Is this love
Or is it another passing temporary
Feeling
I don't want to deal with it
I wish I could just get rid of it
It is late
Faked my name
Only to be played by my own game
Called me at 2 in the morning
Was it only because you wanted me
Is this love that I'm feeling
Or just another let down
Broken hearts coming
Is this love
Was it love
Could you love
I would love
You so much
Is this love that I'm feeling
Or is it just another sad song
Crying in the bathtub
Days to come
Felt ashamed
Was to blame
Couldn't gain
Your trust
All the sake
Of being paranoid
Lost your presence

Is this love that I'm feeling
Or just another passing by feeling
I'll never know
I won't ask
Too afraid it may (not) last

Don't call it a comeback
My depressions been here for years
I still smoke myself to sleep
And calm my anxiety with 3 or more beers

It's just goes to show
That I should stay in my lane
I stare at the bottom of an empty bottle
Just to focus on something other than pain

I knew it'd come back
I knew it was too good to be true
Depression isn't a state of mind
It's something that controls you

You would think I'd be used to it
And that it'd get a little easier
But I really didn't see this coming
It must be getting sneakier

I don't care about punctuation
I don't give a **** about my grammar
The only reason I'm doing this
Is to try to feel a little better

It used to work, ya know
To keep my demons at bay
Now it's starting to feel like work
Because I have all these people watching what I say

I guess you can say it's my fault
Since I'm the one that posted them online
Maybe I'm just not meant to have something as simple as a peace of mind.

Boy just take it easy
Boy just take it slow
Please don't give up now
You have so much further to go

Put that gun down boy
Step away from the ledge
All the demons your fighting
Don't have to stay in your head

Let me help you boy
Let me be your light
You and I together boy
We'll give 'em a hell of a fight

This is it boy
It's time for war
With me by your side
It'll be easier than before

We got this boy
We won't back down
We'll take 'em all on
We'll knock 'em to the ground

Boy let's take it easy
Boy let's take it slow
All the demons you fight
Will no longer call you home

I get trapped
By ropes braided with scales
And hiss it whispers
"Love"

Like the venom it bites me with
Makes me hallucinate.

Now I'm with you in a room
I'm not sure if I'm the interrogator
When I ask these questions.
You say it depends on the confidence you carry
I say my confidence vanished with your "no".
You say fine then the interrogation is over.

Fleeting are feelings of euphoria
Come in a fleet of reality.
Fire the pessimism
Oh! We got a hit!
Now he feels uncertainty
Insecurity
Trapped

In a room with you and I enjoy it
Five minutes is all I need to feel euphoria
Come in with a fleet of reality
Fire the pessimism
Oh!  It hurts even more now,

I'm in a room with you and I enjoy it.

Write
Simple,
I tell myself,
Write
Poetic,
I force myself,
Write
Beauty,
I convince myself,
Write
Imagery,
I encourage myself,
Write
with purpose,
I plead myself.

You are the grin across my face
the one I can’t explain
the yearning in my soul
I can’t seem to tame

You are the tear
in the corner of my eye
the ache in my body
the reason I sigh

You are the reason I dance
when the music plays
the reason I could curl up in bed
and stay there for days

You are the reason I reach
for the highest rung
You are the lyrics
after the song has been sung

mirror mirror
on the wall
I forgot I have it all
mirror mirror
tell me
remind me
why this
pain is here

strange feelings
skies glimmering
friends are slowly
leaving

mirror mirror
tell me why no one understands