guessing games

My mind is screaming no,
but my heart is feeling yes.
I've got some things I need to say,
I need to get this off my chest.

There are so many ways
I wish I could have answered you
but it still hurts too bad
to see your name.
Give me some time,
and give me some space
and don't you dare
take all the blame.

If your question is
"Do you forgive me?,"
please know that
I never was mad.
Of course I forgive you,
I know it's hard for you, too,
but lately I've just been so sad.

You tell me you're sorry
and I accept your apology
but I think we both
just need to let go.
I shouldn't have taken part in
these guessing games -
but there's no way
we could have known.

Do you feel like a part of you
is missing?
Is there a gaping hole
where your heart should be?
I think of these things
when I'm lying awake,
and wonder
if you're missing me..