I drink pink grapefruit flavored drinks
my face smells like the citrus
when I lose things and people
I change my hair
it helps me cope with the idea that I can never finish a stick of lip balm and most of the people I've known only yield disappointment
no one is at fault here
but the blame is usually pushed into my intestines
and I spend five days throwing up
I used to be afraid that I would never see the entire world
now I'm afraid I'll never spend enough time in a place I can call home
every morning the smell of grapefruit grows stronger

It was our last memory together.
I never knew the beach got cold,
Or that in the shower you glow gold.
You told me you'd be waiting for me.
I wish you meant what I was thinking.
"I'm in love with you."
"I guess this is goodbye."
And just like that, she was gone.