lcb: Poems

3 am

lcb Mar 2014

3 am

She was alone at 3 am
Everyone thought she
Went to bed at 12
But what they didn't know
Was she was carving into
her skin late at night
They thought she was happy
But they were terribly wrong

l.c.b.

Attention? I think not.

lcb Mar 2014

Attention? I think not.

She cut her wrists
She hid the scars
In hope no one would pull her sleeve up
But one day, they did.
But they did not care.
They thought it was for attention.
But what they didn't know:
She had been hiding those cuts for five years.
Five agonizing years.

l.c.b.

Cloud of Judgement

lcb Mar 2014

Cloud of Judgement

You won't even acknowledge my sadness
It's only because your girlfriend blocks
Your cloud of judgement
You only listen to her
You only see her pain
You don't care about the rest of us
You didn't even care when I told you I tried
committing suicide

How does someone simply not care?

l.c.b.

Cuts

lcb Mar 2014

Cuts

My brother saw my cuts
He did not question me
He lifted his sleeve
And revealed his

l.c.b.

Cutting

lcb Mar 2014

Cutting

I will rip my veins apart
and then my mind will be at peace
for a while

My wrist will pour blood
I need it to bleed
or bead

I am counting the seconds
till this can happen
5..4..3..2..1..

I am now content
with the results
but I'm getting dizzy

I can hear sirens
the sound is getting stronger
is it coming for me?

(lcb)

Dead

lcb Mar 2014

Dead

The only reason I'm still alive
is because of my best friend
if she would've left me,
I would be dead
No doubt.

l.c.b.

demons

lcb Mar 2014

demons

I thought I could fight it
but the demons are getting stronger
and I am getting weaker
they are going to win
and I will fail
but failure is death
so one day I'm going to die
of sadness,
of suicide.

l.c.b.

Desperation

lcb Mar 2014

Desperation

I need you.
But you don't need me
You don't even want me.
Worst part of all...
You don't even know who I am.

l.c.b.

Detail

lcb Mar 2014

Detail

Today in English class
we were asked to write a poem.
A poem of any kind...
I debated whether or not
to turn in a depression poem
But I can not just simply hand away
my hearts desire, my passion,
to someone not wanting to know
Every. Detail. About. Me.

l.c.b.

fake

lcb Mar 2014

fake

Ever since you left
  I have been thinking
  You didn't even say goodbye
   So I wonder if you ever actually cared
    All the "I love you's" seem fake
     Please tell me
      Did you ever actually care?

l.c.b.

Far, Far Away

lcb Mar 2014

Far, Far Away

I don't know
what to do anymore.
I'm officially
giving up.
There's no point
in life.
Happiness is only a dream;
A destination...
somewhere far, far away.

l.c.b.

Games

lcb Mar 2014

Games

You left without a goodbye
Leaving me to die.
Were all the "I love you's" fake?
One wouldn't just leave a loved one
without a goodbye
So I wonder,
did you actually love me?
Or was it all just a game?

l.c.b.

Giving up

lcb Mar 2014

Giving up

My only thoughts are of giving up
Can't help the feeling
Of loneliness
Of giving up
Of death
It's all I think about.

{l.c.b}

hatred

lcb Mar 2014

hatred

hatred is a strong feeling
there is love, hate, and indifference
but I hate you
and that says more about you
than it does me

l.c.b.

heartbroken

lcb Mar 2014

heartbroken

I thought I loved you
but I was in love with the idea of you
the idea I couldn't have you
the idea I would never be able to have you

l.c.b.

I Deserve It

lcb Mar 2014

I Deserve It

They caught her in the act
You may ask, the act of what?
Her response would be 'I deserve it'
My response would be self harm.
They found her slashing her wrists,
And all she was capable of saying was
"I deserve it" over and over and over again

l.c.b.

It Was the Cat

lcb Mar 2014

It Was the Cat

My sleeve fell down.
You saw the cuts.
You asked me what they were
I responded "the cat".
I don't even have a cat...
but you believed me...

l.c.b.

Lies Lies Lies

lcb Mar 2014

Lies Lies Lies

Tell me all your thoughts
and secrets
I'm ready to listen
just don't lie
because lies hurt more than the truth

l.c.b.

Lonely

lcb Mar 2014

Lonely

It is 3 am
I am so utterly alone
My head is spinning
with these thoughts
I am such a sad
lonely girl

memories

lcb Mar 2014

memories

it's quite astonishing
how you could leave
without a goodbye
we shared so many memories
but you still left

l.c.b.

moments in time

lcb Mar 2014

moments in time

every time I see you,
I think of the moments we shared
the times we captured
but it was too sweet for me
I had to leave

l.c.b.

Nobody

lcb Mar 2014

Nobody

She carved words into her body
Into her wrist, into her thigh
****, *****, worthless, failure, fat
Were all carved into her beautiful body
Nobody knew the pain she endured
Nobody knew

l.c.b.

Nothing

lcb Mar 2014

Nothing

I cannot do anything
I can't function
I can't move
Look what you have done to me
I feel so lifeless
I feel like I'm going to die

(lcb)

Ready

lcb Mar 2014

Ready

Ready to die
Ready to die
Ready to die
Ready to die
Repeat 2748493x

Real or fake?

lcb Mar 2014

Real or fake?

I don't know whether your sadness is real or fake
I understand you cut
But ever since you started cutting your wrist,
You wear short sleeve shirts
And you try to flaunt your cuts
And you posted on your personal that you cut
So I wonder...is your sadness real?

l.c.b.

Sadness at 3am

lcb Mar 2014

Sadness at 3am

Drowning
     In
          My
               Own
                    Sadness
Late
     At
          Night

sadness has erupted

lcb Mar 2014

sadness has erupted

you thought you could hurt me
and you were right
because I already was hurting myself
due to you

l.c.b.

self harm

lcb Mar 2014

self harm

every sad thought the girl contained,
she took it out on herself
trying to find some "painkiller"
she turned to self harm
and never looked back

l.c.b.

Suicide

lcb Mar 2014

Suicide

I know I will commit one day
One chilly autumn day
One crisp spring day
One scorching summer day
One chaotic winter day
I know in my heart I will commit one day
Whether it's tomorrow,
or in 5 years,
I know.

l.c.b.

Us

lcb Mar 2014

Us

I
remember
it
all
too
well

You

lcb Mar 2014

You

I have typed 934 words
Such a large number
But so small compared
to the amount of people
in the world, but only
you are on my mind.

l.c.b.

You hurt me, I hurt me

lcb Mar 2014

You hurt me, I hurt me

You hurt me
In return
I hurt myself
I drag the blade
across my wrist
in hope one day
I'll die

l.c.b.

You say, I say

lcb Mar 2014

You say, I say

You ask me to leave you alone,
But how am I supposed to leave you alone
When we don't talk?
When we don't even look at each other?
You say my presence in the room
Is what bothers you,
But, I'm not backing down.
If you're soooo annoyed with my presence,
Maybe you're the one that needs to go away.

l.c.b.

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