I met you unexpectedly
At the peak of my insanity
And now it’s hard to see
The exact degree
To which you'll love me
Since I am clearly bound
To an idea I have not found
A passion so profound
A man I can't confound
With my manic mind

You wanted to know
The music I love
The love I've found
Since you left

I lied to you
My secrets I’m keeping
They’re much better
Far better than the ones you couldn’t

I can’t keep imagining him in my mind
Or love I’ll never find
Blinded by my perception of perfection
Depth only found upon inspection
Afraid I should know in an instant
On this I am insistent
For last time when I let the feeling build
The foundation wasn’t filled
And these holes turned into cracks
Beliefs I’d built on pacts
I want that love that grew
But I want the instantaneous jolt, too
Hearts bright at first sight
And feelings that take flight

He told me he loved me
He missed me
Then kissed me
But he didn't want me

Yes, I may still love you
I miss you
But I'll resist you
Because I don't need you

You might have been steady
Loving
And kind
But your love didn’t surprise me
Or blow my mind

I fell in love with you on molly
I fell in lust with you on ****
Felt bigger than myself
Wanted you and no one else
on LSD
But heartbreak came with sassafras
You looked at me with eyes of glass
Because the high can never really last
And now my dreams live in the past

I crave freedom in my very core
I sing randomly
I write randomly
I cry at night to not be attached to anything
I’m sick of putting my ducks in rows
I’ve never seen ducks in perfect rows