I stamped your name
With a hallmark of gold
On my heart
Fully protected by
A silver fence which
My chest was its
Bricklayer


©pygswhisper

The sky is crying
My eyes are raining
My heart is hurting
This love I used to live for is fading
Those lips I used to melt for are vanishing
But like a fool I’m still waiting for your phantom
You whispered your adios hopelessly
So why I’m expecting your return hopefully
You took your heart and mine
Leaving our love in pieces
Forgetting that we wrote
The beginning of our romance happily
Now you closed the last chapter
With tears of my stupid ending silently

You say you love me
More than I do
You talk about us
Like I'm the princess
And you're my hero
You disappear a century
Then you appear once
Like a full moon
Oh man
Thank you for your hateful feeling
That you call love
Thank you for this frustration
That you call pleasure
I’m really thankful for
All those forgotten years
That you call eagerness
And because I’m so fulfilled
I beg you to release me
I’m begging you to stop loving me
In the name of my lost life with you
I plead you to leave me
If you really loved me

Here another season has gone
And winter is back to this town
I’ve always been afraid of thunder and sparkle
‘Cause its rumbling reminds me that I'm a loner
You say you’re here to watch over me
That you‘ll never forsake me
And if I fall you’d be there to catch me
But it’s scaring me
Your warmth is shattering me
Why do you have to be that kind to me?
Why do you have to live only for me?
Why you never get furious and always forgive me?
I know that you know I ain’t faithful
I know that you know my heart is playful
I know that you know my love was never truthful
Your eyes smile when they embrace my face
And my mind is thinking about all those pieces of crap
I’ve been tossing behind your back
But you’re always here to chuck me under the chin
Are you aware? Are you an angel or maybe a saint?
All these times I’ve been lying to you saying I'm heading to my household
While I was sleeping with another boo
All these wakeful nights you spent wide awake waiting for me to come home
While I was splashing out and clubbing with the bad crew
All those moments you were proudly calling me lover
But to my world you were my brother
All those kisses and touches you were longing for with me
While I was sharing them all along that narrow alley
All those late night texts and calls, the smell of cigs on my clothes
You knew them all but you never told a soul
Sometimes I question myself,
Is this your way to strike back?
Are you torturing your core because you don’t want to lose?
Do you know that everything you do is leaving me ashamed?
Do you know how much I’m hating myself?
Today, under this cloudy sky
I'm confessing all my fallacies
I’ll break out my iniquitous mysteries
Yes, I'm the worst girl ever existed
And because you aren’t me not like the others
I won’t let you abuse your purity with a player
I could be anything but a human
It’d sound cheesy if I avow my love to you
It won’t change the fact that I'm a ****
Witch like me, cannot overstep love’s zone
So baby please don’t believe these stupid songs
Love can’t change people if they don’t want
Yes, I'm a cheater that’s why I'm leaving you now
‘Cause you deserve to live better and I deserve to cry and suffer
You deserve to be loved harder and I deserve to be alone forever

How many times you looked at yourself in the mirror
But the face you were seeing there didn’t look like yours
How many times you tried to play the role of a survivor
But all you did was swim in a sea of wounds
Just tell me how many times you wanted to be the killer
But you were always the one who got killed in life’s show
I know you are hurting
So can you stop lying?
I see you crying
Please can you stop hiding?
You don’t have to smile when your depth is bleeding
**** the mouth who told you keep on pretending
Let your tears wash up the hate in your eyes
Let it rain on your face till it freezes up the pain of your heart
Wanna hear you scream like you're livid, and shout out loud
Wanna see you destroy your sadness then break it down
Tonight everything is blank but I want you to paint it black
I want you to release all your anger and throw it away
Tonight is the day you’ll see how stupid you are
Trying to wear an ugly mask and acting like you are supa dupa okay
Tonight you will realize that your pain is weaker than you
That happiness was avoiding you because it’s sick of the drama you do
Let me see you living your depression deeply tonight
Just do it once harder than a volcano when it erupts and sees red
Then leave it behind and get ready for your next war

I walked a long way on a path that seemed familiar to me
I met some beings, who seemed honest to me,
I opened my mouth until my tooth of wisdom appeared
To all those whom launched a brilliant smile to me,
But who knew at that time, it was only a fateful virus
That had poisoned my mind and set it on blaze,
I had a kingdom I called dream,
A roof I called protection,
4 walls I called vista,
But it took just a gust of wind, for all this to fall apart
I saw everything I built, flown in pieces into different directions
But my eyes couldn't catch one ******* patch until it all faded away
I tried to breathe the ashes of my soul
Which was badly charred in the cresset of my loss
Thinking that I could reborn it even though I was so **** doubting it babe,
**** I’m so dumb that I’m going numb,
Simply because I ****** this odium left in the dust,
I tried to whine my bitterness hoping that I could ****** happiness,
But I woke up frozen on this cold ground called sorrow
So, I yelled 'I need you to save me, without you I'm nothing baby'
But I didn’t even know whom I'm calling,
I don't remember why I’m here,
I hate myself I hate me
I hate the fact that my heart is still beating
Despite this ******* pain covering my body,
You told me once this life is a movie
Shoot it well or bury yourself in the obscurity,
So I climbed on this endless tower,
Waiting for your signal to awake my pulse
Maybe then I could love back who I am...

I wish I could close my eyes and sleep tonight
I wish I could erase those bad memories from my heart
I wish I could forget who I am just for one day
Please don't believe my smile
Don't believe when I say I'm fine
Don't let me give up, hold my hand
Tell me I will be okay
Tell me I won't be forgotten
Tell me I still have a chance, no need to be hidden
Don't allow me to hurt my lips with this fake smile
Don't believe it ‘cause I'm bleeding inside
I'm weak like a sick flower
I could die if you leave me alone
I'm so afraid of sleeping in the dark
And I can’t turn on the lights
‘cause I don't want you to look at my ugly face
I don't know why I'm crying again
I don't know why this baby girl in me won't grow up
I don't know where to go
And I don't know what to do
I'm lost in my own world
Many closed doors are surrounding me
but I don't know which one I've to choose
Can't find my way can't see my future
my tears blinded my eyes, can't you see I'm broken
My body is sweating, can't you feel my hot fever?
I was screaming in my dreams but no one heard my voice
I was running toward paradise but my feet didn't mirror my moves
Can you read my words?
Can you see my wounds?
Can you understand when I say
Don't believe my smile
‘Cause I'm not happy at all
I can't be where I want
Cause I don't know where I belong
I don't even know who I am..