My guitar is my voice
My lyrics my leads
Singing and dancing
Sets my heart free

In the kichen
I'm a star
At the party
Open mic's
At the bar

I can't sing
But I sure can play
Karaoke singers
Trying to get laid


Like a howling wind
My guitar whispers and moans
Unlike the Wilburys
I travel alone

And play-on I shall
With the coming of night
With the stars all in motion
Creativity in flight...

Flying free you start to fall
But no one gives a ****
Now you become experienced
In the art of how to land

Flying free you fall again
For love was just a lie
It takes you higher than you ever been
Then drops you from on high

Flying free once again
You begin to take control
You navigate beyond your heart
And learn to just let go

I wasn't home that day
When Old Sam came a knockin'
But I got to give 'em credit
For the boldness of his drop in

Cause Oh Ginger she's a cookie
She don't rely on men
And Old Sam he ran off with Sookie
When Junior was 'bout Ten

The Jennings were my neighbors
But the cops they came one night
Ginger she cut young Sammy
With her daddy's switchblade knife

Ya them were the good old days
When lovin' was an art
Livin' in that 1970's
Flint trailer park

Upon a stool in the darkness of day
I once loved a rather pretty bar maid

Drunken drowning in and out of sorrows
Here today and gone tomorrow
Behind the bar the mirror reflects
A pitiful image of self neglect
Nobody actually knows your name
Yet you keep coming back just the same...

Happy hour comes and dies
As we stumble in our pride
In harmony with our woes
Last call near time to go
One more drink, another smoke
One more lie start to choke...

I soak on home to dry
A pretty friend stops on by
I spark a fire and shine
I pretend that you're still mine
Tomorrow comes and I'm alone
Upon a bar-stool getting ******..

Could you ever accept
The truth
Shining from this cheaters eyes
Even if I told you my reason's
I could never tell you exactly why

But
I do advise you to escape him
And come to my side
I must warn you
I love to win
I am the hungry kind
...

Do you know that feeling
When unexpectedly
A friend or family member
Exposes their bigotry?
Well, I can be very out spoken
Bigotry after all is
A cognizant distortion

I recall last summer
In the marketplace
The sun rays
Blessing the day
Children laughing
Parents smiling
My voice welcomes all
Some of the kindest people
I have ever met
Mexican migrant workers
Such a pleasure to appease
Used tables, chairs and dressers
And used shoes on their children's feet
A Muslim man his wife and daughters
All greet me with kind words
The gleam within their shopping eyes
While on guard to be reserved
Native Americans I do respect
Their culture and their lands
For after all upon their blood
Is where America stands

And with this beautiful tapestry
Hanging upon my days
I'll stand against the hatred
America's oldest plague.

I read your writing
and tried to respond
but the dot kept spinning
all day long…

I made myself a promise
and pledged to hold on
never given up
on the outlet for my songs

So if you don’t hear my cheerful
daily rhyme
I’m sure the gateway will open up
in due time!

When I repost
an old poem
I feel like a con.
It easily trends
like when it begun.
Same poets read
Similar comments repeat
causing my creative force
to feel incomplete.
Lazily I write
uneasy I flow
I lost my only muse
and now my mojo!

(DIAPHANOUS)
Sep 15, 2014

This is that part of me
I’m not afraid to expose
A glimpse of my nakedness
A composition I compose

Freely I share regrettable mistakes
Lapse in judgment, slaps in the face
Rather you identify Or quickly deny
These are issues and battles of life.

Creativity comes in darkness
As well as in light
Fear not the lack of morals
As the Poets take to flight...

It hits me mostly
When I'm alone
The voice of soul
The creative flow
Whatever it is
I don't have a clue
Words that come
From nowhere
Words I never use
Perhaps
I'm a bit crazy
Perhaps
You're crazy too
But it is the gift
That you and I share
And I hope
   We never lose...

In the moment
Of regrets
In the perils
Of my plea
Time stuttered
And stalled  
And she was rid of me...

I don't fare well
In social media
I'm sure that's
Hard to stand
On a network tossed
For a common
Need for love
I'm just a simple man

Unintentional boundaries
Between you and I
But your memory lives
When the bandwidth dies...

What can a poor man
Offer you for your birthday?
Birthday wishes
To help dreams come true
Plenty of love
For all that you do
Peace and serenity
And passionate affection
Hmm, there was one other thing
Oh yes … an *******!

Take one cup of envy well ripened
Grind to a fine powder of discontent
Add one ounce fear blinded with unwarranted revenge
Shake well in your heated fist of anger
Until your heart hardens to stone
Stuff that cotton of madness
In those ears that refuse to listen
As I beg you to fogive me
Hear not my words of empathy
As you cast those stones
That silences my fading voice
As I gasp for my last breath...

Then may your god bless you!

I was once one of you
No longer do I laugh
Life's no longer funny
When the train jumps off the track

With eyes that no longer shine
And hearts that no longer break
These wheels keep on spinning
On this trip through outer space...

Please accept my credentials
as I attempt to identify…
I know I have it somewhere,
my pristine societal ties..
Believe me when I assure you,
I genuinely cares.
Where ever this is headed,
I’m already there!

I refuse to shape my world
To fit your points of view
Perfection alone hardly ever stands true
Between the lines we all fall through
Righteousness, your badge of honor
Your heart must be black and blue
And so I'm sorry I told you the truth
.......................................

Shall love be limited
To the mate of true soul
Are you so afraid
To just let go

Relax your heart
Control the beat
Fear not the reaper
Resolve your beast

The realm of all possibilities
Holds a constant flow
Through new days of uncertainty
In the benevolence of our role...

She brought me such pleasure
Sole mate of my soul
Her touch I so treasure
Her pain I so loathe

True love of my journey
How long has it been
Time cannot measure
As pleasures transcends

I’ll break down the walls
To be where you roam
I can’t wait to taste
The seeds we have sown

As I wait watching
The stars for a sign
My grip it grows tighter
Across space and through time

Her voice soothingly echoes
Lucid charm of my dream
Her body lies temptingly
Wide open for me

Prohibited by conscience
Still the gods they do dare
Shrouded in mystery
Shadow lovers beware
...

Blue as the sky on a mid-winters day
Sharp as a knife that cuts through the haze
I seek a warm place in the arms of my love
I run after her as to catch a young dove
She catches the wind that blows from the sea
Now I'm growing old and she's growing free...

Wash away now these illusions of youth
Independent of madness, inconsistent with truth
So easy to remember yet harder to find
The ways of my youth when I was yet blind...

Goddess in love with a man
Her hourglass spills my sand
Captivated by mortal charm
Her hunger can do such harm

Loving her feels like sin
A love that burns within
Jealousy like you've never seen
She even stalks me in my dreams

Nails down back, pulling hair
Lust bites and I don't care
Within her temple I blasphemy
And in the end
She breaks her fast for me...

There is a hell
Beyond your worst
A place where living
Becomes a curse

A restless feeling
Trapped within your gut
When you know your time
Is almost up

Passion dies
In the fear of night
There's no comfort
In the struggle for life

The heart sinks
The mind slips
Even the hand
Can hardly grip

The darkest day of my soul
Shines compared to this lowest low.

Words that lead
Down paths of bliss
Awaken the soul
To the poetic gift

Thoughts so deep
The voice defines
Merge from the ether
Line after line

As if a lingering spirit
From some past life
Never published
In the public light

I search for pen
In memory plight
Another opus
Gets lost in flight...

This is my strength
It don't belong to anyone else
No one carried me through Hell
They simply placed me on a shelve

These are my veins
Sending life force to my fist
Those are my claw marks
Ripped from Heaven's List

This is my heart
My love weighs a ton
And it's stronger on it's own
When it's all said and done
...

We embrace our flaws
Emotional lesions scar
We confess vaguely
Truths of who we are

An eye watches from deep within
Every thought and curse we send
The mask we choose for each occasion
The thought of witness breeds mutation

The carefree dies
And we become
One with source
When we're done...

She brought me such pleasure
True mate of my soul
Her touch I so treasure
Her pain I so loathe…

As I wait watching
The stars for a sign
My grip it grows tighter
Across space in lost time…

Her voice soothingly echoes
Lucid charm of my dream
Her body lies temptingly
Wide open for me…

The world may prohibit
Still the gods they do dare
Desire of my soul
   Sweet magic we share…

From the Valley of the Dead
She cries out to be fed
Why does she hunger so
Only an addict could ever know...

It's today again and where have I been
Out searching for tomorrow
I'd give up on my quest for gold
But I beg to be spared such sorrow...

What was the price
Of all the life I sacrificed
All the love I compromised
   I am the one who never lied...

Tomorrows run away
From every new day
Living come outside to play
  

Neurotoxins transmit messages in my brain
Depression from which I cannot refrain
Yet somehow I remain quite sane
Out here caught in this pouring rain...

I dreamt about a desire so deep I cried
So beautiful and unattainable yet still I tried
I tried to hold on as long as I could
My words are so often misunderstood...

I look at my wrist, I have no scars
Never felt the need to crash my car
Or burn in hell before my time
Self-mutilation is not my crime...

Yet my moment of satisfaction subjective
Blackened by what I was formed to believe
Unable to meditate, I can only dream
My mind is a vacuum to the extreme...

Dear Sweet Poetess
If you were mine
I would love you
To the end of time...
All your needs
As mush as I have
Dear Sweet Poetess
You drive me mad...
I must confess
My heart is in need
Your's are the words
I long to read...
Dear Sweet Poetess
You set my heart free!

Would I
Should I
Could I be
The kind of spirit
That you can see
In your life
In your face
Or would you
Leave me
Out in space?

All the gods
live in a zoo
In the heavens
On display for you
...

I'm not trolling for feed back
No that's not why I'm here
Yet I appreciate your kindness...
My good Sir!
Your words are sweet music...
My Dear!
Actually your love is the reason
Why I'm here...

Through the buffer of these circuits
Your avatar submerges
Your words inscribed in mysteries
As scanning eye's converge

It's now or never now
To bring your words to light
Post your creative thoughts
Before you say good night

Words can love
Words can  heal
Words can touch
And we can feel

So give us your best
If you will!

Angry gods unworshipped and unknown
High up in heaven forgotten and alone
Resurrected in text, decreed as foes
**** the rituals that fed on our souls

Good deeds go undone under the sun
My prayers unspoken weigh a ton
Their hearts filled with vile disgust
Decomposed corpses, boils and pus

These unplanted seeds wither and rot
Pestilence and famine never stop
Songs once written of former glories
Greek in origin their ancient stories

Bored and restless in their continuum
Unprepared to give the bare minimum
Human-like attributes, they deviate from norm
Made in our image, distorted in our form...

Her eyes are the rapture
Life from death she brings
Sweet Lily of the garden
What a beautiful dream

Her warmth so intoxicating
Like a season between change
Her light so consuming
Until nothing dark remains

Unfortunately Lily is my cousin
So these words I’ll never say
Sweet Lily I adored you
In a very special way…

Those driven by hate have already lost!
Please seek peace at any cost….

Worth
How aimlessly
We're measured
Wealth over health
Charity over compassion
Beauty over kindness

True teary-eyed empathy
Means little
A simple distortion
A white noise
In the background
Of difficult solutions
Not yet found

I'm sorry
No one can
Save you from
Yourself
So find your
Worth
And measure
It well...

Have you considered the way Jill felt for Jack
Every time Jack fell down; Jill took up the slack
Her tumble was actually caused by fears of being abandoned
Jack hit rock bottom long ago, Jill still hasn't landed
...
Illuminating these words of the wise
That expose such issues that we'd rather hide
Words like enabler, codependency, resentments and denial
All of which place our addictive tendencies on trial

The addict strives to fill the void of a disease ever pending
The therapist with all their degrees are far from comprehending
Powerlessness, a self-prophecy of what you can't control
Higher Power, an interpretation of the superstitions we hold

The religious may disagree but the only power is in our mind
Believing in something strong enough work on these same lines
If a higher power fails you, you only have yourself to blame
We feed these demons inside of us or we keep them on a chain
It's simple!

Time devours this very moment
Her attention slips away from mine
Our conscious connection slips
Into a dreamscape of faded reason
The void between us fills with wasted life
Soon to be forgotten

The design has been altered
A deformation of will
An attempt to force chance
We embrace failure and cling to it

Simply put
We suffer because we care...

The wars of the gods are fought
In the flesh of humankind
Pawns posed in a posture of divine purpose
Pleading for power, repenting of pride
Prepared to die, an eye for an eye
Upon the battlefield the devil dines
Was this your destiny, or some deity’s design
Wars to be lost, battles to be won
I am the star, the moon, the sun
Will you worship me when you’re done
I am all things, so let’s be clear
Vengeance is mine so make yourself pure
I am the bullet, the crime, the tear
The blood that you spill, the bringer of fear
A deaf ear I turn, a judgment I render
Appease me now for I am the offender
I hold the answers, you wonder why
Belief is a disease and so you will die
Call it a gift, call it a game
I create lust and demand you abstain
This constant collaboration between me and I
We are the truth and therefore we lie

Bite into my apple of immortal desire
Look upon the nakedness of eternal fire
I am Satan, I am god, I am the mystery within the façade

There is so much more
That I want to see
All around the world
And in between

Tastes, sights
And places afar
Where ever friendly faces
And opening arms

So much more
To be consumed
This planet we're on
Is a fruitful womb

A meal a beer
A sample of the yield
Blackberry, blueberry
Strawberry fields

St. Ambrose Bees
Sweet honey mead
I want to sample
Every good thing I see!

   I am that
Western Traveler
    Indeed
   ...

That dad-blamed Darwin and his evolution
We got molesting priests and civil retribution
We got a lady on a beast committing prostitution
Oh no man...

We got holy rollers with their ***** money
They rule this land of milk and honey
They pray to god through their Easter Bunny
Was that the sun god or god's only son?
Oh no man
I'm not the one

We got the DaVinci code and mother Magdalene
Look out now there's another goddess on the scene
911... was it just a bad dream
Oh no man
I'm not the one

HP won’t
let me
               on…..

What is this feeling
that leaves me longing
My heart begs to hold on
Yet the golden dream
of this beautiful stranger
fades from real to reality
Although we've never met
I know her somehow
Somewhere someway
Perhaps from the past
Perhaps from the future
Maybe a soul mate
I've yet to meet
It's as if she was torn
from my being
And in my waking hour
I am but half a man.
I long for more
than just a dream
Yet at least I hold her
in my unconscious world...

I wrote my play in portions
and posted them in draft..
I’m only 62
a little over half…

The best part of life is living
Each moment fades into now
I will write forever after
I will return upon the clouds

I went searching for a meaning
Then my Poet took the stage
Now I’m staring in my encore
The best part of my play!

Washed up on the shores of life
His sorrows just begun
He lost his life and family
While wallowing in the ****…

Too late now the dog you beat
He’s tasted blood before
Lust stabs deep the hungry beast
Rots his very core…

No rest for the wicked
And the millstone ceased to grind
Tear the poor sap open
And there’s no telling what you’ll find…

Blinded now Oh Jezebel
She wonders why you weep
Taking aim to avenge
The heartaches that she seeks…

Denial won’t hide the feelings inside
For the victims that you’ve slain
Therefore he’s become the whipping boy
And she’s become deranged…

Involuntarily
My subconscious
Mind speaks
All that I've "let go"
Down below
Still creeps
Invisible as a ghost
Stuffed into place
All my brokenness
Slaps in the face
Forgotten imprinted
Carved into my soul
All of my losses
Tightly in tow
.....

I wish you were mine
Captured in time
Fast asleep forevermore
Gathering stars
From worlds afar
Teaching us well
What love is for...

Two dreamers dreaming
When two worlds collides
Yet who shall stray
To the other side...
Where sunshine
Shines strange
Familiarity changes
On unknown waves
Yet still we ride...

Avalanche of karma
no where to run
no one can escape
what humanity has done
So…
Tune your channel
raise your vibes
heal our world
with poetic light!

Silence the night
The thunder of war
Explosions on camera
   Bodies and gore...
Displaced people
With nowhere to go
Violence and hate
   At its lowest of lows...
Silence the night
Steady and long
Why do we allow
   This night to go on...



I arranged these words
In a emotional array
To match the hue
Of the color grey
Seasons Greetings
Worlds apart
May the night be silenced
Within your hearts
...

My ego tried to impress me
But the fact is, I’m losing ground
When I wrestled with my Demons
God is nowhere to be found

My RNA is failing
In a  blemished tarnished blur
My eyes are getting tired and
I’m searching for my words

My dreams are but exhausted
I’ve lived and lied and loved
I took the devil by his horns
I never did give up!

What sound did I make
What word did I leave out
If I’ve said my all
Where is my curtain call

Now
My dressing room is bear
The end was somewhere in there.