Good morning
YOHO! I’m saying good morning
Why does everyone look constipated in the morning
Why does no one smile in the metro and are kinda boring
Why are they striving with anyone for anytime when they’re talking
Everybody pretends to be reading the newspaper
Only to hide their faces avoiding to come across
Someone they know or another they hate
They give the impression
They are going to the hanging room not to work
With their sharp looks
And their steps even stronger
Than those of a solider when they walk
Hey guys!
Here the earth is not a shooting in Hollywood
Life is just an LOL face so tell me why so serious?
Do you think chasing your shadow will make your eternal happiness
Live to earn money and select luxury goods without enjoying is your
success
Why work to work not work to have fun nonstop
Don’t tell me this is life, cause life is an LOL face
Come on why so serious
Stop for a moment and take a flashback of your life
See how you behave and how stupid you are
Running toward an unknown future
And leaving the most beautiful moment behind
Why follow the pace of life
Imposed by don’t know who
Make yours and impose yourself by what you do
And if life has made you a marionette
Make it a skeleton and exhaust all its forces by your ignorance
Oh, don’t you know
Life is a game so let’s play
Show your LOMA side
Cause life is just an LOL face
Don’t be so serious!

I open my notebook, then i take a pen
I’m supposed to write a new poem
But all what is scribbled on the paper 
Is that drop of my tears flowing from my eyes
No idea runs through my head
My heart is bleeding again
Too much emotions stifle my breath
So much hatred burns my depth
So much fears block my steps
I am the clown who makeup her face with the blood of her wounds
Hiding her tears with an artificial smile acting like a fool
Dressing up in color her dark bone
And singing hope with her hopeless voice
Everyone wants to buy my life
Everyone envies the mask wearing on my face
But I wonder if they want to take my sad secret garden with them
I wonder if they are able to live with a deep pain 24/7 day and night 
I wonder if those haters have one single idea about my poor past
I wonder if those jealous are ready to walk on my cold rainy path
Yes I prefer to be your clown always fine
Cause I’m not ready to reveal who I am
I’m still weak can’t face my pain
I don’t wish to let you see me cry
I don’t hope to open my 24 years-old scars.
I’m the clown of life who never knew what she wants
I’m the clown who is lost in the valley of the dolls

I still remember that day
when mom told me with her softy voice
you should never show your weakness
I need you to be strong over the rocks
I was only ten years old
I didn’t really understand the meaning of these words
but it affected me deeply
and I have learned throughout my thorny path to walk tall
she told me that I should never cry for a man
I should never think of marriage before drawing my way
and if I miss the train of love it’s alright
’cause men look for a slave and they fear the queens
so I worked hard to achieve my dream
I fought to have a solid place in this society
and I tortured my soul to have an unbreakable personality
I’m the woman who is afraid of nothing
the woman who’s walking 280km/hour
without thinking about the
walls that she can cross while running
the strong woman who changes the world
by a single glance
the one that sadness doesn’t dare to visit her life
and tears are afraid to face her eyes
I’m the example of the resistant woman
but they never know that I’m
the battered woman
After so many years I finally admitted
what I had always ignored
Brave Woman Is Weak In Love
I thought no man could underestimate me in my warrior life
but only one ripped my mask
he so easily broke my ego
without asking my permission he guides me and I follow
unintentionally I became dependent on an unknown human
when I had to be independent…
with one word I’m guided
when I had to be the one to order
suddenly I lost the remote control of my life
and I’m unable to stop the events that scroll in front of my eyes
it’s so fast and it makes me dizzy
I had lived without any worry
Now I live in fear of losing what was never for me
I who always used to choose between take or leave
I live where I have to choose between leave or leave
I who was always the winner
I got the award of the biggest loser…

I’m not a fan of Hollywood movies
cause I’ve never found myself in these stupid love stories
I don’t have the lips of Angelina Jolie, nor the beauty of Kate Moss
I’m not elegant like Taylor Swift nor **** as Alicia Keys
I’m an ordinary girl, for some I’m an alien that everyone flees 
I ask myself many questions every night
that even questions are sick of my words
why my lips still ******
why I’m the girl that everyone avoids
it’s like I’m a Pig or Smelly dog 
why nobody noticed my Dior lipstick that I drew on my mouth
why no one felt my perfume
and yet it’s the Chanel 5 the favourite one for all the boys
why no one was attracted by my short pink dress
and yet it is the same as Inna’s one
I turned into a puppet to please you
so why my lips still single till today
Can someone be my mirror just for awhile
can you help me see my face in your eyes
can you help me touch my lips with your hands
can you help me hug my body with your arms
may be it will help me to know myself again
and perhaps I will find the answer
that I’ve been looking for longtime ago
who knows maybe you will be the judge
who imprisons my lips in the virginity prison
or the hero who will save them from the dark forever….

Already twenty two years has passed
since the first day I opened my eyes
and to confirm that I’m alive
The doctor slapped my **** then I cried
everyone was happy and mom smiled
but for me it was just the beginning of an eternal war
they thought I cried ’cause I felt hurt
but they didn’t know that I never wanted to come
it wasn’t my decision, and no one asked my opinion
Did I say I wanna join your world?
Did I knock mom’s tummy and beg her to take me away?
I’ve never complained of living with many ovaries in the dark
I’ve never felt lonely, never felt sad
and honestly I was pitying those who have been chosen before me
their lives aren’t better than mine anyway
’cause actually we’re all on the same side
living with nothing
running over nothing
fighting for nothing
well we are the twins of mister nothing…
I tried to convince myself
that I could make a change
I tried to believe that I could ****** tomorrow
I tried to believe that I’m gonna be a hero
I tried to believe that I could manipulate life like my shadow
but I didn’t know that I’m gonna be manipulated by my shadow
I never knew that once they arrest you in life’s prison
you can never ever be freedom
And if you ask the reason for this cruel decision
they will tell you
your birth was a crime
and once you are here there is no way to look back
I was born to live alone
I was born to be my parent’s robot
I was born to please everyone
I was born to marry mister pain
in other words I was born to be your marionette
dress my body like a clown
makeup my face like a vampire
then throw me in your unfair empire.
I’m your puppet and I accept to pay for a crime
that I’ve never done.
’cause of you I breath injustice to survive
and I drink tears to still be alive…

Maybe I’m still young or maybe I’ve already missed the train
But I still want to dream about the future and my happy life
I still want to have children and teach them what I've learned
I still want to tell them my story and how I fought
When I become a mama
I will teach my son how to respect his sister
how to be a real man by his manly charm
not by his rude character
I will teach him how to express his feeling to the others
and there is no theory says only weak men cry
and there is no rule affirming that men are monster's children
I will tell him how it feels to be a heartbroken
How it feels to be rejected and ignored
How painful it is when someone shows up your heart in public when you never wanted it to happen
when I become a mama
I will introduce to my son my best friend miss distance
I will let him spend a holiday with her without my presence
I want to help him understand
the true meaning of love by this experience
that when we love there is no place
for doubt or boredom in our hearts
and wherever we go we still can take care of our lovers
the more we are far away
the more our feelings grow like a herbs
I will plant in his pure garden my sensitive sensation
and I will etch on his white brain my precious citations
Don’t be ashamed when you fall in love
better to feel like a fool in life
than guilty ’cause of your prideful side
when I become a mama
I will show my daughter my real face
and before I became her number one bias
I was made of glass
I fell 4 billion times and
I broke and I took time to heal my scars
I will teach her that girls have one mutual pride
and they all fight for one mutual point
is to be respected as a human not used as an object
and the irresistible female beauty
is living under their superficial vestments
and before making up her face
she needs to learn how to make up her mind
I want her to understand
that the equality between men and women
doesn’t mean acting like them
till she loses her feminine charm
but it means doing what she can do to build a strong personality
but never let go of her sweet charisma
just as her favourite barbie does
When I become a mama
I will help my kids find their way and reach their dreams
I will respect their choices and support their decisions
when I become a mama
I will be the person that I needed to meet
when I was young but unfortunately never found…

Do you ever had this desire
Of throwing your heart on fire
Let it burn and see all your memories transforming into cinder powder
Have you ever had this imagination?
Of being ******'s Succession
**** everyone happy in love without any hesitation
Yes I did, and I do hate you
You who have the power of being loved
You who got everything I dreamed of
You who smile when my tears ruined my makeup
And have fun when my heart got worked up
I hate seeing your ugly heart worn on your plastic face
I hate hearing your disgusting moan when he treats you like a princess
I hate every breath you take when he chokes you by his kisses
Call me hater or call me monster
Just try to ask him about me and let me hear his answer
Would he be able to forget who I am?
His eyes could avoid meeting mine
Is he able to clean up my existence from his mind?
I'm the dumb girl who loved him more than he deserves
I'm the blind girl who couldn't see his lies drawn on his poisonous lips
I'm an old you who used to behave like you do
And you are a new me who'll bleed eternally when he'll go
I’m a skeleton who has been eaten by love’s gun
And still breathing a hatred polluted air
'Cause in my heart there is a numb girl screaming
A rapped soul and tired body claiming
They say time is the perfect remedy
But I realized that time is only drilling my pain deeply