I have never written a suicide note, but I’m sure a lot of you have been there. I never have planned to **** myself, but I have been in a mindframe that would spiritually **** me. Because we fancy the darkness, and we fantasize about what it’s like. Then, before we know it, if we’re not careful on how we think, we’re depressed. It goes something like that. But now, as I go back to the things I have written before, and I try to critique them or add on, it just doesn’t feel right. I’m in a different, much better place, and you can be too. It’s like that saying, “If you want out of the whole, first you have to put down the shovel.” You’re able to make it out of this depressed, suicidal, anxious mindframe, to a point where you can’t even turn back. But first, you have to lay down the gun. Things truly do get better, once you start to change your mindframe. I don’t like the saying, “Fake it until you make it.” But when you read my poems, I try to incorporate hope, even when I don’t feel it. And eventually, after searching for that hope, I found it. And it turns out it was right in front of me all along.