Confessional.
Open up let's examine truth.
For two seconds.
I'd move heaven
And the planets. To have that with you
You don't have a clue.
But you actually do.
And thats where plans I've made
Might stand a chance
Of fruition... plants that actually bloom
And can come true.
While my innerchild retreats.
I see my dreams like Saturn's moon.
Revolving around a planet.
Based on all your talent
And the love I have for you....

Do you ever see a wishing star.
And imagine you already have it.
Can't be death without
Destiny.
If God played a hand in planning.
So I sift through sands
On the beach of madness.
With an hour glass in my right
And a map to becoming Stan fan
Number one with out the current traffic.
Get it... current traffic.
Slur my words.
Thank God I **** left handed.
*** its taking so long
My hour glass is like a fertile birth of sand pit.

Anatomy confusing
From a little child.
My little smile
On minimal size.
Pride and intimate mind.
Shows. No one knows
Im different inside.
Recognition.
Trails and beginnings of lies
The decision to hide.
What once was innocent cries.
Becoming criminal type.
Focused on finishing highs.
Of cryptic type spliff.
Trails of smoke in riffs in the skies.
Eviction from core values.
More malice in a
Challenge. To savage.
To manage inside.
And as that blinds and binds
I learned a man cannot cry.
So I'm ****** if I find
Shadows or ghastly
Traces of the trans panic
A girl posing manly
With a mask for a mind.

Mirrors in the hallway.
Reflecting back my nonsense.
Hearing placebo effect.
Or holy **** he's really conscious
While I'm drunk at 6 o'clock
And walking into closets.
It's my ****.
I'll never quit.
Thats Like  ex alcoholics. Giving up their chocolate.
Nonsense.
Like a doctor with a pending lawsuit
Still prescribing oxycontin.
Shout out to Johnny rotten.
And the very **** pistols.
I just bought myself some liquor
And a  ziploc full of crystals...
Stairway up to nowhere
It ain't fair. I'm not the devil
While I let my zeppelin fly
And put some lead into my pencil

First by reflection.^^^^
I've detected^^^^. My deepest weakness.))))
It's a beastly need.
For love. Its unrequited. Leads ta grief))))
And.
Second by devotion.
I've relieved ))my need)) to meet)) my needs))
Through other human beings.))
I've maintained that unwanted inner feelings)))
Are the map that drives my demons))
So I've ceased to feed the))
Devils that lay dreaming in my
Rhyme and reason)))

3rd by living in the moment
I've come to appreciate. My inner being*
As a temple. That is the centerpiece
To my inner chi.
And through it bend my energy.*
To raise stones from.
Mental defeatism
And raise courage
From a tiny beast
That symbolizes freedom)))

Mind games.
Crime rate. Is raising in Georgian.
Abortion. And ****
Charges that lawyers support n.
Hand in hand.
*** divorce. Is an evil.
They give out to the masses.
Impunity. Goes together like
Klu klux  ****
And covid masks yah
While trump solution
Is to feud with any
State that won't remove the ban yet.
Demand. That can.
Of cat ****.
To get a better spray tan n.
******.
Cant stand. This romance.
With a trans from somewhere
In canada.
Shy but slams so hard.
She makes hulk Hogan
Look like canvas practice
For a Steve Austin massacre.
She plans like a passenger.
Or clueless like
Matador.
Gay bulls in a coloseum.
She's out of this stratosphere.
Her movies are passion laced.
Gas riot grenades
In a rythm show.
Like taking a lick from the spoon.
Of inevidible
And letting none but the devil
Know.
She's metal. And schedules.
Like head spaces. Of under developed
Men that turn into pedophiles.
Wow that just took a setting tone
It's time that I let her know
Shell never be on stage
With this encore when
The smoke settles the eminem show

Massacre the thrown of Satan.
Stature dwarfed
Form .....grown misshapen
Horns and eyes
Of coal from slaveships
Sore and drown.
course
torn from holy pages

Beware this war is more
Than waged by
The lord and angels.
God and scores of
Sacred saints that
Give blows that boor the
Blood of Satan
In forty places.
From boredom
Waiting. Ahead by forty paces
On the shores of states land.
To boarding shores of
Hellions wasteland.
And sacred statements
Made by supporting
Creation
Mean currency
Reward for wars forged
From
Heavens door to satan

Iron eyes that chase the fire &&&

It's a fire from the supplier.;;;,;,

It's my body. My apparel

My attire.??????

Unaware I'm ensnared_

With eyes wider than

A night mare.

I'm running through the isles

Of night terror.

With a smile there.

My mind a white fang

The high like

Why and why there__

We do the night thing.::

Like a mind creep:::

With a pipe dream:::

And I'm on my heads sleep))))

Yeah right.

Need the high.

Less than I'm living 

In the deads reach.))))))

It's a trench shovel....


Living in the dead shuttle.....

Looking like my heads bleached)))))


Medication.

Still impatient

Wonder when  my sents. breached.)))

About the same time.

I'll be boxed into a dead heat))))

But talks like mister spock

Have got my ****** fingers

In a hot streak^^^^%%^

I'm vanna white

I touch more dees 

Than a hooked on Phoenix

Boxed theme.....&&

I copied this from Gmail.
*** I wrote this in
A hot streak.*.........

Like I'm trying
To make my former
The abortion
Of a soft dream.
When I wake.
You'll think
I'm great. Or genius.
Trying to hide
A botched demon.......
From revealing
That I was caught sleeping.......
In a world where music takes
So long to make
It's considered.
To be a long descending
Staircase.
To a God feeling......
Not being obnoxious.
But I think
Nausea can be blotted
Out so ******* spot free.
Siiiiick

My mind needs to be effected
Corrective  Surgery suggested
For the purple leaves and ******* crush I've just  ingested... infected
Like a parasite
With little legs.
A hairy chest.
And garys ******* famous vest....

My co chair next to me. Is trained in taekwondo
And unprotected **** ***...
You flex you face
A man that cant abstain from ***
Hell **** you
Than bear mace your naked ***.
And break your legs and neck...

The voices in my head.
Say I didnt want to say this.
But it's funny take a joke.
Smile your white.
And I just may be a racist

Silent in withdrawl.
The voice like memos on the cabinet.
Watch the truth
Become a solvent
Dissolve your proof that theres no madness.
Chambers in a cautious state.
Like satan at the watchmen gate.
A time to talk.
Of how I'm conscious.
And a lot like in a toxic place....
Watch this watchmen
Turn methodical
Hip notic
Hues too concentrate.
I'm a girl. What's that make you.
A dude who lacks uncommon taste
To prostate bait.???
**** my ****. You ***. My portal like a token.
Of a sunken ship....
My cards beyond reproach.
I know my end is coming quick
My dual function is...
A girl that cant touch a drum.
Even though I have a ******* ****.
Too bad I cant imagine
Life as a man
So ******* slump your wish.
You dumb ***** cant run like forest gump
When your just a stump
For skunks and bugs to ****.
You ******* country *****...
I hate your guts. You realize.
Your only up to
3 foot five.
Need pesticide. To curb.
Your bug like infectious appetite
You ******* parasite.....
There it is. You ******* care what came.
Directly down the sewer pipes..
You knew my life.
Was ruined by
Your choices now its do or die

ive been catching fire flies
baby just to try
to make the light you shine
when your crazy eyes meet mine

maybe im not sure what i did to make you mine
maybe its the way your candle lighs
making me flutter butterflys
its my stomach getting nervous twisted tied
up every time




girl im just catching fire flies

time is going by so crazy just to watch you drive
hitting ditches swerving dirt roads
like you do it all the time
the moon in front
so keep your eyes on mine and never let me go
im catching light inside your eyes
every time that mine are closed












i

I'm on a crazy tip
Ex factor ate amazing ****
And saved a plateful
Takeaway but waits for it...
Lazy ***** with weapons
So **** dangerous
That Satan says how gay is this...
Stray from digging Graves
To mixing anger ***
With clozapine. Olanzapine
And raging ****....
The caged in aggression
*** I want to straight blade Michael
Sinul... Satan Reikl necks
And have a vinyl trial death
With slim shady.
Smiling in a child's mess
I'm shifty you can try my breath
My grin
Is simply illl like aids and gay men ***
No offense im positive
You'll be great in test..
While everglades gators
Ate up major ****...
So I'm repulsive hope I'm great at ***
Or hell be helpful to be my break up texts.... revenge equation
Add up two seconds in a painful stress
I'll be make up *** so grateful
For his great revenge

Listen to the crazy wisdom
With space age victims
In replace of lazer vision
We got lazy kids and
Pension problems.
Immigration feds hurr
And slave ships. Like a pez dispenser
Meds in dressers
Oxycontin popping
should be said never
When **** is best pleasure.
Best med ever....
Clever
is the military budget list
If nobody endeavors
to **** with this
Forever are we stuck up kids.
Better love for destructive ****
Than settle money on lunches
For some hungry kids.
Mamas brunch. And like some eggs
To soft
I be running this...

I collected words in search of brilliant minds
scattered like  backwards patterns that I would hurriedly find,
I sat in awe, the pause before the plunge into the deep,
a breathe, with tempting debt, to loan the poems that I need,
discreetly stealing the thoughts of demons at sleep
the teasing trail of fiendish beings dressed as sheep in their fleece
without meaning, I was seeing a story unravel,
a common theme between the beings
that were speaking this channel
and as it baffled me, I woke inside a dungeon of sorts
my skin a canvas for the lies of miniature sport
and AS I finished this game,
the diminished became
a shell of recognition that once hid
behind a sinister frame
so ask me nicely, whats the difference,
the same, I exclaim
im just a little bit different but all this **** is the same

Its sadness in a sentence fragment.

Spilling madness into happening

With actual attraction 

I begin. Spilling over like the  waves

In this titanic ****

 imploding like an atom

In a nuclear reaction

I'm removed. From the attachment

Like household garbage

My equation is

Department  sanitation ****

My life a math equation

Which

Dont sum up ****

But drugs and *** and ******* angry kids

Fantasies I had

At ten.

A knack for turning

**** into an acronym

S.o h.old i.t t.ogether

***

 s.he's h.eaven i.n t.ogetherness

A s.low h.and i.nviting t.enderness

I just did 3 ******* acronyms

Using the letters *******br>

To show she's fabulous
That's why she has my kids

Written in a shoe box
Are little keepsakes and tiny poems.
Clue not.
What keeps any sense
In dispense of medicine..
left mine at home
And fly the zone....

Like listen hard.
Its being seen as soft...
Your ears are whispers.
And your dreams are clothe
When the other side
Is black and buried.
The clothe is mud
And your hands are hurried...
In bitter haste.
Hush your angry tone
The little girl
Does not wash the rag alone
The rag is bloodied
And now you see he's scarred
What once was soft.
Now you see he's hard

My past is scattered ashes
And I find tragic truth.
Do you have a clue
What does it matter dude.

I rose when in defeat.
I smoke and go to sleep.
My beauty hides inside.
No peep
I know the oceans deep.
Emotions running over
*** nobody noticed me.
Tormenting over me.
Hurricane enormity.
Making tears form into poetry.
I know I got this blessing
Step into the devils head
And learn your ******* lesson...



Chorus....
When this lullaby hits you.
Touch goodbye baby girl because I miss you.
Had to fix few.... Things.
*** there's issues with my mood ring
Dads becoming mommy.
Quite alarming.
But inside its not a new thing.
Noone truly knew me
Gotta keep on moving.
Baby daddys gone.
But mommy is the new me.....


My parents loved me always
Though not a perfect home.
Drugs. Self medicate.
And chaos.
Some ******* major holes.
Started smoking cigarettes
Just after 8 years old.
My body was an alien
It made me gag and choke.
Selling dope
At twelve years old.
Crazy way to cope.
We always stayed afloat.
Adulthood brought bags of coke.
The pain I crave the most.
At the same time.... hate addiction.
Came out as transgender.
To my kids st Christmas.
As God my only witness.
Never felt that full dimish.
Couldn't fix a single sentence.
My ex clipped out family visits.
The grinch just cancelled Christmas.
*** my gender switch.
The ***** can eat a bag of *****.
I'm ******* sick of this ****....


Chorus...
Baby when the lullaby hits you.
Touch goodbye baby girl *** I miss you.
Had to fix few... things
Issues with my mood ring....
Your dads becoming mommy
Quite alarming
But inside its not a new thing.
You gotta keep on moving.
Some times
You gotta find yourself.
But first you have to lose things.
Daddy may be dead.
But mommy is the new me....

So difficult to find.
Truth. When inside the waters muddy
Always prayers and thoughts.
And Hope's.
Being alone and with nobody.
Till you found me.
I'd like to say something.
I never saw it coming.
I'm a girl inside a body.
That feels manly. Unkempt and ugly.
But the world has shown me something.
That what I thought inside of me was so  ugly.
Actually turned out to be.... well....
Pretty ******* funny.....
There it is. So scarcely lit before.
I ignored my tummies rumbling....
I needed truth.
But I was using the wrong trading points as money....
Currency. Like promises... fall short
Of realizations in becoming....
I was raised as a boy...
But now I'm trying to be somebody...
My uncle has finally passed
From a cancer
Battle raged and body ******...
But heaven is a perfect place...
I'll see you there.. ten four rubber ducky... love ya unky... best ******* buddies.....

Dare devil with a master plan
Accredited with 7 kills.
Debt to the devil. That invented
His attention skills


Crafted in the heart of monster
Debted with a mercy streak....
A first rate cut like guts will spill
And you ***** will be the first to see..
Surgery with urgent needs
detergent cleans the ****** scene
Detective with a pet peeve
For erecting death in ****** teens

A tiny word becomes a curtain scene
And closes. On a ghost.
No way I thought.
The ******* would return to the ****** scene
And revive me from the dead just to ****** me

My daughter born of 2008
Class of Manitoba
Can can be sure I want her
My goddess daughter
Not my one to offer slaughter
But the one I watch her....


In owing of a promised rose..
I honor the walk of k9
Karma rose... comeback
With pollen nose
To swallow emotions
I want her to spark
Long after the koffin closed..

You got me yo
Your name is not disclosed...
I know your moss in
Tropical auma
Is a blossom grown
Seed from your awesome
Mom who chose
To swallow secrets
Not asking for a promise payment
Why ill give your mom
All she wants and more....
The swallowed scorn
Of tropic storm
Of college dorm
Room parties
Not fjcked with
Unlike hard-core ****
Or college dorms
Share alcohol
But promise me
You'll be safe and warm
Like the swarms of
Poems I've wrote before
Should reveal
How bad I've been misinformed
If your not my born
I'll still want you more

Living in a system bound for depression.
Its an empty sound.
Mental clouds.
Like metal mountains.
Lead pencil meadow.
Where the dead men drown.

deception, a tool of liquid love, used to shelter the helpless from inescapable truths that to reveal would disturb,


love, a panic of sorts that sees truth in another and finds comfort in the ugly along with the beauty

death, a baby step along the narrow staircase of a not so practical existence

chaos the absence of order in which the laws of creation have been disfigured and distorted

sheltered: the forceful removal of somebodys right to experience the rest of society as it truly is

lies: the common practice when approaching  loves inability to tolerate the ugly

for shame: the disgrace kovu brought upon himself after there was an assassination  attempt on simba in the renowned Disney film

denial: a tool the mind uses to dance around a painful truth that self love has the inability to tolerate and deception is the only means by which to survive

liberation, an expression of profound inner truth used to relinquish the souls captivity within the damning prison of mortal secrecy

I'm delusional.
But in the depths of mycalamity.
I'm sleuth in who
I trust to root through. The damaging
To make proof
Of my insanity. Dramatic vanity.
Class suit.
Education is justice of  suitable vernacular for a rhapsody.
Trust in my outward
Insecurity to do.
Exactly what my inner fabric
Has to be.
A tearing seem.
Like my tattered Jean's.
And its maddening.
Creating a complex.
In my brain.
That s patterning
After a savage dream
Of eminem becoming my
Mister "has to be"
And voices laughter
Make ask believe.
If I concieve christ is in my belly
And it's actually happening.
While my opinions are like.
Al gores rythm
Blue skys. Distressing
What's reality
While a pattern emerges
Of me never really mattering.
Like my mom.
Developing a bank account with
8 figure salary.
From a lotto ticket.
Placed in my path
screaming.
Of my brothers incapacity.
To hide his body language.
God having  the audacity.
To listen to fall out boy.
Build complexes.
****** voices to
Enrapture me
In absolute insanity
color becomes
Black and white ... contrast.
Between my opinions
And the facts I see.
Eminem. Christ. Lotto winnings
Basically is what
I believe are happening.

Call me hope.
Before we turn to goblins
Internal monsters.
Rummaging and mustering
Through marshes
In the swamplands.
Talking in demonic
Prophecies
And rocking monstrous
******* mosh pits.
It's a gathering of college kids
With bottles tucked
Amongst the ballsweat.
And the scent of
Problems in my nostrils
Smell like monastary
Organs in this gospel


Run for the record.
I check. Devils
On the daily.
I make impeccable
Choices.
Whisper **** no.
Yes. Or maybe
Till the grave that
Has my name
Is strewn with canadian daisies.
I'll be gladly.
Calling shots
Like chicken pox.
Itch on a baby...
You *******
Chachi looking
Lady
Just try to
Disobey me.
I'll be there to drag
You in the flames
*** hell cant keep
On waiting.
That's the apomorphic nature
Of the
hellions
We been raising
One day their just a baby
Next. Their giving
Helpless old ladies
Rabies.
I said. Hell cant keep
On waiting baby
Break a leg
You ******* ancient *****

Touching the sky
A moment of heavenly cry
For joy
For love
For what dwells in the celler inside
Tell em that which you hide
That which is detrumental to mind.
I'll support you just know
It's important we ride.
Modern day bonny and clyde.
No speaking
Equals the demons
Extortion of pride.
So reach out. Speak
The core of your mind.
Believe you'll be open
To hope and devotion you find
It's a formula supported
By a life of debt.
To the Angel's who hide in your corner
Regret is blood loss.
Without being a donor.
Give out of love.
Fear not what was or will be.
But throw down the death
And enjoy mercy with me.

This is life in just pretend
I'm in Nintendo screens
And spending credits
On a mental dream.
Virtual *** is cheap
But comes second place quite easily
To the feeling.
When my online shrink
Is messaging.
I hate my spending habits
But these deadly Jean's.
From Ebay user gently green
Are not just ******* wants
Their practically necessity

My partner thinks I'm unfaithful
We brake up
So my side chick gets a text from me
I go on a Facebook rant.
With anger. Angst and energy
At 2 am.
**** Drunk again.
Wake up the next day and check
The messages.
she sent to me...
She Wants my love again.
But if the web has taught me anything.
It's essentially
Impossible
To solve your problems
Without connection fees.
*** love is free
But its 11 bucks a month
To find the other fish in the sea

But hey hey. Babe
Were in a virtual craze.
It's my life. So complex
But it feels easier this way.

Difficult times.
Like im running this treadmill.
Destination climb.
Wrong intentions.
But I write with a pencil.
Right brain mental.
Left with directions of devils.
Down with the rythym
But I left it up
To my head to
Develope  my level

Ridiculed with opposites..
Positive..
I talk with walk tall confidence
But meekly speak
Of god given talent.
That might amass. To
Accolades accomplishments
Its just room for coffins
Under clothe to be
Cleaned and walk
With losses from my past
That seem to be lost on me...
And haunting me
Like impossible im calm
But I just got my period...
Wait the point is.. impossible
From your colossal disbelief
Like separate. Apostrophe
Inevitable
got it all....
Like model aspirations
Intimidation..  *** i speak
Non judgemental gospel bro....
Like topical relief
For depression.
Anxiety.. bipolar.. **** clozeral...
The boss is waiting in
His office...
I got a shot. With far im possible...
And no way
**** it logan
Says make it probable...
Facing difficulties...
Like riddles to Batmans job at home...
The riddlers ******* got to go
And under neath the ledge.
I'm sure heath.
Has got a spot to watch it all....
Screaming. William
Like black eyed peas...
In the freezer bag...
*** I got to swell....
With beating demons till it freezes over
Believe me all I want from hell...
Switch the flow

Taught me well.. with hard ambition
In it...
Built for ***.. genius. Reaching
Optical incremental prisons
Dysmorphias a numbers game...
And we got it all in switching
But liberation
Is a greater joy. Than all this dimension different vision...
Like a tape you read
Your project with
But yoir vision says.
Two inches and 11 keep
Swapping
Stop this ****....
So you walk into lunch with coffee...
And people switch the fuckinf spots to
Sit in...
*** your coveralls are different...
Laughing
*** your wishing to be a proper certified electrician...
But your just not the idea
Or proper vision
*** your body is the opposite
Of electrician....
**** **** in the parking lot...
All you hearing as you exit
Your not a tradesmen
Dude keep wishing....
Shoulda kept your birth genetics....
Or stick with roofers
**** ill do that ***** you *******
If i woulda kept my ****..
You jerks would still
Look at me different....

Mind is a weapon.
Word is a heavy sword.
Mental wards.
Trans gender morph
On intentions to get awards.
My head weaponized
Only Dismemberment
Re sets its course.
I'm heading for.
The entrance door.

Telling you this contagious.
Hatred. Means I'm not forsaking
Gods name.
You major ignoramus
I'm dancing in the devils danger
With rangers like
New york in the playoffs
So set the day to break.
Like Jim Carey's mask.
Can take a break.
My fiscaud. Is far too great...
And bullets dance.
Like trances making shadows
In the grave....
Open to submission while I slate a million tears to flood the names
Of every name.
That built this place.
Like Hoover said *******
I'm a flood the eco with fate.
Greatness. Dental dams.
And gay micro waves.
Like mini pizzas. Waxing melt.
And hot plates for college plates.

Collision course of this orbit.
****. I'm torn.
Worn and pouring my soul in.
My heart is a merchant
You had stolen
More than gold. From my storage.
With no guard to enforce it
My love is enormous.
And the source. Is overflowing
And gorgeous
Rivers of hope. And love.
But the haters ignore this.
I'm ugly ina way.
But I got love in my corners
So before I go and talk on
Concerts fame and hip hop award shows.
May I be reminded of.
How I divorced myself from.
That form of microphone mortal distortion.
But cant escape the horror show.
I've been placed in collisional orbit.

Realize eminem was lust but Kim has it..
Lock down.. on a love madness...
Hell thats sad practice...
If sad meant immaculate gravity
Of happiness...between a mad man
And a divine enchantress...
So I grab.. james mckokis
And transition...
Into woman from a bad habit...
Practically a man click
With a bad ****
Definition... claps the light in
Darkness of Sandberg
Time of sand between two
Sand hands shift...
My mom is spacial cosmic passion
Its wise to grab your chance
And he... Andy... sand man... sand berg
Has the last word....
Is it dog or dmx I love
or is ******* dog ****... become my tragic matter turned to bad word...
*** im rath rapture
In the last saturated hand of black dirt...
Before I bless half earth
With magnetic  aura...
Poring black dirt
Through ashes in a Moira...
Sanctum
My God will be the last verse
Last word
The son asks never the rapture

Husqvarna chainsaw.
Dont play dog...
Arms like a drake song
Make you wanna ****** date charge
Say on.. im a clap on.
Clap off. But to make it brake all...

Heir to the kingdom
Naji in a great planet...
I'm the grey magnet.
That makes mister grey look like a pain bandit
running from
Camp sack your package exchange havr it...exact it.
Into trans gender fem tactics...
I'm break a leg.
And feelings into break sadness.

I know you love me so
Lets focus on the bigger scope.
I love Marshall the man.
His fam. So dope collaboration
With interscope.
Of course I want *******.
But innermost.
Anticipatiom
Waiting for awake and refreshment.
My aching body was pregnant
Said my body retracting.
Made mistakes.
But kept track.
Of my passion and the love
Every body gave back n.
Different distinction
From my inner voices of sadness.
Collapsible hammock
Bout as bad as invention.
Since the **** who made
Non recyclable plastic.

Jessie Reyes you mentioned.
He's got love for me.
Is this real.
The way I feel. Confessional.
Is I have. Thoughts.
Hopes its eventually real
That the devil himself. In best
Attire. Couldn't dress up as incredibly
well.
As the masking machine. Monster
I made to hide.
My ****** tells. Heart swells
I'm like ****. I'm in motion. Of chemical. Grief...... Tell em
When my weapon. Of war.
Is a heavenly peace. .......Let um
I feel his smell and its sweet.
My hopes are rejected.
But inside I'm crying
Why am I seeing.
Stan.
In my pathetic reflection.
I get it. I see it. But I don't know
What the mental illness
Projected.
Voices and people
dripping wax over
The coals of smoke. Blowing
Holes in my head ex direction
While my brain.
Is directed. In detective mode
No shred of unbiased
Investment
Twenty seconds. Into my
Match of inter dimensional.
Tetris.
I see slim by the window.
Pitching up a Jimmy necked tent n
The sky turns dead
And his tents getting wet.
So I crept in the entrance.
Asked him a question.
My mind became. A black sky
With gastro swelling
And negative pressure. In my I lower intestine.
Like a puff from the dragon.
Selling me seconds.
In an abandoned fan lit.
Gas fueled. Combustion.
So fast not even my stomach.
Had a chance to react
It just happened.
Dance with my last name
A fast removal. Of credit.
*** balloon heads are
For the newly dead.
And your such a beautiful
Couple

Dime type boy with an expensive tag
Simon knows I'll dress in drag
Science says drag equals
Friction
Think like a chick
My strange addiction.

Hooked on Phonix but cant really read
Hydroponics with lots of ****
Chronic equals lots of letters
Like blaze a j.
                      O.   it cant get better
                       I.      feel dope
                      N.         its smoky weather
                      T.              for time out
j.o.i.n.t effort together

Sorry for the dark ****
might be poetic license.
I've been writing for 3 weeks straight
And unwillingly promoting violence
I've been dark and and filled
With silence
While loud. Evoking riots
Why do I try to be a rocket man
When I haven't mastered rocket science.
I'm not eating much these days
I think the drugs
Are playing mind games
On my sinus.
While I'm emotionally withdrawn
And feeling no semblance of kindness
Why this. **** seeping out my eyelids
So I can be a rapper
You all talk about behind his...
Back and use key phrases
To remind him...
He's unworthy...
I've been trying to have high self esteem
So why do I feel *****.
Its unnerving
Like I'm hurting
And my eyelids need my surgery
*** I can't see
The reason
That my mind is so disturbing
And it hurts me.
I'm lost in purgatory.
With revenge a far off thought.
If I killed myself tomorrow
Would the killer really
Stand the thought of being caught

A wise man once said.
Turn a person into a narcissist.
Hell never find a pharmacist
With as much.
Passion. Love and charm he has...
But than again.
When a narcissist looks to hard and ****. Into his own reflection.
He becomes a **** inside the garden of the misfortunate.
It's so stereotyped.
But I support this type of condemnation in a sense but its....
More like even evil ****** like narcissists.
Have a human root.
Like baby groot
Beneath their garments n



I spent time eradicating vampires.
From my fathers barnyard while those fanged retards were always
Starting ****.
Till I learned that food to them. Is the goat they bought to slaughter next.
And we as humans
Eat the goat
So who's a monster to a Martian shitttg.....


It means a killer can change his stripes.
A ****** can change his life.
I car jacker
Or ******* jack can find sanctum in his life
..
It's like the murderes the monster.
But were the ones who made him

Than caged him.
Lifting weights became
his day job.
So he learned to **** people for pay off
*** when he was young his daddy didn't earn as much as Bernie macduff.
He felt inclined to follow friends.
And raid piggy banks
No need for day jobs.
*** thugs he knew
Made more from coke
Than the prime minister made
From taking scams
To fly his plane off....
He swore if he made it out the preversive indifference.
A racially motivated hate mob
Including prisons.
Loan offices and teachers thinking he was way off.
That hed prove that equality exists.
Or at least the semblance.
Of face talks.
With the race topic
Hot buttoned.
Face logic
And he still kills it

Inside my body lives a dragon
Nested deep within my chest plate
Watchful gaze that keeps its sacred
Home.. my mortal soul
And head safe...
Rivers of a glacier thaw.
Receeding into streams that run like clouds. Into my headspace...
The land he reigns. Sometimes strange
The evrr changing landscape...
Like shapes in smoke. A  shifting
Scope. Never knowing of a bad day.

Every where they telling you
Everyone is telling you

Listen to the hype track
I'm on the central flow
Faucet water
God father
Mental pros
A con. Denote
The evidence and ghost...
A sentimental ghost
Tribute to the dispute
Of two heads of home
Where did all the sellers go

A seller in a buyers market
Walk the park
And spark it.
Trees for smoking
Feel cathartic

It be pocket margins
Capital investment
Profits.
Not confusing with
Prophet. Psalm Mohammed..
Its a dawn they wanted.
Man they got it
Shock value. Out the socket.
Lights apocalyptic
The talk is chronic vision
Rap assassination
Body chalk in.
Koffins picked out with the  plots for Christmas
Betty crocker with a *** to **** in.
Thats alot now listen
Body wash with hints of chocolate
Fragrant flow
The water faucet is.
Smelling like accomplishments.
But you know that we wanted this

Can the river really flow
Without  deliverance
Apacolypse mountain pine
Dine on what we did with it...
But we aint finished yet
Currency in duffle bags
No gimmick. Christ is in infinite
The ugly way.
The racists act like princes and
Shun away.
The bill with racial pride.
****** up isn't it....

sneaking away
our paths meet again
with every moment,
wondering when ,
the dance that consumes
the clothes  we shed
neath stars and  moon
we ******* rattle beds


cut jump up start living
every body get down
dark rythym the moon sits high
ive been bitten
everybody get down dark rythym


memories that flicker off
the scent she gives
like liquor shots
the little lids
of peppermint schnapps
so ******* hot
when she screams
don't ever stop

cut jump up start living
every body
get down
dark rhythym
the moon sits high
ive been bitten
everybody get down dark rythym



alternate original verse..........


memories go by flicker in the candle light
day rises into night
cant fight what I feel inside
blood starts to boil
my vision shakes
how much more lives will I take

Life
Life isbut a dream without an end
In the waking moments i have found
That what is real no longer
Makes much sense
Its the taste of music that i crave
The lust for bodies of a foreign nature
Yet much the same.
Its the words that fall against the chalkboard

Never written
Some how forbidden
Its the things that dont make much sense that seem to keep me smiling
And why not.
Why not smile when all i have is a cigarette and sweaty *****
Isnt that the reason were here?

Listening to the madness swirl
In echoes. Drifts
The plastic world.
Constant like autopsy
Thats the anatomy girl
Wrapping powder pearls
Twirl his finger
And he has it girl
But hed be nothing with out his girl
*** she's bomb like
Flowery burning
Showering flurries
She's coming down but she's out this world....

those are gone,
those little sparkling blues
in a bag
the green on the ashtray
and the white on the plate


those are gone
now left in between
is this dance with doctors
and the addiction team
with no sign of beating
odds im befuddled
strangling puddles
of my own
and rain is more than I can take

with words like venom
your lies
a destiny of hope
hiding behind
the smoke in your nose
and the pills in your throat

I believe in truth/
the breach between freedom and captivity
where my restraint becomes surrender
and temptation overturns it simple fun for common sense
never forget im the border between your dreams and what you thought possible
and with every waking moment I pray you find the lust of life out weighs your fear
***
**** your fear your amazing

The eyes cast judgement
Staring
Judging with fire and ice
Like snakes in the sawdust
They feel,
They move in my shadow
And I call to them in hopes I'm a decent man
In hopes that I am not the monster in the night
The watch is a lurking gasm
Not or not ore. Not nor the gasm the decisions
Laughter.
It's a profiling decision
Forensic eyes and hairstyles too them
See the trends and I'm unsorted
Sort of clueless and unfriended
But I'm paranoid my itch to know
Has known no endless. Pit of rotten
Self ambition
Mired in delusion, no proof n, short of scrooge like self inclusion
Trying to rhyme as if
Get this
Self indulgence was a solution
Masked
But garnered rights
And carnivore types
And fangs so pokey tensing
Sought the war of me against myself
The bitter end
No death scene
Its a mixed becoming a man
Puberty a foul cave to hide
Say no more I understand I'm weird

im a semi conscious pervert
with words that scar and ****\
submerged in undercurrents
that give ****** charges chills
im the first to make a burger
look less appealing than the fries
so you got beef throw all the salt you want\
it still wont cross my eyes

Genius in the atmosphere..
Approaching full insanity...
Managing my past its weird...
Altering external happenings
Like an addict taking head coach position. Terms of head re managing
Shake free from labels and chemical slavery....
Once a head on Dayton Street
Now playing the game
And beating Satan's team...
Persistence with mental preparation
Culmination of a sacred scheme
To make a scream
In space fill a vase with a rose a shade
Of dreams..
And re arrange the way he thinks
So last minute he breaks the vase
Like matrix lady...
Neo realizes.. it was the way she seen
It break. And he gets all gay and leaves...
Like *** its me.
I'm the chosen one to play on villas team....
Like im a villain scream..
In a little echo...
Shoot some rock kid. Let's go....
Before the killer screams
And my little schemes
Turn into building dreams
Oh my God..
This middle me is killing me....
Get grown or revert to
The little kid in me....

So I've accepted the fate ahead
And. No regrets.
Not even in the slightest
I want to make my bed
And pray to heaven
With messages inside us..
Eminems my only love right now.
Frightening slash
Massively excited.
Apparently I'm some transgender.
Queen.
Beyond imaginations finest...
Angelic with a prophecy
Evolving all the people
Here beside us.
Saving lost forgotten children
From the ******
Highness of hate and violence.
Anyway hes spineless.
I found God to get sobriety.
But ended up
With kindness. And a love
for everyone inside of me...
I'm going to get this surgery.
Be everything I find in me...
With God's highest guidance.
By my side.
No evil plot can ******. Trick
Or silence me....
I know i love you em congrats
on 13 years of sobriety
I hope when I'm asleep
You come to find me in a quiet sleep.
And we build a higher dynasty
Ps. Thanks for all the chocolate you been buying me.