I just don’t care anymore…

Walk the edge
Taking risks
Hanging on the ledge
Just don’t care

Embrace the darkness
Walk in the shadows
Inviting the emptiness
Just don’t care

Locked up inside
Wearing a mask
Faith can decide
I just don’t care anymore…

I love others more than
I love myself;
I hate to see others
In pain,
But when it comes to me,
‘I’m Fine’

At seventeen,
The hardest choice you should have
To make is what clothes you want
To wear,
Or what food you want
To eat;
Not sitting at the edge of your bed
At four in the morning
Considering whether or not
Your existence matters in this world
- (A.)

I DESTROY HOMES, TEAR FAMILIES APART, I TAKE YOUR CHILDREN AND THAT’S JUST THE START.

I’M MORE COSTLY THEN DIAMONDS, MORE COSTLY THEN GOLD. THE SORROW I BRING YOU IS A SIGHT TO BEHOLD.

IF YOU USE ME, REMEMBER I’M EASILY FOUND, I LIVE ALL AROUND YOU, IN SCHOOLS AND IN TOWNS.

I LIVE WITH THE RICH, I LIVE WITH THE POOR, I LIVE DOWN THE STREET AND MAYBE NEXT DOOR.

MY POWER IS AWESOME, TRY ME YOU’LL SEE, BUT IF YOU DO YOU MAY NEVER BREAK FREE.

JUST TRY ME ONCE AND I MAY LET YOU GO, BUT TRY ME TWICE AND I’LL OWN YOU SOUL.

WHEN I POSSES YOU YOU’LL STEAL AND YOU’LL LIE, YOU’LL DO WHAT YOU DO, JUST TO GET HIGH.

THE CRIMES THAT YOU’LL COMMIT, FORM MY NARCOTIC CHARM, WILL BE WORTH THE PLEASURE YOU’LL FEEL IN YOUR ARMS.

YOU’LL STEAL FROM YOUR MOTHER, YOU’LL STEAL FROM YOUR DAD, WHEN YOU SEE THEIR TEARS, YOU SHOULD BE SAD.

YOU’LL FORGET YOUR MORALS AND HOW YOU WERE RAISED, I’LL BE YOUR CONSCIENCE, I’LL TEACH YOU MY WAYS.

I TAKE KIDS FROM PARENTS AND PARENT FROM KIDS, I TURN PEOPLE FROM GOD AND SEPARATE FRIENDS.

I’LL TAKE EVERYTHING FROM YOU, YOUR LOOKS AND YOUR PRIDE. I'LL ALWAYS BE WITH YOU. RIGHT BY YOUR SIDE.

YOU’LL GIVE UP EVERYTHING, YOUR FAMILY, YOUR HOME,YOUR FRIENDS YOUR MONEY, THEN YOU’LL BE ALONE.

I’LL TAKE AND TAKE, TILL YOU HAVE NOTHING TO GIVE. WHEN I’M FINISHED WITH YOU. YOU’LL BE LUCKY TO LIVE.

IF YOU TRY BE WARNED, THIS IS NO GAME, IF YOU GIVE ME A CHANCE I’LL DRIVE YOU INSANE.

I’LL RAVISH YOUR BODY, I’LL CONTROL YOUR MIND, I’LL OWN YOU COMPLETLY, YOUR SOUL WILL BE MINE.

THE NIGHTMARES I BRING YOU, WHILE LYING IN BED, THE VOICE YOU’LL HEAR INSIDE YOUR HEAD.

THE SWEATS THE SHAKES, THE VISIONS YOU’LL YOU SEE, I WANT YOU TO KNOW THERE ALL GIFTS FROM ME.

BUT THEN IT’S TO LATE, YOU’LL KNOW IN YOUR HEART, THAT YOU ARE MINE AND WE SHALL NEVER PART.

YOU’LL REGRET YOU TRIED, THEY ALWAYS DO, BUT YOU CAME TO ME, NOT I TO YOU.

YOU KNEW THIS WOULD HAPPEN, MANY TIMES YOU  WERE TOLD, YOU CHALLENGED MY POWER, YOU CHOOSE TO BE BOLD.

YOU COULD OF SAID NO AND JUST WALKED AWAY, IF YOU  COULD LIVE THAT DAY OVER WHAT WOULD YOU SAY.

I’LL BE YOU MASTER YOU’LL BE MY SLAVE. I’LL EVEN GO WITH YOU, WHEN YOU GO TO YOUR GRAVE.

NOW THAT YOU MET ME. WHAT WILL YOU DO, WILL YOU TRY ME OR NOT, IT’S ALL UP YO YOU.

I CAN BRING YOU MORE MISERY THEN WORDS CAN TELL. COME TAKE MY HAND, I’LL TAKE YOU TO HELL.

Death
Around every corner
Right in front of you
Killing everyone

Damage
Destruction
Death

       Never fixed
       No thoughts
       No cares

              For anything
              For anyone
              For everything

                     All falls
                     All dies
                     All down

Nothing Matters

Dare you to live your life
Right here
Under my control
Giving no care or thought to the world
So nothing else matters

Living in a world, caught between pain,
The arrogance of my heart, the insecurities in my brain,
A never-ending cycle, of true belief and true doubt
Almost sure I've reached my limit, need to find my way out

Like an inevitable cliché, I reach for comfort in the bottle,
As if an answer sits waiting for me in its hollow,
I've spent so many nights drowning through the years
No longer sure what I'm searching for, no longer sure if I care

Is it time to give up, to give in and move on?
Accept my place in this world and admit I'm not strong,
Or do I keep searching, and pushing for the light
For my piece of freedom to finally sleep through the night

I wish I knew the answer,
I fear I never will.
I hope I'll always care,
I fear I no longer do.

- Johnathan Andrews