I'm blind yet  I see
the view is blurred as my speech is slurred and head is clouded
**** I feel crowd'ed
as my heart grows heavy with the feelings of love that my father God has sent from above
Yet you push and shove your spirit upon me
**** leave me be
doubt sets in, let me kiss what I've missed even though I share wedded bliss
can you handle this
what im feeling
Confusion is what my heart and mind go's through being next to you
not really understanding
can  I share what I dare to bare in front of you and you in front of me
let's see am I ready?
Come lay with me and experience the softness of this hotness as we involve ourselves
you come  to  full ******* I taste the temptation as it falls from my lips
you grab my hips with desire as the temperature get higher hot we perspire
hands pressed heavy interlocked fingers starring at each other as if we
were lovers and with closed eye's we definitely see what we are meant to be
when we see eachother from afar
our secret!

As a child, adults said it's a phase we would go through; Some say we do it to keep from being who we are?
There as some things that just can't be decided overnight however most grow into who their suppose to be.
We look the same when we get up in the morning and when we lay down at night or do we ?
Some put on makeup to cover up the face that isn't happy
men sometimes shave a face that isn't ready to grow up (changing faces)
to disguise ourselves, putting on aires to make believe we're who we want to be or think we are.
Shallow in our own minds ashamed at times and confused what is beautiful
beauty is so much more than skin deep
can't hide scares that bruise real deep (shape-shifting faces)
should you go on pretending that these many faces don't bother you?
Vivid in a confused mind (scandalous faces) I see before me, scared
by tormenting words and taunts of no respect of the heart (lying faces)
these images , these many faces are misleading you to believe that you can trust and hold on to it!
It's better to put on your greatest face and perform a self-confident face !

I'm Possible
I am possible because of God
I am possible because two forces or unacquainted love, was brought together to create greatness ME!
We are all possible and uniquely designed, Fat, tall, skinny, short, ugly, cute who are you to judge we are possibly the greatest thing God has ever created and powerful.
I’m possible and exonerated from the sins of my past in fact was told I was lazy, I'd amount to nothing, poor with no class……. Low self-esteem stupid giving up the ***.
It’s possible to change and be someone of good character, however, those demons never let you forget what you were & who and perhaps  what you did.
I’m possible, God changed me and I will admit I have my setbacks, I backslide but it’s possible to ask for forgiveness and move on.
We are all possible and anything is possible if you believe that your dreams and our goals are attainable.
Be possible be great
We are here because God made it possible.
Thinking out loud, written by Monica Chrisandtras Hines

Broken Spirit

As I watch the water flow from my hands
A glance in the mirror reminds me that I’m still human
& the heart must break to heal.
Graphic and detailed memories
Of a broken Spirit. I’ve succumb  to the darkness & of the pain I felt, losing my breath was the easiest thing to do. Walking amongst the crowd pity was not felt! Truly deserving ROARS of laughter
Foolish Broken spirit
The L on my forehead would depict a loser so I was marked and shamed named a *****
For a performance held behind closed doors
Embarrassed and Broken
Cause lack of knowledge furthered the humiliation of this woman
The anticipation of anxious hands grasped this angelic ***
And once more giving into a lie as I laid there naked and confused
Broken Spirit
A mouth full of *** not swallowed bothered me as his lips curved happy
Was he, I lost my respect somewhere on bended knee
And so unsure was he as he pulls his pants up and walks out
The door leaving me with this Broken Spirit…

I’m keeping my head up!!!

Thanks for the advice(M)
Written By Monica Chrisandtras Hines

Luke warm
was the weather that maybe kept us, and beautiful were the leaves that fell when he left.
Summer was gone and winter stayed a bit longer than I would have liked,
I was glad to see Autumn again.
Carmel yellow, red, and the deepest shade of green set a sense of fall
& through it all I'd remember Autumn.
The way the trees swayed in the breeze my soul could be eased by his voice and the choice to rejoice come dawn.
I'll always remember,
Never summer,spring, winter
Always Autumn.

Bottle half empty, beads of sweat glisten across the forehead
of a troubled man
The drink has him in this sedated state of rest, as he
drunkenly
tries to put his hands on my breast
not quite coherent my self  
Liquor enhanced my lustful state of mind
So I flash his vision blurred eyes
staggering to a corner to kiss
Bacardi laced lips, I raised my skirt
Not quite Sober
Warm lips caress what's hidden
I squat down too scared to moan
He takes another swig of the bottle and bathes
the ****, I shiver in excitement
As he unveils his ****
Not quite Sober !

Bruise's heal , but the scars still remain
& the subtle pain of a memory felt & the guilt of a not said sorry!
Abuse