I'm alone
I've lost everything I had
I've lost my voice
I've lost my fight
I've lost you
                  The gun shots that roared
The blood covering my pride
The scars that are ripped open
You did this to me

Outcast, freak, waist,

           Day after day you say it's me but,
You are the one who broke me
Who stole the last string of hope from me
So here I am sitting all alone

Looking at my phone memories of better days
But where they really better
Or was it just because we were together
But now these pieces are broken forever

And I never want them back together
I'm taking back my life
My life, will, fight,
And now I see a new light

              weak, insecure, broken, scared

They say poison corrupts you
Look at what you have done to me
You've taken every part of me and changed it
Saying I would never make it  

              I'm taking my bags and leaving
I'm taking my hope with me
               So if being alone lets me be me
So be it.

They told me I would never make it to the light...  
That the shadows would drag me into night ,
My storms would create too much death-
Demons would eat at me alive,
I have to say...


They were almost right  
The storm became my weapon
My shadows became my army
There is  no light  for
I am the queen of night

May the light fear my might
May my storms  shake the shores,
May the demons hear my roar.
I don't need their light
For I am the Queen of Night .

As I lay
My eyes weigh themselves shut,
heart is racing
My pulse not pacing
My blood oozing on the ground
The whispers in the dark
Weak, scared, pittifull,
I slowly stand
My eyes slowly open
My heart beats like a lion
My pulse strengthens
My blood grows from its wounds of freedom
Unwanted, ugly, unlovable
The fire breaks my eyes
A once dying fire
Consumes my soul
The lion inside of me shows
I don't care what they say anymore

I'll show them,
I'll show them all who I am
They can't touch me anymore
My eyes are open
Wounds are healing
My sword is sharpened

It's times they see,
WHO I AM.

When the ashes fall
And all is thought lost
the ammo runs low,
white flags are almost raised
When your legs give out
your dreams almost fade
Remember,..
The pain
Blood
The rivers of sorrow
Flooded from the oceans of regret
The anger inside your caged heart
Roaring clawing its way
It's not fear not misery
Nor sorrow or regret,
No…
This is you
The bravery breaking fear
Faith over anxiety
One day you will see
Those who doubt you are afraid of you
One day,
You will see the world through your eyes
Not there's
Just wait.

Two wounded soldiers
Guns pointed one another
Aiming down broken sights
Twisted broken from each fight

Faces scared fears cover the eyes
Triggers waver love and hate
Bullets fired but out of pride or hate?

They entered this war  
An army built of love and faith
attacked by hate and fear

Now just aiming down the broken sights
Memories of better days flash
Blood flows the wounds grow,
Tears break the soldiers eyes
The last bullets are fired at one another..

They were once lovers,
Now they are enemies
On the battlefield of love and hate
As they fall the hearts shatter
Once smiling believing in fate
Now bleeding thinking it was all fake.

My words are sharpened
My will is made of stone
I'm ready for the war now
Get set here we go
The fears that once broke me
Are now steps I've climbed
The tears that once controlled me
Won't keep me up at night
I've sharpened my swords
I'm ready to fight
So you say I'm worthless
I've been told that all my life
I'm done with running away
So get ready for a fight
The creatures of the night
Are now standing by my side
So get ready here we go now
I'm gonna fight with all my might
They say that heroes fade
But legends never die
You may break my bones
But I'll get up and fight
You can't break the will
Of a legend who never dies
So get ready here we go now
Get ready for the fight
You beat me once before
But now Is my time to show
I'm taking my own destiny
I'm making my own life
So don't try and stop me
Cause you won win the fight.

An angel with a twisted mask...
Who cut me down and told me I would never last
Who cut my wings so I couldn't fly
And told me I would die,
‘Cause i was never meant to fly
I ran from the shadows cast but...

I fell
And crashed
I  was snatched,
Into the shadows depts
They crawled and scratched
I feared their might...


I was a scared angel in the shadows
Torn by the light  
I saw the shadowed faces
scared and torn,  
Mangled by the lies of yesterday
For the shadows wore no masks,
The only real monster was the angel,
The angel with the twisted mask

The day I saw your eyes
Was the day I almost died
My slow icy heart
Was melted by your eyes

We wrote our story's on our hearts
But we ran out of room
They say reach for the stars
That's what we do

So when your lost
When your faith fades
I'll write to you
A message in the stars

I'll paint the sky black
Just for you to see
The light from me
I'll write in the stars

A message from me to you
To help you get through
The pain you knew
All to well

So when your lost look to the sky
I'll paint it black just to see your eyes
So look for my message in the sky
I'll rewrite the stars all for you

So when we are lost in a storm
When we are losing the war….
I'll rewrite the stars for you
I'll storm the castle
  take the bullets
Run into the flames
All for you

You know that it's all true cause
The day I saw your eyes
Was the day I almost died
You made me learn I wasn't alone anymore

So I'll paint the sky black
Just for you to see
A light from me to you
Cause I know what we are is true

So we wrote our story on our hearts
We wrote the pain and happiness
But
Because it was you
I ran out of room
I can't say I love you
Cause the words don't make it true

So I'll paint the sky black
Just for you
If I could take all your pain I would
So I hope tonight you see this
Message in the stars
The tales of our hearts
Once written in our scars
Now painted in the stars

Once as pure as white,
As peaceful as snow
As bright as the sun,
We were all white roses
Then none...

Years go by our colour stains
Turning pink from all the pain,
Not that old but so much fear
Petals stained...
Once a beautiful white now stained
Broken by the night..

Wars of hearts break us,
Torn between love and hate
Blood runs making us brave
The crimson color stays
A blood red armour
Once as pure as snow
Now as dark as blood
Our fear becomes our power
May all fear...
The roses we will become

Rivers flowing from our eyes
Every piece of our love dies
And you don't even try
The days of lies from you
The pain you put me through
And the love I once knew
Yeah right
You were lying and cheating
Breaking and beating
Every piece of me
The hope that I stored away
You just took and threw away
Just like all the things you used to say
So get out and pack your bags
Cause I won't be locked away
Your no longer here to stay
No matter what you say
Your to busy lying and cheating
Breaking and beating every piece of me
You wear this mask into
My castle of glass
They say you have a heart of gold
but that sayings to old
So take your stuff out of my heart
your not here to stay
I don't care what you say
You never loved me anyway
So get out of my way
I don't need you here anyway

The scratching the screaming of the howls of  night,
                                        
The blasts of canons for everyone fears the might
Cries of the fallen one by one
all fall to the arms of the dark one,
The rivers that have fallen to ash and blood
The tears that stain the faces once loved..

For them stone is etched with names of none,
Who all carried a weapon but not a gun
For these fallen under the names of none,
Where not soldiers but yet
They still fell to one's gun..

Why am I like this
Left bleeding on the floor
Does anyone care anymore
Left fighting in this war
I'm not sure I can make it anymore
The fear consuming
Darkness looming
Why am I always losing
I'm not sure I can keep on fighting
I can't keep the flames from lighting
I'm alone again I'm bleeding on the floor
Am I even worth it?
I'm not anything amazing
My world is just caving
Ropes breaking
Am I even Living?
People keep leaving
Taking pieces of me
And throwing them out
Am I even breathing?
I've been left bleeding
After all of the beating
My hope is breaking
Is anyone out there
Can anyone hear me
If you can don't leave me in the dark
Its starting to leave a mark

I know I've said it before
But on a different accord
You say I'm perfect for you
But that's not really me
I'm not that perfect girl of beauty and grace
I hit the slightest bump and fall on my face
I'm not that perfect girl you see in the mirror
I know you're looking for her but she's not here
She's lost in the storm
She broke her wings
when she tried to fly
To you
You say that I'm perfect but
I'm broken and damaged and hurt
You say it makes me who I am
I'm not the girl you see in the mirror
I wake up at night trembling with fear
That one day you'll see I'm not her
4 years later you still say I'm her
You've been my best friend all my life
And I hope that never ends
You say one day I'll see
There never was a her just you
And that I'm perfect for you
Even when you're feeling blue
Your always here for me
I'd never change a thing
Because I'm in love with you

I'm standing here
Looking in the mirror
Running my bleeding hands over the glass
Feeling every slice and every ****
And looking back at me
If the little girl I used to be
She says what have you done to me
You have killed and buried me
I see in her eyes who I used to be
When I was the captain of that cheer team
Being that beautiful girl I was never meant to be
But behind her I see the demon
That came over me
That ripped me to shreds and
Pulled me into the rivers of blood and dread
The scars that cover me from the fights
The demons have broken my wings
And thrown me to the depths
But they forgot I have claws
So I'm climbing from the depths
I'm fighting for her
The girl thrown to the curb
I sing for her
I fight for her
I bleed for her
So I take one last look into the mirror
And destroy it that girl was fought her war
Now I will fight mine

I'm walking alone
Thinking of you
And all the things we used to do
Missing you

All those late nights
Late nights crying
The blood that stained that hoodie
The tears mixed with one another's

Best friends I wished it never end
But fear ran its course
I guess I bet on the wrong horse
But instead of money I lost you

I lost you as quick as a gunshot
Who would have thought
After all those late nights
Blue met gold for the last time

If I could change one thing
I would have never gone that day
I still have that hoodie you wore
The one all torn

Covered in your blood
But drowned in our tears
We were just walking alone
Doing all the things we used to do

And now I'm just here missing you
Thinking of all the things we used to do
Sitting alone in this dark room
Wearing the hoodie you wore

Nobody knows me anymore
So when I walk in the dark corridor
I won't see you anymore
I wish we never ran this coarse

They say one died that day
After the world was black and blue
Truth is I followed you
Just like I always do

You were taken by a bullet
I was killed by the lies
That you would be there
And now I'm sitting alone

In this dark room
Screaming out for help
In my mind we are still sitting there
We never knew what would happen there

Skipping stones
All alone
Imagining when blue met gold for the first time,
And when tears stained the last time

Oh that late day in autumn
Walking together without a problem in the world
It was the last day that sea blue
Met the autumn gold

They say that life is a ocean
That time goes out with the sea
And that eventually all the
problems will wash over

And we will be safe
As we are pulled beneath the sea
Away from the world just you and me

We watch the waves day by day
As I wait beneath the sea
The pain of not being free
And the ocean between you and me

And we will be safe
As we are pulled beneath the sea
Away from the world just you and me

Watching the waves passing us by until we die
We will be safe in the sea just you and me
The waves crashing over head
Washing away the mistakes that we made
in the sand of Yesterday

And we will be safe
As we are pulled beneath the sea
Away from the world just you and me

So it's just you and me
Beneath the sea
Collecting memories like seashells on the shore
I never Wanna forget how it was just you and me lost in a perfect misery

And we will be safe
As we are pulled beneath the sea
Away from the world just you and me

They we were afraid
Because we would never touch the shore
They can't contain us anymore
So watch the waves destroy the shore

And we'll be safe
As we walk onto the shore
As we take on the world just you and me

There's always that place
where you lose yourself
But you find yourself there too
For me it took some time

I found it and lost it all over again
Injuries and ****** knees
took that away from me
But here I am standing back up again

So  I'm taking back the crown
Never going down
And finding the little girl
Who spent all those nights playing alone

I'm winning for her
And proving it was all worth it in the end
She was gone for years
But when I play she's right here

And I lost myself for hours and hours
But I found myself there too
After years of losing my way
being scared of the dark

I'm standing here in the dark
But I've never seen so clear
There is no glory without sacrifice
So here is my advice

When you find where your mind is free
And your team is truly there
That's where you find yourself
Under the lights and the screaming crowds

So  I'm taking back the crown
Never going down
And finding the little girl
Who spent all those nights playing alone

I'm winning for her
And proving it was all worth it in the end
She was gone for years
But when I play she's right here

I've got them behind me
I'm taking my shot and running with it
Giving it my all till the final minute
Until my shot makes it till the goal

And when we will the title
I'll see her once again
The little girl who fell in love with the game
The girl who saved my life

So I'll walk raise my crown
Never going down
And finding the little girl
Who spent all those nights playing alone

I'm winning for her
And proving it was all worth it in the end
She was gone for years
But when I play she's right here

Walking down this aly way
Eyes dazed from the days  
Your blood is dripping from my words
I'm thinking back to all the hurt
You stabbed me now I got you
You tried to break me
And i've broken you
You thought you could take my spirit away
You can't control me anyway
I finally did it i defeated you  
Blood paints the wall
It tells stories it tells them all
The tears of the traitors worry
As they run into the cowards gun
This is something called a hit and run
I've written songs, poems and all of em
And all paint the picture
A letter written in blood
Telling them stories of who I was
But here you where
pushing me down With every shove
But I ain't a has-been
I put the sass in assassin
So I'm taking back the throne
I'm doing it on my own
So here I am standing in black
Humming lyrics from way back
The king has falling to one's dread
Maybe next time you'll make sure I'm dead