The thought that you
Would harm me so
Had never crossed my mind
For I was utterly obsessed
Secrets
Smiles
Safety
Revolved around you
Oh how I craved it all
But still, I fell
And you caught me
With love growing less
My pain growing worse
Soon my eyes were opened
Blind no longer
To my actions
So I waited for your return
The words which followed
I did not fear
You loved me, you loved me
Right?
Leaving for uncertainty
All reasons stayed valid to me
My hope still stood
Just for you
But there was a single sentence
Not another girl
Not turmoil between parents
Not collapsing grades
You simply wanted to leave
"Difficult and unstable," you spat at me
My dearest friend
Whom I fell in love with
He
left
me
suffering
My insides churned
Words flew onto the screen
I cursed him
Wept until breath refused to flow
The last words I received
From my future, my place of joy
****
You
I don't care.