Watching friends crumble to tears,
I see a reality built from my worst fears.

Hearts no longer whole,
As if missing a part of the soul.
I see tears run down the side of a face,
Over shoulder, now wrapped in another's embrace.

I see the broken hearted,
I see the scars left from those departed.


I've yet to experience such strain,
As I have never felt this precursor to pain.

It lives in its entirety
Throughout eternity.
In a multiverse of possibilities,
It remains steadfast in its certainty.

Never faltering
Never fading.
Come the storm when it's lightning and raining,
Let the world beat down with not a thing refraining.

It holds steady,
It holds fast,
As one does with things meant to last.

And even when death does us part,
Forever and always
You'll have my heart.

I have a fear
That I'm not good enough for anyone.
It terrifies me.
The thought that I might always be the guy who helps his friends find love,
But can't find it for himself.

I have a fear
That I'm not right for anyone.
That despite all the love stories I've seen
And all the songs I've sung as prayer,
I'll still be the one without someone in their arms.

I have a fear of loneliness.
I have a fear that I'm all I have in this.
I have a fear that the world will continue to pass me by...
And all I can do is watch from the sidelines.

Tease me with a thought
And run at the edge of my sight.
And without fail,
I'll chase shadows into the night.

We became friends like just like that.
Clicked at first meeting
Now I wait outside classes for your sweet morning greetings.

I wanted more from that first day,
So opened my heart,
But I always give too much away.

I tell you stories I should be embarrassed about,
You giggle so playfully.
I do stupid things
To make you smile.
There's noone whose company I'd enjoy more than yours.

I'd rather talk to you all night than see a movie,
I'd like to see you smile, laugh, giggle.
I'd like to tell you everything,
Even the things I shouldn't.

I try to become a choice
But am never chosen.
I try to get close...
But maybe that's the problem.

Crack and crumble,
Shatter to shards,
One by one they tumble to darkness.

Falling apart at the seams,
I see the collapsing of envisioned dreams.
I watch memory turn to myth,
And desire to a wish.

We dare the world to challenge,
And the world responds in kind.
Plans made fade to rumour,
The world laughs with its dark sense of humour.

Try as I may,
Fate will go its way.
And among this road I’ll stumble,
Till fate is mine to play.

I'd like to be found.

Lost.

A concept I have befriended.
The lack of knowledge of oneself
Brings forth thoughts to-wit none but I are privy.

I wish I understood these thoughts.