I wonder if you think about me, how many times your beautiful mind brushes the idea of mine.
I think about The Times we spent laughing over things no one else would understand, talking to each other about things no one else got.
I wonder where your mind goes when you're drifting off to sleep, do you think of what we could have been or what we could still be. I want you more than ever now, I can hardly sleep. But I know that I can never have you.
Hot tears and empty loneliness.
Sharp razor kissing soft flesh.
Whiskey breath. Seeing in threes.
Warm bed and soft caresses.
Gentle kisses. Soft love.
What does 2 AM look like?
Did you know that I love you
I wanted to make sure you knew
I really wanted to show you
How much I care for you
I let you back into my life
I let you see my core
I let you see the game I play
I even let you score
But the game you play isn't mine
You aren't the kind of person
To show yourself to me
At least not the me I want you to see
I'm not that man I pretended to be
Without the painful chest
But I wasn't able to keep it up
I was never good at chess
Why did I let you in again
Why did I think you could be better
Why, oh why did I ever believe
That you were full of anything but pain
Pain that I drowned myself in
When I ripped you open
And now my chest is full to bursting
With emptiness and yearning
But I can't ever have you
A fact that we both know
And now the curtains have come down
On our worst and final show
Forever to be a herald of you
Of what you do to good men
You break them down and eat them
Never to be seen again
But when the sun rises on the new day
And when it shines upon me
I'll show the world what I've become
I'll be the one that got away
This one ended up being kind of long and strayed off the path, but I still like it
It feels like you're crushing my chest
It feels like a knife in my back
It feels like a long sprint after a long lonely winter
It feels like I haven't breathed since we met
I know you so well, and you know me too
I know that you know how much I want you
I know that you'll never truly understand
How much I have hurt; How much I can stand
Why won't the you in my head let me be
I wanted to share my heart with you
I wanted you to see
See the depth of my love and affection
All I wanted was that simple connection
The collection of feelings that I've never felt
To be loved by another despite yourself
All I wanted was to see
If I could truly make you happy
I'm sorry I couldn't.
There is a fog that lies on this land
A fog so dense I cannot think
All I want is for it to fade
All I want is peace
But it will never go for long
An hour or day or maybe more
But in the end it always returns
Will it ever be no more?
I tried to fight the fog with fire and flame
I tried to fight with love
I tried to fight with substances
But the fog still lays its claim
Maybe someday I'll find a way
To banish the fog upon this land
But until then I'll slave away
Until I meet my end
This poem is about my fight with depression, and the ways I've tried to handle it.
You talk about Him every day
He makes the light shine in your eyes
He makes you want to love
He makes you want to cry
I know He has some things I never could
He understands in a way I can't
Makes you believe in love
All of that I wish I could do
When you talk about Him your lips curve softly up
Your face shines like I've never seen
He has something I do not
I wish I was all you needed
When I think about that day
That day you told a story
About a clumsy girl
And her brush with closeness
When I heard about that day
All I wanted was to scream
I pictured it in my head
It's now become a constant stream
I wish i could just cut it out
The thought of you and him
I wish I never awoke
On the day I first laid eyes on you
But to me has this curse been bestowed
To want you evermore
I don't know what I'd be without you
I wish I could close the door
A lot of my peoms are about one person in my life. She means the world to me, but I nothing to her.
I've been trying to erase you from my mind,
But I'm scared now that I almost accomplish my goal.
I miss seeing your face and hearing your voice.