Okay,
I know that I nag,
And I'm so annoying,
I always ramble,
And you put up with it.

See the thing is,
I haven't cared this much,
Not in a while,
And I don't want to lose you.

I'm scared,
That you'd break down,
And I wouldn't be there,
Or you might do something drastic,
Cuz I'll forever have nightmares.

You're so important to me,
I don't know why,
But I want to feel your heart aching,
I want you to know that I'll always care.

And that's why it kills me,
I never get to know,
If you're dying slowly,
Or I fill you with joy,
If you're incredibly happy,
Or I've made things worse.

I care so much,
And I love you so much,*
You're the most realistic friendship,
That I've ever had,
And I don't want to discomfort you,
But I'm scared that I'll lose you,
It'll all be my fault,
For not trying hard enough.

I need someone,
That makes me lose track of time,
Of  *everything.

That feeling in the pit of my stomach,
It has never been this real,
I think it's known by the name,
*Guilt.

•

I'm waiting.........



For the things the won't even happen...




© Earl Jane
♥ E.J.C.S.

Stomach pains,
Chest aches,
From the print,
*That your words left.

I've never been so scared,
Never have I ever,
Wished more to be in denial.

I'm drowning in the emptiness,
That your absence creates.

You don't even have to love me,
Just please,
Stop keeping me waiting.