The color of the rainbow makes no sense.
I say this like I'm color blind.
parents are weird ya know?
clinging to their baby to the very end?
but what if they were never there?
like what if it was all a lie just to make you feel better?
I can't really talk about it much but through this poem I say:

No one ever loves you till your vulnerable.
They don't love till your on your knees begging for their love.
I've never felt loved by my parents.
mom hates me cause I want to "leave" her.
dad hates me cause I exist.
I don't know what to do with my life atm.
But I do know one thing.

I will always love your smile.
Your laugh.
Your wittiness
Our heartfelt moments.
Our desire to be who we are together or alone.
the connection we have
even when you think we don't

I love you mom and dad.
I just wish you did the same.

It's cold out.
I'm clinging to my wit while the cold air hits my body.
my skin feels dry, cold and frosted.
My head is filled with tired thoughts.
My heart is beating slower and slower.
My bones feel fragile.
It all doesn't feel right.
is it just me? or just the snow?

heaven on earth.
a strange phrase for such a dreadful place.
i always ask myself, "what makes earth so.. peaceful?"
I have yet to get answer.
sitting here, hearing the rain drip down buildings and houses.
Maybe I can count to a thousand reasons why.
maybe I'm just delusional.
heaven.
that word.
makes very many people happy.
but why not me?
am i afraid?
or am i just dull.
earth.
a planet we humans call home.
but are we really home?
questions like these keep me up at night.
heaven on earth.
why is it so cold?

Today's sunlight will forever be my eternal darkness

Hey it’s been a while…
“Read”
I know you hate me because you don’t love me anymore…
“Read”
But because of you the earth shines like a star.
“Read”
Areas in my life have changed ya know?
“Read”
Am I not enough..?
“Read”
Am I not the one you loved?
“Read”
I guess it was all just like breaking pencil lead…
“Read”
Okay.. I love you.
“Read”

I feel like ****
I
don't
know
why
Just can't get you out of my mind
stuck
inside
can't seem to replace the y
in
you
your
you're
you
you
you.
Just
You.