Udehjer

Udehjer May 2018

Survival

As gladiators in our arena
We seem to make headlines
As those in charge tame us
But chaos still prevails within
A common enemy we fail to battle;
We fail to discover
Unity is power rich,
As chaos within is poor
Our heart boils
As inhumane acts occurs
So what do we fight for
Nothing but pain
As the path to redemption is numb
Pain and regret prevails

Udehjer May 2018

Satisfaction

The sea breeze embraces my face.
Peace enwraps me.
I feel the coarse texture of the sand;
Beneath my feet;
It welcomes me.
I feel at home while I stand there.
As the sea pulls slowly away from my feet;
I watch the waves move slowly to their own beat;
And I feel it take my pain away.
As the sun sets on the horizon,
I perceive all I have hoped for approaching.
I relish this feeling as long as I can;
Cause I know it'll slip away as soon as the sea is invisible.

That feeling of freedom and fulfillment

May 2018

Rahama

Until You're Happy.

I wrote a song about you
It turned out to be a sad song
Because you're not here
I couldn't be truly happy
Without you
Atleast not for a long time
Atleast not until you've found someone
That truly makes you happy
Because your happiness is
My happiness even if
I'm not the source of it.

Thank you for reading ♥♥♥.

#happy #love #sad #broken #relationships #care #true

May 2018

Lilly

What is pain

What is pain

There is physical pain
The kind you feel when you fall
Or you crash your bike
Pain from being pushed
Pain from being hurt

There is mental pain
The kind from bullying
Or being forced to do something
Pain from being pushed
Pain from being hurt

"Are you okay?"
They ask
"Yes"
I say
While thinking no

Help me...hurt me...
Three letter difference

We are raised different
From each other
Yet we try to be each other

Who am I
I can't tell
I'm whoever you want me to be
I thought
You liked those kinds of girls

I was wrong
You like me
A sweet shy girl

You like me but you don't know me
And I don't know you
Thats why you didnt know
Why I couldn't say no

I didn't want it
I'm so sorry if I said I did
I wasn't ready

I want you now
I could take it now
I'm ready now
But I wasn't then

I'm sorry
If I lied
If I hurt you

Physically or mentally
Whats the difference
It's all pain
Sometimes one is so strong it's the other
I hurt you
You hurt me

Can we fix it
Can I fix it
Love me
I love you

You say you're happy
Happy you aren't hurting me more
I need to know why
Weren't we perfect
You were happy
I wasn't, but you were
Thats all that matters to me

Both of us happy
Thats new
We're new
How is life fair
To make both of us happy
Why must we hurt to get there
Hurt
Pain

Pain is everywhere
In everything
We are all in pain
Some more than others
It doesn't matter what kind of pain
Help
Help
Help
Happy
Happy
Happy

We will be happy
I will no longer be

In pain

--StoryMakerInProgress

#pain #please #**** #love #needyou

Udehjer May 2018

Precious

I live a restless life;
All I do is wander endlessly.
To find my inner peace,
I need her to see me.
She looks at me;
But she doesn't see me.
She doesn't look past my hard exterior.

To her I am like a pinch of salt;
Being sprinkled continuously;
To torture an earthworm.

The goddess I worship sees me;
As a toxic chemical;
To her flowers.

A time of sadness

#r

May 2018

Rahama

I Messed Up

I'm scared to write;
Cause I know the words;
"I messed up really bad"
Will come out of nowhere.

Oops!
It just did.

I feel like I'm in limbo;
I'm a mess.
I messed up something good,
Something great.
I think about it and my eyes water;
I think of what's going to happen next;
And I involuntarily shudder.

I put myself first for once.
It doesn't feel like I put myself first.
I feel like I just convinced myself.
I convinced myself to destroy;
My source of happiness;
Laughter;
Inner peace.

I messed up really bad.
The deed is done.
This time there's no turning back;
But *******,
I messed up really bad.

So sad right now.

#sad #depressed #down #heartbroken #broken #devastated #mess

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