What is this love I so often feel
How do I know that it's even real
Will it be there when I wake from sleep
Or will it be gone, never mine to keep

I wanted to love you so
But you had other plans
You betrayed my trust and broke my heart
All for another man

I thought you were the one from my dreams
Our humor matched just like ripped seams
But in the end you were scared off
You left me here to scream

I don't know why I thought I loved you
I guess I was just lonely
But when it came right down to it
You really were just phony

I know I didn't love you
Not in the way we needed
But at least we had our fun
Neither of us pleaded

Now you're right back in my life
And I've fallen once again
All you want is someone other
I guess we'll just be friends

Please tell me why I am cursed so
To live this life without another
All I want is you to love
But you always seem to love another

Why am I always in pain?
I leave a stain on the world I'm in
A stain of red so bright and bold
It might just block out this heart of gold

When did I become so broken?
So numb and insecure
I guess when my soul was shattered
By one I thought I could trust the most

How was I supposed to know
You were so cruel and mean
What was I to do
But find someone to be

Someone who thought they couldn't be
At par with all the rest
Someone whose life meant nothing more
Than one simple passed test

Someone who could love the broken
The bruised and insecure
But one who could not be loved
By those he holds so dear

So take this gift I give
A thought in a small story
I feel that's more than you deserve
For making me so gory

And for my battered broken heart
Still pumping flakes of gold
Remember all the good in people
Don't stop until you're old

So old you can not even talk
So old you can not think
And even then please don't forget
This worlds' pure heart of gold