I'm not a nobody or no one
But I'm not much a someone either.
You'd remember me at a mention
Yet forget me just as quick.
Saying my full name, rolling off your tongue,
Like an old sticker, still I don't stick.
When I'm needed, I'm convenient.
When I'm not, I simply fade.
It's ok, it's probably for the best that way.

I'm not a nobody like Emily
But I feel we would see eye to eye
She would be a nobody and I would be an I
If the public were all frogs,
Maybe I would be a fly?
We wouldn't be a pair, that's fair
But quiet, banish us? They still might.

I'm not much of a someone like you.
Not to say I wish I was.
I'd be too nervous to tell the truth
Trying to do the things a someone does.
While everyone knew how to be,
I left to leave, simply being a me.

After a long time
He was standing in front of me
The man I loved the most
He was there
Dressed in white
He looked peaceful
I couldn't look at him
For a moment
I wonder if he could look past my trembling body

He came to me
And softly whispered
"Look at me"
so I did
And I captured him
In my eyes
my heart
and in my soul
In a place
where no one could be

I wonder
if he could see
the pain in my eyes
if he could see the longing
In my heart
As I stared at him

I wonder
if his heart
Ached at the thought
Of the pain
he caused me
As my eyes burned
Igniting a fire in my soul
I wonder
at what moment did he decide
That he didn't love me anymore


As I stare it him

I wonder
if he could see all the emotions
Wrapped like
ropes around my soul
Did they make him feel
The guilt of breaking my trust apart
Did he see
my red eyes
As hot tears poured out of them
Did he realize
That he wrecked my mind
my heart and my soul?

I wonder
if he knew
How much I longed
For the warmth of his body
To have his hand wrapped around mine

I smiled at him
He was like the sun
Shinning bright
He didn't need any help
But my darling
I was the moon
Without him
I have no light
No soul

I wonder
If he knew
He took the light
Away from my soul

As I held out my hand
To touch him
For the last time
As my heart is clenching
Begging me to make him stay
I could feel the air trapped in my throat
As I struggled to breathe
I bring his forehead
And hold it against mine

He kissed me for last time
He didn't say goodbye
As he walked away
I wonder
If he knew
He took my soul away.

What?
Wait, no
Really?
Could it be?
Is it finally happening?
I think it might be
Stay calm
I tell myself
Don’t blow it
You’ll blow it
No I won’t
She’s funny
She’s sweet
She likes what I like
Maybe this
Maybe this is it
I don’t know
I haven’t used the L-word
Not yet
But I feel it
On the tip of my tongue
I want to scream it
I want to say
I love you
But I haven’t
Not yet
I don’t want
To make it weird
So I say the other
Thoughts in my head
I like you
You’re cute
You’re sweet
You’re amazing
But all I want to say is
I
Love
You

As you stay in the past
It grows,
But you don't.

Forget remembering.

The way you lie to me is so addicting.
I know it's an intoxicating oversaturated sweetness, but if I want it to be true bad enough, then it could be, right?

'I'm okay.'
- 'No, you're not.'
'What can you say?'
- 'About you, well a lot.'

'About Life?'
- 'Painful and Long.'
'The way out?'
- 'Put it into a song.'

'Will someone understand?'
- 'No. But, you'll have the upper hand.'
'Is that how you're dealing?'
- 'Doesn't matter, I'm devoid of feelings.'

'Seriously now, are you?'
- 'You'll reach here too.'
'Does that make it better?'
- 'nothing ever does.'

'Is that why you're almost dead?'
- 'Well, take your pills and go to bed.'