposed to my own self-loathing,
Is the only relief I can find.
I’d like to write a love poem
And yet I know I cannot.
For the boy who sees me as nothing but a game,
Is the only one my heart has got.
I’d like to write a love poem
For someone other than him
Whose head is filled with textured thoughts,
And heart is filled with kindness, to the rim
I’d like to write a love poem
Telling of how I adore
His endless eyes, his glistening soul
But his rough edges even more.
I’d like to write a love poem,
But the more I think it through
I realize that I’ll never have anyone
To address my love poem to
I don't know, I just keep writing these stories where my characters have some sort of love life and I just wish that I could have a REAL love life, not one made out of paper and make-believe, because when I have some form of a romantic aspect in my life, my Broken Moods are ALOT more scarce, and I just... really, hate feeling so alone. I'm sorry for being so pathetic and co-dependant, and stereotypical, and annoying, and worthless. Sorry for being so attention-seekingly self-deprecating, by the way. I'm not trying to be this selfish and vain and ungrateful. I'm sorry.