Sewing patches of hearts back together,
I'm a fixer boy, but I don't fix your roof,
Line up outside my garage,
Tell me what's the problem,
I'll be there for you.

But now, time has run out,
I've bought all I could,
And killed all I can,
Though the sunlight is seeping,
I know that it will go down.

I've come down from heaven,
To set your souls on fire,
My unfulfilled desire,
To watch you burn away.

I'm the king of you,
Bow down at my knees,
I like to hear your pleas,
It fuels my pent-up rage.

In the off-red lighting,
I am here ruling for pay,
Nobody can take my today,
Don't mess with me.

When soldiers come marching,
Will you all scream and run?
Or will you sit and just be done?
I'm not nice but neither are you.

I'm the king of you,
Bow down at my knees,
I like to hear your pleas,
It fuels my pent-up rage.

Walking- away in the rain,
I'm thinking- that it's so late,
The clock's struck one- I'm falling down,
Under the streetlights- stars that I can barely see.
I don't like- the town lights anymore,
When I'm trapped- in my head,
I can't see- stars as clearly,
So get those lights off- I can send more unanswered prayers,
Despite my disbelief.

Ease my breath,
Release my neck,
I need to run to the forest,
Let me see the stars again.

A hollow wooden ukulele,
Begins to play for me,
In the dead of the night when I cannot hear it.

Please don't go,
No please don't go.

My stretched black binder,
Holds me together every day,
I don't know how I'd live without it.

I need you here beside me,
Break the spell of living the same day over and over.

The broken but useful headphones on the floor,
Tell their stories of when they remembered their home,
Upon my head and playing what I need to hear.

The sun will dip inside my head,
And winter will come.

Along with the plethora of torn notebooks,
Scattered across my floor,
From all the inspiration I had gathered from day one.

Jump back to square one within a month.

we're all afraid,
So afraid,
Of blank pages,
and empty promises.

Take me home,
Take me home now.

we're all afraid,
So afraid,
Of burning trees,
and what we see.

I need to go home,
Please let me go home.

we're all afraid,
So afraid,
Of sudden changes,
and futures mangled.

My hair's matted and my hands burnt,
I just need to go home right now.

we're all afraid,
So afraid,
Denying is proof,
and I won't take it back.

Take me home.
Take me home.
Take me home.

do you know,
what it's like,
to hate yourself,
but not just your face,
your entire body.
you look at your skin and it's much too pale,
you look at your chest and it makes your eyes bleed,
you'd gladly rip those out, pain and all,
I've considered it before,
to **** myself up so that they can be gone.

when your face doesn't match,
the way you wish,
then your voice interrupts your speech,
and you hate it so much,
you hate it so much.

you hate it so much.

you hate it so much.
you'd gladly go mute,
to make sure no one knows what you sound like.
if I'm lucky I might get them all gone
but I don't know how one can stay sane with all these flaws.

My chest hurts,
it hurts so much.
my body hurts,
it hurts so much.
My chest hurts,
it hurts so much.
my body hurts,
it hurts so much.
because of these,
alien things on top of me,
get rid of them for me,
won't you please?

dysphoria
days nights and years
dysphoria
days nights and years
days nights and years

Violent words sink into my skin,
I forgot the last time I could feel,
Another day spent in a pool,
Falsified smiles rub the thorns in.

I don't believe in anything but you,
Only you.

Naming my vacant cabs one by one,
A siren or time long gone,
Viruses inside all good memories,
Did you put the flowers on my grave.

I don't believe in anything but you,
Only you.

Dream-catching through loss of control,
Purge inevitable death from the brain,
Relate to the stars and hope you won't be forgotten,
Memories arise and fade.

I don't believe in anything but you,
Only you.

Whispering motorbikes crash into mazes,
Alcohol burns to keep the dreams dead,
Rubbing salt on the wound and keep away the shame,
What is this game, I don't want to play this anymore.

I don't believe in anything but you,
Only you.

Tearing guns into black ashes,
Burned down my own home again,
I am nothing but your saint, now please,
Bring me stones covered in blood.

I don't believe,
No, not in anything but you,
Only you.

Pouring buckets of acid liquid from the golden sky,
Contrasting colors fade my killjoy heart,
No need for sympathy or wicker seas,
Veering through black rain in a stolen frame,
The voice in my head tells me I'm no longer alive,
Terrifying, melding, my world's colliding with suicide.

Long lost son, waiting for the golden sky to part it's acid liquid.

Killjoy heart found in a ditch, under the rainbow stars,
Throwing sympathy into dried up seas,
Crashed my frame and I'm collecting raindrops,
I know for sure that I'm no longer alive, stop lying,
Already pulled the trigger but I wish I wasn't speaking figuratively.

Long lost son, waiting for the golden sky to part it's acid liquid,
Long lost son, waiting for the golden sky to speak it's tears,
Long lost son, waiting for the golden sky to leave me alone.

Leaning over kitchen sinks,
Bubbles up my arm turn pink,
I'm pretty sure I'm dreaming,
Thankfully so,
I don't ever want to leave this dream world.
The only realm where my dreams come true,
I'm so sick and tired of waking up with nothing,
The feeling in the pit of me is why I'd like to die.

Don't take my words lightly,
I'm a stupid, teenage dreamer,
I sent myself into the stars but reality is catching up,
I'm not enough and never strong,
So believe me when I say,
Go home.
Go home.

Stumbling over the bulging pavement,
Roots burst through and grab my legs,
I know now that I am dreaming,
Don't stop dreaming please.
Cause when I leave this world,
My demons come after me,
They tell me that I will never make it,
When I'm 18 I know I'm not living anymore.
I'm not ready to build my home yet.

Don't take my words lightly,
I'm a stupid, teenage dreamer,
I sent myself into the stars but reality is catching up,
I'm not enough and never strong,
So believe me when I say,
Go home,
Go home.

Did you forget that nights like this bring creatures into our hearts,
They sink into our skin and bleed through our frames,
Giving us nothing to live for.

Rainfall in hometown,
Brings about ghouls I could never describe,
The homes turn into beasts that roam every single night.

I'm getting estranged by this feeling in my brain,
Or is it inside my stomach?
I don't really know and I don't think it matters,
The floating orbs across my eyes,
Begin to take form and bleed across my vision,
Could the world be coming to an end?
It feels too real to be true.

Divided between heard and brain,
I will try to fly away,
But until my dying days I'll be afraid.

I suddenly remember why,
I hated my own life,
Why do I have to go through this strife,
It feels like I'm being stabbed with a knife,
If this is what makes me a better person then I don't want it.

"Ma'am"
"She's-"
"Her-"
******* all,
Think right, say something,
Correct their words,
But I cannot without feeling the fear,
It wells up inside my chest,
Like a scream waiting to happen.

If I have to go through this everyday again,
I have a feeling Wool Kid just might be revived,
And nobody wants him back.

"Ma'am"
"She's-"
"Her-"
******* my name,
And burn my face,
Take out my chest,
and lay me in a grave.

Respect me won't you?
It's not that hard,
I don't want to be mad

second hand smoke
breathed into my lungs
changed me up so much
dried up all my blood
sunk my own eyes in
tunnel vision's begun
i've got to get you away

her eyes like chocolate pools
cornered me
and like a car crash i couldn't look away
the left over cigarette butts she threw at me
i caught them all and swallowed their poison
don't know how i got here but
im loving the pain
"keep up with me" she said through a long brick wall

second hand smoke
im coughing up gunk
the changing in me im beginning to hate
found all my blood inside her home
and my eyes are never coming back the same
ive got to get you away from me
get away from me

How many times do I have to die,
To feel like I fit inside my skin?
The times tend to fly on by,
Over years and years,
Along with symphonies of unfamiliar faces,
They pass by my ink-stained hands.

Forgive me if I don't remember you,
It's been so long and those years that I met you,
My eyes where blinded by the rage and fear,
Something everyone knows of once in their life.

I had fallen further than ever before,
No amount of hope could've brought me home,
Do you see the burn marks,
On my red-singed clothes?

A new perspective and I love it here,
People remember me somehow and I need to say hello,
The road doesn't seem as cracked as before,
Ripped up the dead body and said goodbye to toxic memories,
You inspire me to keep on living.

Forgive me if I don't remember you,
It's been so long and those years that I met you,
My eyes where blinded by the rage and fear,
Something everyone knows of once in their life.

Call my name in the murky water,
Hold still and let me go,
Tonight, the tide is rising,
I'm beginning to fear the changing,
Although, I know, everything will be alright,
Follow me inside so that I don't have to be alone,
I'm submerged and drowning,
Whisper secrets in my ear,
Listen to me tell my stories.

The house is under the water?
What do I do now?
Mama, help me, oh please,
Get rid of all these catastrophes.

I'm running and gasping for breath,
Asthma embedded in my lungs,
Dead ends and cobwebs line these soaked halls,
Well, if nothing really matters than why am I still beside you?
Despite, the pressure on my chest,
And the waves, they somehow reach me from miles under the surface.

The house is under the water?
What do I do now?
Mama, help me, oh please,
Get rid of all these catastrophes.

Pushing for more, I don't want to hate my life forevermore,
Give me an arm or a heart to hold onto, my dearest.

Trying to hard,
Looking to the future,
Never gonna make it but I hope yet,
I can hope,
Filling my dreams up to the seams,
Can you believe I'm still alive?
I'm just wondering tonight,
If you're alright.
Glancing out of the window,
Your eyes glazed over,
Speaking of bones and death thrones,
Please don't ever leave me without warning,
Always afraid you're gone every morning.

Translucent,
Transparent,
Trespassing,
Tiers of Tyranny,
Ticking Time,
Trying Tomorrow,
Testing Tabletops,
Traitor Turns Trains,
Tick Tock . . .

sinking not breathing,

infantile screaming,

human beings,

stop the yelling,

there's no need to keep breathing,

yet here we are and screaming,

without breathing we defeat the odds.

u n w i n d  
      s p i l l
c r y i n g
     d r e n c h
n o  b e l i e f
     c o l d
f l o w
     s t a l e
F L Y  A W A Y
    S T R I K E  M E  D O W N
I M  N O T  W O R T H  I T

A little touch of your voice,
A little shiver running down my spine,
A little clock stops the time,
I turn towards your kingdom,
And where it may be, may not be there at all,
Sometimes I feel like I need it there,
So I pretend that I love you and that I need you,
I don't understand why God died,
But I see your face in the many pictures of my childhood.

I'm the only one in my room,
Laying on my bed, alone,
Colder as the night creeps along,
Could I ask the Spirit to save me again?
I need their touch now, right now.

Looking through my old toys,
Finding them to be ripped and grayed,
I've lost my mind through illnesses that I can't control,
The memories attached make me shiver,
I can't remember the last time I ate a meal happily,
Maybe I can find God inside the stuffing of my old teddy bear,
If his heart beats inside than maybe I'll believe,
But I don't see God in all the newest pictures of myself.

I'm the only one in my room,
Laying on my bed, alone,
Colder as the night creeps along,
Could I ask the Spirit to save me again?
I need their touch now, right now.

F a l l i n g —

I n  a n d  o u t —

O n e  d a y —

L o v e  s e e m s  s o  f a r—

A n o t h e r  d a y—

A l l  I  n e e d  i s  y o u—

Hold my hand,
On this autumn evening,
Walk with me,
Far away from this place,
With your eyes I see,
Everything that I need.

You give me all these things,
And you buy me all these gifts,
But I don’t need them because all I’ve ever wanted is you.

Swing my hand,
Talk to me about your day I don’t mind,
Kiss me on the cheek,
And don’t let me walk too fast,
I don’t want to lose you,
Don’t doubt my love for you.

You give me all these things,
And buy me all these gifts,
But, girl I swear the only thing I need is your hand in mine.

Watch the sun set,
Cuddle up to my chest,
Let’s watch the world end,
Before our own eyes,
Hold my hand,
And let’s watch the world end,
Let’s watch the world end.

. . . . .

s i l e n c e

. . . . .

s t a y  c a l m

. . . . .

f o r g e t  t h e  g u n

. . . . .

i t s  o k a y

. . . . .

d a y s  g r o w  l o n g e r

. . . . .

n i g h t s  g r o w  d a r k e r

. . . . .

t r y  t o  s l e e p

. . . . .

How does the sun shine so bright when your smile shines brighter,
The days are longer again but all for the right reasons,
I don't know how all the things we say end up being the same,
I'm not one to fall in love so soon but I guess I'm just another one of those fools,
How do you understand me so well?

Let's both dream, shall we?
On a couch- in a room with no roof,
Got a view of the stars and there's rockets flying overhead,
That's where we could be, you just gotta believe me.

How does the moon fly so high when you fly higher,
We laugh and keep on walking while the colors keep changing,
Well, I really hope that you're still here,
When I'm alone at night and the shadows grow longer,
And pieces of my skull start falling out,
You're my hope and my dream,
So I'll never leave you alone.

Let's both dream shall we?
On a couch, in a room with no roof,
Got a view of the stars and there's rockets flying overhead,
That's where we could be, you just gotta believe me.

The eyes I need to see are like sapphire stones,
I don't know where they came from,
But they captivated me,
My own soul shivered and put it's hands together in prayer,
Hoping that you'd stay by me for as long as you like,
I don't mind, no, I don't mind at all.

I'll keep you safe inside our burning homes, tonight.

Let's both dream, shall we?
On a couch- in a room with no roof,
Got a view of the stars and there's rockets flying overhead,
That's where we could be, you just gotta believe me.

Hurry up, let's get outside.
The tide's gonna come raining down,
We're gonna become something cooler than any adult could ever see,
Your eyes are so excited and bright,
Mine are ready to fly out to see the world.

They warn us of the tide every day,
But we don't care,
We'll never care.

Stronger and braver than anything that has existed,
Shouting our names from the highest mountain top,
Burrow into the rain and find ourselves a home,
You ready for an adventure? Cause I am.

They've warned us again and again,
But we don't care,
We don't want to.

Overtime, the rain that patters against our feet,
Becomes the storm they warned us of,
Scared and afraid, we continue on,
Your eyes are afraid,
My soul is breaking.

Coursing rivers of water in between tall buildings,
Avoiding their sweeping force with all our might,
And the fact is that we might not be so mighty anymore,
We both hate this world now.

They warned and it came,
It's flooded our homes,
I'm searching for you.
Where did you go?

I just want to make you proud,
I want to see you smile when I be myself,
Not doubt and cry over my mistakes,
I'm sorry about all the things I have done.
You deserve so much more than that,
Call me much too empathetic but, I love you.

Charge me of treason,
Send me over enemy lines,
I'll fight for you,
Until the light dies from my eyes,
Maybe I am just too loyal,
But no matter how much you twist my heart,
I still hold my gun high.

Lines across the corners of your eyes,
Count how many times we've laughed,
And like the silver lining of the clouds,
Your hair grays out but that only proves your times passed,
And I know that you've been through enough.

The war continues to wage and I'm stuck up-front,
It's becoming crowded,
All the dying ones,
I want to help, oh god, I do,
But the way I have to surge forward for you,
You're the only one on my mind,
The one I need to hold onto dearly.

Charge me of treason,
Send me over enemy lines,
I'll fight for you,
Until the light dies from my eyes,
Maybe I am just too loyal,
But no matter how much you twist my heart,
I still hold my gun high.
Just for you.

Fallen from Hell,
Out of the peripherals of my vision,
I saw her smile,
She breaths sadness onto the window,
I heard her laugh.
Watch as she walks herself onto the street,
I felt her hand.
Head wrapped in white roses to pretend.

I felt everything inside of her pour out onto the floor.

Flying somewhere far away,
Purple eyes are on the moon,
Christmas decorations floating away,
I am on a stage,
Drifting and singing my songs,
Guitar in hand as I sing it all out.

All I can hear is the crowd,
All I can see is the white corner,
All I can feel is the guitar in my arms.

Xanax drifts into my gaping jaws,
Am I just a skeleton?
Cause I see the pill again,
Cotton candy clouds,
Look like they were dyed with red,
Ascending through the classroom,
Into the eye-filled moon.

All I can hear is the chatter of teens,
All I can see is the teacher,
All I can feel is the tapping of my foot.

Back again.
I’m back again.

it doesn't make sense,
of all the power in the galaxy,
nothing could compare,
never in fear could you see such a place,
it won't make sense,
but that's the point- isn't it?
culminating hell and heaven into one location.
love it until you hate it.

ill follow you,
i will follow you,
hold out your hand,
ill follow you,
i have never talked to you,
but i will follow you.

Aching from the outside into the inside,
Don't know where most of the wounds came from,
Though I do know that I can't stand the sight of them all.

Every single thing,
Brings back memories,
Memories I don't want to remember.

Call me a teenager,
I'm making a fool out of myself,
If I told you the things I loved,
You wouldn't care,
But if I tell you the things I hate,
I'm so selfish for talking about them.

Every single thing,
Brings back memories,
Memories I don't want to remember.

Scars on my arm,
If it's romantic or edgy,
That's up to you to choose,
I can't wait to get older,
Maybe I'll get taken seriously,
I try my best to look natural,
You still put me down.

Every single thing,
Brings back memories,
Memories I don't want to remember.

I guess, this is who I am,
And I need to remind myself of that,
But you don't like me,
You think you know my head,
You think you know my struggles,
Well I'd like you to leave.

Let's get our get up on,
Smother confidence on our cheap, black kicks,
Nobody cares that we're there,
But yet I can feel every eye on me.

We're all kids,
In a night to forget,
Cause I was in the bathroom the entire time,
Sorry, to all my friends,
I didn't have a date and anxiety ******* hates me.

Girls and boys at the speakers,
Think that they are hot ****,
Singing along to a song I never could forget,
I'm a cliche in itself,
Don't try and change my mind,
Cause everyone hates me, I know.

We're all kids,
In a night to forget,
Cause I was in the bathroom the entire time,
Sorry to all my friends,
I didn't cave a date and anxiety ******* hates me.

Sorry to all my friends,
I should've gone alone,
I should've stayed home.

I really hope that you're alright,
I keep on noticing all these little changes,
The way your smile never makes the corner of your eyes crinkle.

It concerns that you never want to leave the house,
Even your favorite movie makes you want to die inside,
Could we talk for a little while?

I didn't wanna fall asleep last night,
I was afraid that you would be dead once I closed my eyes,
You keep on giving me those sad eyes and I'm only more convinced.

Hey, can we make some pastries?
I know it won't solve your fake smiles,
But I need to show you that I care the most,
Trust me now, won't you?

Everyday I ask you, "What's the matter?"
You respond without a thought,
I never believed you but I didn't want to pry.

Except that every day that I see you walk by,
I know that all you want to do is find the gun your father has,
I don't even want to think what you'll want with it.

Hey, can we make some pastries?
I know it won't solve your fake smiles,
But I need to show you that I care the most,
Trust me now, won't you?

Falling asleep is always hard now,
I remember when I could close my eyes and get transported,
Into a world where life and death mean nothing at all.

Space becomes twisted and ties me up every night now,
Whispering it's wishes into my ear,
I can't see life from death anymore.

Calling for my soul to wake up,
Find the courage to see the horizon ahead,
Where is death and when did life die?

I can't decide whether or not I'm alive or dead,
Sometimes things that get on the brink,
Are always called dead.

Shake me awake and take me home again,
My words keep losing meaning,
Whenever he comes home and keeps me alive.

Harder and longer goes days and weeks,
When will I see the light again?
I'm just wishing to wake the hell up.

I'm no longer able to focus,
Where did he go from my home?
Shaken into death now.

Turning planets and crashing stars,
Back into my vision once again,
I only want death, don't you?

It's time for snow to fall,
Strike me through,
Let me bleed out.

Let's take a walk out onto the roof tops,
Look out over our boring suburban neighborhoods,
Are you satisfied with your life?

"Hey, where are you going tonight?
I'm getting tired of losing all my friends,
Could you stay a little longer?"

Every night that I'm alone on the roof,
I am missing all of you,
Memories are all I have at this point,
Everything feels like it's moving counter-wise.

"Hey, where are you going tonight?
I'm getting tired of losing all my friends,
Could you stay a little longer?"

These ghost stick alongside me for now,
They always talk about how stupid I am,
Never allowed to leave my side,
I need all of my friends back.

Throw me back in time,
Even if it kills me,
I don't like being alone,
Why am I alone?

"Hey, where are you going tonight?
I'm getting tired of losing all my friends,
Could you stay a little longer?"

Let's count all of my friends,
And see how many are left,
It's okay cause I'm not afraid,
I don't mind being alone,
Cause I've convinced myself that I don't need them to keep on going.

If you find me on the floor,
Keep the door open a crack,
I want to see what's happening,
Cause I am proud of them all.

I know that they all tried their best,
I am happy to say that cause,
Every day my heart beats when I know,
That they will grow,
That I know.

If you find me on the floor,
Keep the door open a crack,
I want to see what's happening,
Cause I am proud of them all.

Walls keep closing into my frame,
Temperature skyrockets as I stare until my own eyes burn away,
I can't sleep at night when all my friends are dead or gone,
Eating my own ****** guts on the clothes-ridden floor.
Emotions are all either dead or overpowering.

What makes you think of the stars?
Does it ever keep you up at night?
What is it like to know you'll be alright?
All I ever get from sleep are scars.

Settled into a little room,
Not enough to hold all of my missing friends.
Every day is the same I want out of it now.
I wonder if there will ever be a day when I won't want to burn away.

What makes you doubt yourself?
And does it ever keep you up at night?
Tell me, what is it like to know that everything's alright?
All I ever get from sleep is waking up to the same old shelf.

If they really cared they would text me back,
I only asked for help once and now I'm off the hook,
My only thought is that it's all my fault,
And you wonder why I'm not alright.

Wish I could get sent to space and witness an exploding star,
Nothing feels right anymore with only four corners,
Am I an animal for thinking I should die,
Looking at my hands that almost appear to be bleeding,
Green is all I see from head to toe,
Lights dim and I lay myself to sleep.

Walking in the middle of the road,
Cars drive by silently,
The only sound comes from my nervous breath,
I can feel the spiders crawling under my skin,
They make my flesh itch and yearn for a better body.

There's no streetlights,
Only street fights,
No one loves another one,
When will all of this be done?

The road dips down into a soundless home,
I recognize the old pictures of that girl I never was,
"Why do you doubt me?" I ask the tired woman in front of me,
She won't respond, She knows she knows me better than myself.

There's no streetlights,
Only street fights,
No one loves another one,
When will all of this be done?

Cars begin to swerve and crash alongside me,
I'm running now, don't have a destination in mind,
All I know is that I need to get new flesh,
Things that shouldn't be there, are there.

There's no streetlights,
Only street fights,
No one loves another one,
When will all of this be done?

Open up my eyes and,
Take me to the riverside,
Let's play make believe on the sand,
I'll be a prince and you can be a dragon.

Greater heights without you.
Clinging tighter without you.

I'm tired of you controlling my life and,
I think it'd be better if I killed you,
You're nothing to me,
Not anymore.

Taking chances without you,
Holding onto opportunities,
Without you.

Skipping stones by your side,
I know that you like yo lie,
You could write a Gospel,
On how terrible I am,
Now let me go.

"You're no good."
"They hate you."
"Don't leave me alone."
"You need me."

Growing stronger without you,
Staying alive without you,
Threw away all my razors,
No thanks to you.

i'm unsteady.
not ready.
air is getting heavy.
are you speaking through the telly?

getting wasted on memories.
it's enough to drain my energy.
and steal all my extremities.

i'm so far away.
you're just a replay.
i've seen this scene, okay?

Gun to my head.
keep wishing I was dead.
my vision's just deep red.

bend over backwards.
to see my attackers.
only to find that I am the Hazard?