Is this where you want it to end?
Is this how you want it to be?
I thought I meant a little
more to you than this
but I'm finally starting to see..

If you want someone in your life,
you should make an effort,
as should they.
You should never make someone feel
as though they're the only one
with something to say.

You keep everything bottled inside
and never will tell me how you really feel.
Are you afraid of how I break down your walls
and make you feel something real?
You can't deny the connection we share;
trust me - I've tried too many times.
I tried to turn away from you,
I tried not to cross that line.

But for me, it seems,
it was inevitable
to stay away from you.
I know right from wrong,
I know we crossed too many lines,
but I refuse to deny myself
something so true.

And it's ****** up that when you're with him
I'm over here wishing it were me.
Love makes people so selfish;
I need to bring myself
back to reality.

I know that we can't be together
and I know it's hard for you, too.
But let down your guard
for once in your life
and admit that
you feel the same way I do.

I want you to be happy
because I can't be there
to show you how much I care.
And I can live without you
but I don't ever want to imagine
my life without you..
The thought of that
I truly cannot bear.

If I have to learn
how to be your friend,
I promise I will try
my **** near hardest.
But if that isn't what you want
I'll be the farthest
thing from your reach;
I'll try to be so strong.

So listen to me
when I tell you:
This will be the last you hear from me -
from here on out, it's in your hands.
I'm tired of being the one reaching out
while you stay watching in the stands.

If you truly want me
to leave you be,
say the word and I'm gone.
But something this good
can't be denied,
Something this real
could never be wrong.

You say you miss me
but you've kept your distance.
You don't have to tell me
it's because you're with him.
And if I said I didn't miss you,
well, I'd be lying.
My heart has been heavy
and these times are trying.
All I want is to talk to you, if nothing else.
I've done just fine these past few years by myself.
And I promise I,
no, I didn't mean to make you cry,
but, my God,
I wish that I could be the one
to dry your eyes.
I wish that I could grab your hand
and not think twice.
I wish that these thoughts of you
weren't my only vice.
I wish I could snuggle up
behind you and kiss your neck.
But it's then that I'm reminded

of all the things you never said.

I dreamt of you last night.
Did you wake thinking of me?
My shoulders and back
feel cold now;
it's where your body
should be.

I dreamt of your hand in mine;
fingers laced, you holding me.
And then, it seems,
I awoke
to this cruel reality.

The longing I feel
cannot be compared
to anything I've ever known

Because

Where your words once were,
I have only memories now.
Where your hands once were,
I feel the ghost of your fingertips
and
Where your lips landed on mine,
I can only recall
how you taste
by closing my eyes.

I miss you
beyond anything words
could ever convey
And I'm hurting, yes,
deep down, I'm hurting
So badly.

But baby I don't blame you,
I promise you, I don't.
I've only myself to blame
for this hurricane of events
and I know I haven't said
I'm sorry
enough,
But I am so sorry.

I'm sorry
I wasn't enough,
I'm sorry
I couldn't show you
how I feel;
I'm so sorry
that I couldn't make my words
become promises
And I'm sorry
that you had to ever
cross my path.

My heart hurts.
I would be telling
an atrocious lie
if I were to ever say it didn't,
but it hurts so bad
sometimes I can't breathe.
I guess you could say
I'm heartbroken.

But

Consider yourself lucky, baby.
Because had you not
broken my heart,
**I eventually
would've broken yours.

I miss the crinkle in your smile,
and the way you smiled with your eyes.
I miss the way I'd reminisce
on the way your hand felt in mine.

I miss the surprise in your voice
when I'd call just to hear yours.
And that beautiful laugh
that always kept me wanting more.

I miss the "good morning" texts,
I miss the calls out of the blue.
But if you asked me what was next,
I guess you could say
we're slow dancing in
a burning room.

What do you want me to say?
I knew we were doomed
from the start.
But I'll take my chances
when it comes to
matters of the heart.

I'll remember you and smile,
but I gotta let it burn.
I'll stay wishing you were her -
******* it,
You'd think I'd learn.

I hope that when you're with him
it's me, instead, that you see.
Babe, I never said
this would be easy;

**I'm gonna make you miss me.

I tell myself
we shouldn't have acted on it

But I'm a firm believer
in not letting
such a strong connection
e v e r


**go to waste.

guessing games

My mind is screaming no,
but my heart is feeling yes.
I've got some things I need to say,
I need to get this off my chest.

There are so many ways
I wish I could have answered you
but it still hurts too bad
to see your name.
Give me some time,
and give me some space
and don't you dare
take all the blame.

If your question is
"Do you forgive me?,"
please know that
I never was mad.
Of course I forgive you,
I know it's hard for you, too,
but lately I've just been so sad.

You tell me you're sorry
and I accept your apology
but I think we both
just need to let go.
I shouldn't have taken part in
these guessing games -
but there's no way
we could have known.

Do you feel like a part of you
is missing?
Is there a gaping hole
where your heart should be?
I think of these things
when I'm lying awake,
and wonder
if you're missing me..