Pay no homage
To the old me
And let him lay buried
Reborn ever so slowly
With a slight of hand
Removing the guilt
Taking of my full metal jacket
Hope for a better day
Including me
One minute at a time
Evaporating
Hemorrhaging thoughts
Future tripping
Use to be my muse
Kiss of death
Eye for an eye
Hour glass used
To be half empty
Now it’s fuller then ever
Shades of grey
Replaced with pearly white sands
Rainbows of epic lights
Dancing all around
Kaleidoscope one track mind  
Have in finally escaped the enemy
Ecosystem needed
A reboot
My thoughts no longer
Paralyze me in my tracks
Like they used too
My happier visions
And striving spirt
Need more room to breathe freely
As I roam this life
Ever searching
With the weight of the past
Falling off of my shoulders
Piece by piece
As he shields me from my inner demons
My higher power
I’m nothing without you
All the praise and glory are yours alone

Look at me I'm beautiful
Just don't look at my face
Or my body or personality
Or any of my mistakes

Just Look at me I'm beautiful
But don't look at anything I've done
Anything I despise and hate
Just to earn your love

look LOOK I'm beautiful
Just look at anything which I've dealt
But it's hard to say I'm beautiful
When I can't love myself

I don't write when iam happy
Joy makes me dance,not think
It fills my hands with flowers
Not pens.

But sadness?
She sits me down,
Open my chest,
And spills the ink.

Language states
music suggests
between the two
the latter has greater depth

Soft butterfly wings
Caught upon a spider's web -
Entangled the heart